ASMR Sketchbook _ Journal tour

Hey Cinnabonys, welcome back to Cinnamon ASMR. Today we're going to take a look at what I've done over the past few years. I draw to get therapeutic purposes for self-expression and things like that, to just get out ideas. And I love it. So, this is when I was trying to draw an eye a day in, I think, 2019, I'm not sure. But I was spending a lot of time on it. As you can see, I think most of them were in ink, if not all of them. And I did it for a little while. This one I liked. I drew, like, squiggly in the iris. And over here I sketched an anvil paperback of a stranger beside me. An oral author's photo. On the second day I did use pencil for the eye. And I sketched a triquantra. A Celtic knot. This is the eye I did. Day three we have some dramatic eyeliner. And this is done in pencil. More brows. And down here we have been a... Wine glass. Might be water. I don't know what's in it. Probably water. Yeah, I think what I was doing was I would try to draw an eye or eyes and then some other objects. But I didn't always do that, I don't think. But we're on day four and I just have a little pen sketch of an eye and eyebrow. And the iris is kind of like a wheel. It has segments coming out of it. I've got a 3D Z and some scissors. I don't know. Day five is in a red ink. Just kind of make squiggly points. This is a male eye right there. And... I kind of drew the shape of the eye. The iris is kind of cool, it's got like lightning detail. I even put some lines in the white and then just all of these lines radiating out. Which makes it kind of into a symbol rather than an eye. Day six, I guess I was on a kick of outlining the eyes and shapes. This is kind of like a sideways heart shape. Squiggles in the iris. We've got a spiral. And this actually looks like a hand, doesn't it? That's probably what I was going for. And then just some blue squiggles. Looks like water. These kind of look like ancient symbols. Snapping into a heart die. Okay, well. I've got a number of eyes here. That one's kind of looking over the side. Three eyes. One, two, three. And I don't know what's going on with the eyebrow. Looks like I did a backwards eyebrow. I wrote weird and actually colored this little doodle in with pink. And then there's just random. I guess I was trying to draw this potion bottle. I know it's a potion bottle because I wrote potion. Day seven, you guys. Day eight. This has some sort of tube. A squeeze tube. I don't know what's going on with that. Bit of a hint of an eyebrow. A little better looking eye down here. Maybe some eyeshadow. Kind of done in with a pen. Again, the smuggle iris. I must have really been into that. You can do a question mark. And another spiral with lines. This is interesting. Day nine. So obviously right here we have glasses. Frames, like square frames. And I can see right under the top of the frames is the eyebrow. And I'm not sure if I just didn't finish the eyes. I'm not sure if this would be closed. It doesn't really look like closed eyes though. I don't know. I guess I just stopped. Down here it looks like I drew one of my weird irises. I don't know. It's in red ink. Red ink. Day nine. Day ten we have a flower. Kind of looks like a rosebud maybe or something like that. Just a quick sketch of an eye. And black ink. Here's a rose drawing I did. At some point I made the jacket. Actually, I really like this. So these are just, I guess kind of like design-y type stuff I was trying to do. I drew one and then I tried to recreate it. I wrote howl for some reason. Here's a marker sketch of a skeleton. And then this is like a bird head or something. And I do have a backbone, a spine. Skeleton's on his knees, like I guess begging or praying or something. Or a webcage. Just red skeletons. I think skeletons are cool. Here's just a very faint sketch of a 1961 Balenciaga dress. I think I saw this on Tumblr and it was really pretty. I think it's blue, but I didn't really finish. But I did get the bow at the waist. And just kind of... Okay, this is January 2020. Some squiggles. This is kind of a free ink. I wrote fall of trees right here for some reason. Just another dream. And then I like this bird. Love these trees. I'll add a bee right here and then a... avocado hat that's a little bit shaded. So this is starting to get fancy. Okay, on this page I was kind of obsessed with electricity and these jagged lines that are kind of everywhere in life. The nervous system and things like that. Maybe it could come from fractals. I'm not sure, but... And then a lightning bolt. Yeah, I wrote fractals. Electricity, feeling, power. Nervous system and the universe. All these delicate little strands. This is just a figure drawing. Body movement. Footsteps. Shoulders. Kind of a ghost of a face, but... I think I nailed symmetry and proportions here is how, even though it's not detailed, I'll add it here. I have another eye drawing with some... Oh yeah, I like how this faint design that continues up, up, up. And this is another wicked text section of a sketchbook. Don't share your plans and dreams with anyone. I drew a little dream box. Shapes and shadows. Take a cleansing shower. Wash off the protection of others. A promise is a spell. Sometimes I just like to sit and sketch and sometimes just like phrases and words and ideas come to me and sometimes I can use them later in a poem or a story or just a conceptual idea or just like you know, affirmations for myself. You know, we're constantly sculpting our own reality and journaling and just sketching kind of helps us become the self that we would like to be. Here's a couple of eyes I did in January of last year. I'm not really liking the eyelashes on these but the eyebrows are pretty good. Eye shapes are not bad. This was on January 13th, 2020. It's kind of a good base for peering out from. So. I like it though, it looks cool. I have the shadow of a nose and then down here I did some work on his detailing. So. Here's a chalice I drew. It's shady. And I wrote at the top, a cup of bitterness first. It tastes so sweet. Here's an empress I drew. She's kind of poor. She has a crown of flowers or maybe something else. Hard to tell. Here's like a planet with something shooting off of it. You don't know what you don't know. And then try again and again and again and okay this is a world of her own. This again is on January 20th. I don't know if that was on the 20th but it was definitely in 2020. I should write that. This is on 1-14-2020. Yeah. I don't think this is a quote from anywhere, I just have like an idea, one name is probably inspired by something but Angel of Death is a girl on a summer's day and then I tried to draw like a really beautiful image of a girl on a summer's day. It's really more about her clothes. You can kind of see her arm. I really like the movement of the idea. 1-15-2020 I drew some eyes and then used a black marker I think or eyeliner different eyebrow shapes did a little bit of nose work but I'm not really happy with it but I think it could be tweaked to look how I want it to look. Oh I love this page. So this is from 1-25-2020 and we've got some birds of a wet little like a window. These two little birds are looking at each other like it's a lovely image and then down here it's a like cross section of a teacup that has fish in it. I love it, it's very dreamy, very like Alice in Wonderland surrealistic. Also kind of a little bit of cottagecore. I love it. I have a thing for teacups, especially teacups. I don't have tea and then have like weird stuff in them. This page has been through it but this is from 1-14-2020 and it's kind of simple. I can't really read what that says because I never have to. I have no idea but this is just a letter and it says something that I will never say outright. It's kind of like about taboo thoughts and feelings that I don't know, sometimes we feel compelled to keep to ourselves even though they feel like our truth at the time. Sometimes it's better to just keep things to yourself. But other times keeping things to yourself it's detrimental to yourself and others so it's really hard to walk that line of self-expression and communication. I'm still trying to figure that out. Oh this is a beautiful page, I think. It's from 2-2-2020 and it has another eye with a kind of dramatic line with like like three wings. I like that look. And then down here we have some really cute little detail-y things. It's a beautiful looking glass mirror. Speaking of Alice in Wonderland. Looking glass flies by. I think it's a brunette, it's got a bow on the top. It's just like kind of a little pattern work. Kind of looks like a bee on a wall or something. Some beautiful strawberries. I love how this turned out. Daisy and like a moth. Moth. Sort of plant. These are done with dark pencil. I love how that looks. 2-7-20-20. This is another woman. That's just like flowing. Some sort of flowing robe. I'm trying to figure out how to draw fabric but it looks realistic. 2-7-20-20. It's a rose. It's kind of a not really a realistic rose. I started with the rose as a reference and I was just like going nuts on the shading. I don't know, it turned out looking kind of surreal. Abstract. I kind of like it. 2-27-20-20. I've got some eyes, a pair of eyes that look like teardrops. This shirt looks like a trash can. This is like a leaf or a flower. It kind of looks like something else I won't mention. This is, I don't know, like a stack of something. Daisy and then we almost disappeared and OMG you are very ugly. I get that comment sometimes like stuff like that. Sarcasm. It's just like rattling around in my brain and I rip it out. Sometimes when I write things out like that I kind of release it. You know, release it from me. I have to like shed it from my brain because it's just stuck rattling around. This is on a smaller sketchbook from 2-12-20-20 and there's a flower. I don't know what that is but it's radiating and then a slice of cake, a layer cake. I just wrote on the back wildflowers. What is the secret formula? Prisms, cut glass and daggers. Some blue ink. Lines and lines. A flower of some kind. And then like a bird. I don't know if this is explaining anything to you. Another. It's like you're taking a look inside my mind with all these like random thoughts and images and stuff. This is a little kawaii sketch I did based on a little book I had like how to draw kawaii and I thought I would draw this little creature munching on a lollipop. A lollipop. And the lollipop's eyes is kind of brutal. To be honest, it's still very cute. Okay. We're skipping to April 9th of 2020. Yeah. This is an eye I went to school like after wing that I drew based on cheekly cheekly dreams. It was G-I-G-L-I-G-I-U-L-F on Instagram. So that was my reference for this. I drew a coffee plant for a robusta. This page is nice. This is another from 2020. It says, Billboard oranges on fire from 1975. Wow. I think this is like an art billboard. I don't know. It's not online. I just decided to try to draw it. There's the oranges. I think it's like an orb and then the fires appear. It's kind of hard to see in my old sketch but this is kind of from later in 2020, I think. Dream. Fairy god. Tutor style asymmetrical exterior. Dream at a fairy cottage and I drew like a sketch and down here I drew another one and I wrote tutor style question mark asymmetrical exterior. I like that. I don't know what this says. From August 9th, 2020. I drew some bottles and then I don't know what this is but it's kind of interesting. Oils and tonics abyss and breathe as I wrote on top. No guarantees. Spit out into the mist of existence. That's a good phrase just phonically. Mist of existence. Choking on all you assume. I feel like I drew some lemons in like a honeypot or something. Society of broken things. Destroy dreams and then I've got some force fields or something. Don't disappear, I need you right down here. And then a flower and then like patterns leather. And down here it says the morning is such a strange thing to do. Okay, this was a concept that I had about like activating dreams with water or some other substance. Her dreams were dry, they needed to be activated with water or perhaps a stronger potion. And then I've got this like activated dream flask. Like a pill bottle, I don't know. And then I did like a label thing. Dream powder. I've got another some more eyes, this is just like a regular eye then this one has a web makeup look. I saw this cat probably on Tumblr or Instagram but it's got heart markings which is completely meaningless like but human it means something to humans when we see stuff like this and it makes us it makes us go crazy. It's so cute though, the little tail. So this is another like dress detail. This is sort of high fashion dress that has this fabric that was coming like this is the waist and it was coming out like this. It looked really cool. I didn't do it justice but I was just trying to get my feelers on drawing it. This is a rammy or something. I don't know, I didn't do a good job of documenting what I was drawing. You are not your beauty, your purpose is not to please or impress. I think that's an important and really tough thing that we have to come to if we want peace in life. Then I kind of drew I think these are bottles. Perfume bottles. It's almost like a woman's bottom half with her thigh going that way. I'm not sure but it's interesting maybe because she has a nose and lips and just a little silly flower. This is another girl's face. It could be a lot better but I feel like it does have personality. Does she have a pill in her mouth? I don't know what's going on there. This is from December 2020. Not that long ago. I don't remember even making this. I remember some of the others more vividly. Another from December 2020. I've got like a champagne state. Busy tonics for dizzy brains. How to fall asleep when the world is ending. Video idea maybe. The end is big. I guess I'm just going to write beginning. I don't know. I'm grabbing some leaves. Oh this is cute. So I drew a little cottage with some ivy and stuff and a little circle window and some clouds and a frog. Oh this is my frog container. I think some of you may have seen it. It's a little plastic green container that has a frog face on the top. I just wrote moldy bugs because I imagined moldy bugs inside the cottage. So the waves rush in and come out just So we have another rose and a butterfly. I like the butterfly turned out good. You can see there's one rose that I tried that I just erased and the remnants remain. Oh another cool It kind of looks like a bottle. This is something I drew in 2020 around the time I was putting rhinestones on things. I don't know if you saw that video. Probably not. But this I like as like a design for a t-shirt or other merchandise. It's a swirl of the ice cream and the jacket ice cream cone. I thought turned out really sick. Let me know if you want some Blitz Cinnamon merch with this design on. I thought this was really cool. It's a doorway in Waco, Texas. Seems like more stuff to it but I just really like the way the asymmetry of it. Just a rough sketch of Lady of the Forest with leaves in her hair. Then I wrote the treasure you seek is an illusion. And some eyes. That's sick. And a little flower. It's like during the design of a book cover or something. Here's a sketch I did of David Lynch. Not bad. I like his hair. And then I kind of did the blue velvet font a little bit. Very rough. So this is supposed to be blue. I'll probably color it in with blue or like redo it but this is an idea I have. I got a little fairy right there. It's supposed to be blue fire coming from a cup or chalice. This is a rose that's on fire. Smoke and shadows. Flames are like spirits. I like fire. I'll leave this in because it's more like weirdness but I'm not really I don't know what that is but I wrote the crystals that sustain me ran out so I had to find a new spell new powers and potions eternal rose crystal galaxy rose creativity makes you look crazy. It's just colors. I'm under a lot of pressure to be myself whoever that is. Thanks for spending some time with me. I'll be back at you soon with some more cool ----. Love you so much. Bye.