This Was Hard For Her To Share... An Oddly *emotional* Mukbang Q+A

If you could delete one social media platform forever, which would it be? IG or YouTube? Is it like emotionally if we're not doing it, then you're like, huh, shoot. I personally feel like more spiritual warfare here than I did in Arizona. I could ask you, do you dream about doing things with other girls? Don't hold that against you at all. It's more on me. I apologize for that. Hello, everyone. Welcome back to our channel. My name is Kyle, if this is your first time joining us. And I'm Cayenne. And we are excited to eat some really, really good food. We're so hungry. We're so hungry. So today we're doing a mukbang, answering some of your questions, eating some Bangin' Thai food. And I know maybe some of you guys don't enjoy watching people eat. So this is not the video for you. Probably not. I don't mind it. I don't either. Well, let's show them what we got. We picked up some Thai food from our local food truck called Thai Me Up. And I got the drunken noodles. It's like my favorite Thai dish ever. And then this is a curry pad thai special with ahi. Yum. And I always get my drunken noodles extra spicy. Sorry, it's very windy today. So this was a good call. You may hear the trees rustling. Yeah. But, you know, some say that's kind of nice to hear in the background. Good ambiance. Yeah. So if you don't like seeing people eat food, maybe just... Oh, you could turn us off. Yeah, just don't watch. But feel free to listen. Enjoy. Kind of take it as a podcast. It's going to be a good time. So hungry. Let's eat for now. Yeah, let's eat for now. How's that? Really good. Question number one. You ready? What is one thing you're scared to ask me but really want to know? There's stuff I'm scared to ask you, but I don't think I want to know. What are you scared to ask me? I could ask you, do you dream about doing things with other girls? But do I really want to know? Because the answer is probably yes. I don't know. My last two dreams have been about you. Yeah, that's just the last two. I don't really remember my dreams. That's true. So I guess you couldn't really tell. But from what I remember, I couldn't tell you the last time I dreamed about another girl. Wow. Have you experienced your attraction for each other to fluctuate? Tips to get it back. Does your attraction to me fluctuate? Yes, it fluctuates. Be honest. Yeah, I'm being honest. We're always honest here. This is a place of honesty. It definitely fluctuates. Like the other day when we were having our Passover meal and you were washing hands, like it went up. It went up through the roof. I'll insert a picture of it now. And there's definitely been times where it's probably going down a little bit. What are the times when it goes down? I don't know. It's kind of hard to like... Like if we're not... Is it like emotionally if we're not doing good, then you're like, she's ugly. No. I was with you until you said that last part. But yeah, sometimes emotionally when we're not doing too good. It's not like, uh, she's ugly. It's just like, I don't see the beauty. You know, like it's like kind of gets like masked over. Yeah. So like attraction can fluctuate then. And like attraction fluctuates. But this is more like an upwards thing. It's kind of more like an upwards thing. Not so much a downwards thing. So I have like a baseline. You have like a baseline. Yeah. And like usually it like fluctuates from that baseline, which is already like up here. To like up here, right? And like kind of fluctuates in this area. Very rarely will it ever fluctuate down below the baseline. And that's just like when we're not doing good. It can kind of like fog things up, you know? Does that make sense? That makes sense. Yeah. You're a very sweet guy. You're a very sweet girl. Thank you. I don't know if you think I'm going to be sweet after I answer the question. I'm just kidding. I already know. You can't say it goes down. I mean just, oh goodness. Have you seen like my dad bod lately? I love the dad bod. Yeah? What about you? Fluctuation? Like go ahead and answer honestly. Yeah, I would say it fluctuates. But similar like it's emotionally like the most attractive thing about you, I always say was like how much you love Jesus. And so if there's a time where you're like going through a rut or like you're just in like super moody. I'm just like ugh. Wow. I'm gross. Oh, I've had my moments. It's not a cute look. I've had my moments. You've had your moments. When you don't get a haircut. You're the one who wants me to grow my hair out. No, listen, listen to me. I'm listening, go ahead. I'm also eating because this is fire. When you had your short hair. Yeah. But you didn't maintain it. So it would grow to this really awkward length and then you would have a unibrow and your facial hair would get all out of whack. I'm like, hmm, could be better, you know? Could be better. Wow. Okay. Yeah, we'll sweet girl. But I'm not like, ugh, gross. Like I don't even want to touch him because he's not like that. All I know is right now, you're dropping below the baseline. Okay, you are now fluctuating into the no man's land. All right. That's why I said I don't think you're going to like me after this answer. Are you offended by what I just said? No. Not at all. Because dude, it would happen for me too if I... I've had my moments. Yeah. Yeah, if I'm... I'm like... What do you think? Is it unattractive when I'm moody? Depending. Actually, no, you think it's funny. Yeah, it's kind of funny and sometimes cute. But sometimes it's not the moodiness. It's when like you also have your moments. When those moments come up. Yeah. Same thing. Like those are like the only times where it's just like... Don't want to get all up in that. But in fact, I want to leave. No, I'm just kidding. How do you compare your life in Hawaii with your life in Arizona? We should do this for every video. Yeah. Great. This is great. I already know how many comments we're going to get though. People hating it. We're definitely outside more. Yeah, and like you have the obvious, right? So you have the obvious of like it's more beautiful here. We're outside more. There's more things to do that we enjoy. Like going to the beach and surfing and snorkeling and... New hobbies. So that's all different. I think I was thinking a little more deeper though. Oh yeah, because it's so deep. Yeah, because I'm a deep guy, you know? So like I'm kind of thinking in terms of like... Me personally, my mentality, my focus, my drive. Like kind of like more in that way. Our relationship and how that's different from being in Arizona to here. Yeah, how is it? Give us the answer. And first, you know, I like to give the process behind the answer, right? So I would say the answer to our relationship would be it's better. I think we're just learning a lot through this experience. We're growing a lot. We're being stretched in new ways. The Lord's brought amazing community around us to speak life into us and encourage us and just be there for us. There's also the... It's like when you do something new that's kind of like big and extreme in a sense with your partner. There's a lot of like bonding that happenings in that. Like connection, deeper connection. So I think it's been really good for us in the beginning. I wasn't sure because it was a little rough. There's some rocky roads. The attraction level was definitely fluctuating for both of us. But it's been really good and a blessing. So I think that's just been amazing. And then on top of that with like me personally, emotionally, mindset wise, all that, I definitely have been feeling a shift. There's been a shift happening here. There's something different about here and in a good and a bad way. I personally feel like more spiritual warfare here than I did in Arizona. It's kind of like a struggle in new ways. And it's been stretching to me in that way. And also like to like really dive back into the Lord, into the word, the way that like I desire, which I feel even today, there was a shift that's kind of getting me back to that place of like ready to go back all in. But I don't know. It's just been kind of like a roller coaster, you know, like a roller coaster that I think here, though, what I'm getting at the difference between here and AZ is I feel like in AZ, there wasn't as much challenge and stretching. And much of a roller coaster is kind of like a steady do do. This is kind of like a womb, womb, womb, you know. So does that make sense? Yeah, yeah, I think probably not. I'm not sure we could just cut all that out. So I'm just gonna get back to eating, but I like it better here. You do? Yeah. I would say life is a bit more slow. Definitely could slow down even more, but a lot more. I honestly we have moments where it feels really slow, but it's also like kind of really fast. It feels like in terms of like going to work, coming back, going to coaching, doing the other job in between, doing YouTube. It's just like intentional. We have to be more intentional with the time we do have and probably work less, which hopefully you'll be able to shift back in a little bit. I would say my creativity has like gone up. So yeah, my job has been like I've had a lot more inspiration with YouTube and having our home and yeah. Yeah, that's your answer? Yeah. After my 10 minute? Yeah, because I can't keep going on. You took up all that time for that question. We're gonna cut it out. You need to ask me a question now. Oh, what do you think was your most vulnerable moment in our relationship? Oh man. Most vulnerable moment. I don't know if I want to share. No, you need to share it. Oh my God. No, I'm actually, I'm confused. What is it? Vulnerable is like showing like the most vulnerable, like hard parts of yourself. Yeah. So I would say when we first moved here and we were getting in like really bad arguments. Intense fellowship. Yeah. No, they were arguments. And I was like so, I was so mentally exhausted, physically exhausted, emotionally exhausted that like I didn't know how to handle it. And so I would like try my best to hold on and then I would explode and we would have an argument. Nevermind, I'm not going to tell you guys. No, go on. You're just killing it. I'm sorry, you said explode. Okay, then I would just explode. I'm sorry, go on. Yeah, that wasn't very nice of you. I'm sorry. Because this is a fun thing for me to share. Oh, okay. Like I really don't even want to share it. I'm sorry, I apologize. I take the fart back. I take it all back. I didn't realize, I'm sorry. Anyway. Speak to me. I would just get so overwhelmed that I didn't know how to, I didn't know what to do. So it would manifest in me like hurting myself physically. I would get so frustrated that I would like bang on the ground and like hit my head and stuff. And I think, I don't know, I was very ashamed of how I handled those. Having so much built up that I literally, the only way I felt like I could get it out was through like hurting myself or like physically just hitting something. So that's probably most vulnerable, but I feel like you haven't judged me for that. And obviously I am in a much better place and haven't done it. Yeah, definitely. I mean, I take responsibility for that too. Like it was me not handling scenarios right, not talking to you and giving you a safe place to talk and like I did a lot of things that held you back from being able to release that in a healthy way. So I don't judge you at all for it. In fact, I feel like responsible in a way for that. Like that was, that's my bad. And like on top of that, I also understand because I used to beat the crap out of doors and walls and people, you know, when I got so built up and pissed off and all that. And you know, I didn't know how to handle it or a healthy way to release it. So, and I'm sure many people out there watching, they also have experienced that in one way or another as well. But no, I still don't hold that against you at all. In fact, it's more on me and I apologize for that. I love you. Love you too. Yeah. So that's great. Wow. Yeah, I didn't realize I thought you were going to say something like farting or, you know, something like, shoot, I don't know. I was not expecting that. Wow. That's what I was saying. I was like, oh, I really don't want to answer that. Wow. This just took a turn. Well, I appreciate, I know, I know they, they appreciate to your, your honesty there, your transparency. That's not an easy thing to share. Yeah. What about you? Did I not answer yet? Oh, mine's just picking my nose at night before we go to bed, flicking it across the room, do it every night. You don't even care. You literally just fart in public. Like that stuff, like doesn't even bother you. Hey, better out than in, they say. So that doesn't count. Um, most vulnerable. Do you have something for me? No, we can save it for another time. Let's go to another question. Wait, no, but I don't, I can't even think of anything. Probably when you had to confess some sins. Oh. That's probably when you, I feel like you were most vulnerable. Shoot. Yeah, that's a good one. Yeah. All right. Well, let's get into it, shall we? We can save it for, I know we wanted to do a whole video on that. Yeah. But that's a good way of putting it is confessing some sins of mine that were very hard to confess to her. And, um, yeah. Well, if you want a video on that, drop it in the comments. Maybe we'll do that next time. But that gets, that gets pretty deep, pretty raw. So yeah, 100%. Let's lighten the mood. Yeah, let's do it. Can we? Yeah, I'm going to go back to eating. What's your favorite protein powder? Don't drink it. Do you have a fave worship song right now? Um, I think I'm always going to have this one as my favorite. It's wild and crazy. It's been that for years. Uh-huh. My favorite worship song at the moment, uh, spirit rest on us. I was driving the other week, just singing that song. And I just felt the Holy Spirit. Yeah, I just felt like I was just like singing it over the island and really felt God's heart for this place. So yeah, it's really good. Amen. So good. If you guys have any suggestions, I feel like I haven't been like in the loop of the new worship. Yeah. Hit us with some new ones. I feel like our church kind of is kind of repetitive. Like they don't a little bit. It's not like they're on to like the newest, you know, singing the newest trendy song. So, and I feel like in the past, that's usually where I hear them from. Kind of. Anyway. Yeah. But yeah, let us know if you guys know your favorite. That's your question of the day. Yeah. What's your favorite worship song at the moment? What is your favorite worship song at the moment? And if you haven't yet smashed that thumb button, turn it blue. If you don't subscribe, you should subscribe, follow along. And let's get back to the questions. Okay. I got one for you. Okay. What is it? All right. You ready? Yeah. When do you feel the most loved? This is kind of like a one answer in general. It's like a quick rapid fire. I got like a four part here. All right. When do I feel when do you feel the most loved in general? In general, I feel most loved when I'm connected to God. Amen. All right. What do you love most about God? His love. Love it. What is your favorite memory from your childhood or a memory you never shared with me? My favorite memory from my childhood. Shoot. Shoot my goose. I don't know. I have so many. We would just like run around the neighborhood, ride my bike to Mr. Z's, which was like a local supermarket and like scrounge up all the quarters around the house to go to Mr. Z's and buy something or I don't know. We would go to Six Flags a lot when I was little. Just grew up with a lot of siblings and a lot of good memories. Nice. That's good. Yep. Very good. When do you feel the most loved? When I feel respected and valued. What do you love most about God? That he is a very forgiving God and he loves me. What is your favorite memory from childhood? Just like playing games, playing sports, like kick the can in the neighborhood or. Kick the can. Yeah. Or manhunt. You don't know kick the can? Oh, I love kick the can. Or manhunt or any games like that because I was really good at them. I was really fast. Yeah. And I was like quick and I make like climb up trees really fast, stuff like that. They can never find me. I was so good at the game. So I literally like I remember those so much. And we used to play every single night though. Like it was yeah, it was really cool. We had a bunch of kids in the neighborhood. So that was a lot of fun. If you could delete one social media platform forever, which would it be? IG or YouTube? Probably Instagram. Yeah, me too. Yeah. I feel like YouTube, I love watching YouTube and creating on YouTube. But Instagram, I go through seasons of like not wanting to be on it or not liking it or yeah, not being consistent. So it just doesn't light my fire like YouTube does. Yeah, it doesn't light that fire like I do. Yeah, like you. Right. Yeah, like you do. One assumption you had about being a husband that changed now that you are one? Well, if you've seen our other videos, obviously the assumption I had was it was going to be very easy. Can you think of like a more specific one? Yeah, that's what I was about to do. And obviously that was debunked. A more specific one would probably be that. I can tell you one if you want to think. Go ahead. An assumption I had about being a wife when I was single, like before I met Kyle. I was like, oh, I'm just gonna be like the best wife ever. I'm gonna give him massages and all the time and serve him and write him love notes. What happened? All those things. What happened? I think I just spent so much going through the fire that like you're like, oh, shoot. And I just don't do those things. I don't know. I have no excuse. Maybe we should start doing this. Yeah, I would like. I'll take a back massage tonight. You still owe me a foot massage. I do. Jeez. My thumb is finally or my fingers finally healed. I can give you your foot massage. Goals. I thought it would be easier to be like selfless. Yeah, no, 100%. 100%. Me too. Yeah, I would agree. I thought that was an assumption. You know, it's like when you get in a relationship and you would like literally do everything and anything for that person, right? It's like when it's new, it's fresh. Then you're with them a long time. You're like, I get it yourself. Yeah, I don't feel like it, you know, and you start to become more selfish, right? Yeah. Well, I thought, I guess in marriage that wouldn't happen. It would just stay continuous. Yeah. You have to really fight that off. You do. Yeah. And be intentional and like. Be intentional. Lean on God to give you the. Yeah. Strength and unconditional love. God to yourself and it's all sanctification, right? Yeah. So it's a process. We're learning. We're growing and you all heard it here. Kayana is going to start writing me love letters, massaging my feet and my back. What's she going to do? Here he is being just so selfish again. Yeah. Just talking about what I'm going to do. I am sanctified. What else are you going to do? Be the best wife ever. The best wife. Give me some. Boom. And a side note for you ladies out there who do end up getting a ring or have a ring. Don't put it in your car under the mat. Why do you have to bring that up? Because the video is done. I had just forgot about it and now you wanted to remind me. I'm trying to help them out because you know, I don't want other people to experience it. Take care of your stuff. Just take care of your stuff. Yeah. We had a melted smashed ring. Yeah. Our wedding band. My wedding band. His wedding band got lost in the ocean and now my wedding band has been destroyed. Literally destroyed. Like smash is crazy. Hopefully somebody can fix it. Yeah. If not, we'll get you a new one, baby. Why do you have to bring that up? Just to help the people. Anyways, with that, we love you guys. Remember. Sorry, start over. Anyways, with that, we love you guys. Remember. Anyways. Just say it normally. That was normal. You're like, and anyways, with that, I say, love you. Got her. Get her, handsome. All right, guys, we love you and Jesus loves you more. And handsome loves us the most. Get her, buddy. Get her. He's getting me. No, ow. Oh, he's getting me. Jeez. Bye.