Woman dies, Reveals The Trauma Won't Stop Until YOU Break This!

I think the greatest miracle that came out of it is that when I got my mind back I was able to basically see through all the BS and I was able to see this multi-generational trauma And all of these issues that led up to all of this And that gave me strength And yes, I am A little tired of being called. Oh, you're so strong Oh, you know, sometimes you don't know how strong you can be when you're given nutrients Hello, my name is katherine annis. I am the owner and founder of the dawning institute and I had my Nde when I was 17 years old in my sleep So the night of my nde As you can imagine with very very powerful Psychiatric drugs running through my system Things that I never needed so you can only imagine the effects that they had it's Not out of the it's not out of question To have something like this happen in fact It is on the warning labels The night I died Wasn't unlike most nights It was a cool Late spring early summer And I had my window slightly open to allow the breezing It was nice. Um, I lived in a bedroom community um, and it it was Also a farm town. So we had many You know farmers markets and you know, pick your own when the when the seasons came in And at night you could hear the cows and the horses grazing in the fields Once in a while a train would go by And sometimes it would just lull you to sleep So between the plethora of medications And come to find out I also have pretty severe sleep apnea. Thanks to my father's side of the family I finally fell asleep What I was dreaming I can't exactly remember what up But I do remember It coming to an abrupt halt and all of a sudden this Blazingly beautiful white light Just came down and enveloped my whole being it um It was the most miraculous feeling i've ever felt And in fact, there's no words That I could ever use to describe how Much love and acceptance peace Unity tranquility all of these beautiful words Something i've never felt before or even even since And I remember levitating above my body And I I was going up through the light And it was just the most beautiful experience I remember I would have my right hand rising above me towards the apex Just wanting to touch it wanting to get to the other side And even though I didn't exactly know per se what was on the other side. I knew that it was home I knew that it was a home that I belonged to But I didn't know it Because that's not what I was Living in this life My left arm my left hand was to my side And these colors were just dancing around me and when I finally When I finally reached the apex of the light It was my Brother that passed away about Seven years before we had a really special relationship And he met me at the apex And I heard his voice Something that i've missed and um He told me You have to go back don It's not your time yet And to give you a little context my birth name is actually dawn It was the name that my father had always wanted for his first daughter And it just never felt right for me I was really teased about it, you know dawn the dish soap, um growing up in elementary school, so I had really negative feelings about it. So I legally changed it in 2013 And so when he told me it wasn't my time There was this Force that just pushed me backwards You couldn't see it but I fell I fell back And I remember I was screaming. No, you know, I don't want to go back I don't want to go back to this family to this life to this to this hell and When I finally woke up And I took my first breath my lungs were stinging And my joints were stiff My heart felt like it was beating out of its chest My mind was racing and I tried to just process all that happened And it just finally Sank in I died That was that was it. I died now after I was able to Pull myself together I got up and I went into my mom's room You know, you think your mom is the one that's supposed to guide you through something that is basically life-altering, you know Be gentle with you. Love you kind of Support you That's not what I got I woke her up and I told her mom. I think I just died. I don't know what happened But I I heard brother jerry he was up there he told me to go back that it wasn't my time I was trying to tell her all of this mind. You was about 2 or 3 a.m um and She kind of rolled over and With this exasperated frustrated angry look on her face She told me To knock it off It was just a dream to go back to bed and don't wake her up again with this nonsense because she Has to go to class in the morning and she needs her sleep So I went back to my room I went back feeling completely rejected and Whenever I tried to bring it up with either her or other friends Of course You're standing right in front of them. You're you're fine. You're perfectly normal. You never went to the hospital You didn't have this big accident. You didn't you know You don't have anything to really prove it on paper And so they'd either just count me Flat out. Oh, it didn't happen. Just like my mother did or they Placate me They tell me oh, yeah, that's that's amazing that's good. Um, so hey, how about and then they completely change the subject I learned To keep my mouth shut After this whole experience after everything that i've been through I am able to Let's say feel the energy of the room. I can read the room I have also been known to read people I never took a course in body language. I I am no expert in it, but when I'll give you a perfect example about three days ago. I had a colleague Come down and you know Hey, Katherine. How are you? I'm going i'm amazing. How are you? And he's like i'm great and I knew I knew he was not okay So the first thing out of my mouth I said why do you gotta lie to me like that and uh, he kind of Was a little shocked but they're my co-workers are rather used to it by now And he's like you're not supposed to read me that quick this early in the morning Um, so, you know i'm i'm able to really pick up on when people are being let's say disingenuous When they're trying to hide something Uh, and there's are some people that get intimidated by that But really it comes from a place of love. It's not that I want to expose anything It's that i'm really here to try to help I'm here to help you, you know, if there's something that you can't process or even if you just need lunch You know, i'm i'm here to help you um and also With all of this happening I think the greatest Miracle that came out of it Is that when I got my mind back? I was able to basically see through all the bs and um I was able to see this multi-generational trauma And all of these issues that led up to all of this And that gave me strength And yes, I am A little tired of being called. Oh, you're so strong Oh, you know, sometimes you don't know how strong you can be when you're given nutrients And so after I really started healing And I went no contact with my family And I relocated 800 miles north Um to a place where I didn't know anyone on purpose. Um My life has changed drastically It's been a complete Transformation I've gone from 350 pounds to now about 198 or so Uh, I am off of all medications and a psychiatrist actually told me. Thank you. Dr. Littman I don't know if you're going to be watching but thank you. You saved my life Um, he told me that he found no evidence of ever having the Bipolar diagnosis to begin with and therefore he agreed to keep me off of all medications. So That was a blessing I have learned throughout not only my own journey not only witnessing and really just finding these patterns in my own family, but also Going through my own healing And then listening to people's stories And reading books the one that i'm reading right now by dr. Gabor Matei the myth of normal He really just summarizes perfectly the the multi-generational trauma I see the patterns and I honestly Think that there's going to be a lot more people coming forward saying This happened to me And this was not okay And the abuse when i'm in my 30s 40s 50s 60s is still happening Now abuse doesn't have to be Just you know beatings or or any other kind of, you know physical Violation It can be discreditation. It can be Bullying it can be gaslighting. It can be lying. It can be manipulating it can be you know Controlling it can be you know Subterfuge it can be game playing it can it can come in so many different forms and there's A lot of people out there that I have seen especially on social media That is saying I had to go no contact to save my life because this family is just so toxic And then I see the other side and it's these mothers And I don't know why it's specifically these mothers that go on to social media trying to plead their case What they don't understand Is that as they are trying to plead their case? They're basically validating The reason why the child has walked away from the family in their stories i've heard a lot of perpetual self-victimization So basically it wasn't my fault or so and so did that and that's why I did that There's really no accountability There's nothing saying You know, I take responsibility and if it someone does say I take responsibility It's always with a caveat it's always Some other kind of issue on the side that makes them look better And when people put this on social media, they don't They don't realize How tone deaf it comes across And so, you know, it's it's just that point where yes life happens stuff happens I'm in my 40s now And I have to step up and heal from things I should never have to heal from but that does not make me the victim I have done some bs things to people and i've said some bs things to people but that does not make me the victim of circumstance I own it And i've apologized to who I can But I think the biggest let's say form of self-love Is to allow yourself to face the person in the mirror And to let them know that hey I might not have been there for you Not when you were a child not when you were a teenager But I am here now And we can go through this And yes what you've been through really sucks But you are better than that and you can rise above and you have two choices You can either follow in the footsteps of the family dynamics Or you can be a cycle breaker And step away and be better do better my opinion on if I chose to Let's say reincarnate into this trauma. Uh, if you'd like to if you'd like to call it that um There is a certain aspect That yes, we signed up for it and that is something that is unpleasant to think about uh, and it is something that I've come to find out is more fact than fiction When i'm doing my healings part of it has been regression therapy and to find out where some of these some of these instances some of these Personality traits really came from and in part of it it was because There was a situation Where I was in a relationship with someone who was rather abusive in a narcissistic manner and I didn't finish that cycle So in order to close the loop in order to close the cycle to learn the lessons to get through to what I needed to do here and now I had to finish that I had to learn the lessons. I had to learn what to look for. I had to learn you know how to navigate in the world after something like that and I was born to The toxic family that had that dynamic And it has allowed me To finish that cycle. So in order for us to evolve To choose a lifetime of suffering rather than a lifetime of luxury You see each path It has its own pros and it has its own caveats, right? So obviously being born into You know into poverty would be different lessons than somebody born to A toxic family structure, which is absolutely different to somebody who was born into wealth But they all come with their own lessons Someone in poverty might have a very loving family And those lessons that they navigate would be more How do I get myself out of poverty? But with a a loving family social structure someone born to abuse might also be born into poverty or may You know go into poverty after let's say in my case my father left a lot that that comes with a lot of different lessons And someone who was born, let's say into a wealthy family Okay, you know great you are not hurting For let's say tangible items, right jewelry watches clothes food But are you being properly loved in that family? So even though We look at people with immense wealth as Oh, they're lucky or you know, they they have these Mentalities that are of entitlement any anything that we want to Put on them are actually projections of us And I don't see these kind of relations in the same manner that let's say average america that I don't look at let's say someone like elon musk and say Oh, he's so lucky or on the flip side. Oh, he's such a jackal Right, if that's not my decision to make i've never met the man. Yes, he might be successful I've heard some of his stories good for you. You've learned your lessons. You've done what you need to do to accumulate this wealth Bravo, right good for you and I also don't see someone who is homeless on the street as somebody who Is less than I see someone who is suffering I see things like covid and war And poverty and You know all of these these really just negative things Not so much as something that the creator Would force upon the people I think a lot of it has to do with we have our own choice We have power of free choice power of free thought And with that power Also comes these Deadly sins that i'm pretty sure we all know of so greed and lust and gluttony They're easy to fall victim to Especially when the Person has kind of a moral ambiguity somebody who puts money or You know stockholders Puts their lives above the lives of the people above the lives that will be taken How much blood is on those of the the war profiteers? How much blood of the innocent is on? let's say big pharma, you know, but the The crisis with oxycodone They they pushed it For profit How many lives are on their souls? so It really comes down a lot of it is to greed Money can be sexy to many people although Money isn't everything It does help get the bills paid. It does help people roof over your head Um, it does help allow you to have that financial security and peace. Absolutely But if you're doing evil with it If you are allowing people to suffer And not do anything about it That's not god God Would not allow that He is a gentle whisper where the devil He screams in your face So it's a lot easier To listen to evil and to be persuaded by evil than it is to sit still and listen To the love and the guidance of what is right So somebody that is living or growing up with a lot of let's say trauma like I did I can only tell you what I chose what path I chose uh, because i'm not You know, i'm not a counselor. I'm not a therapist psychologist or anything but for me breaking off contact With those who had actively sought to do me harm for their own benefit That was the first act of self-love That I had taken in a long time And it was probably the biggest act of self-love That I have done and I continue to remain no contact with All but maybe two or three blood relatives When someone's going through a lot of trauma You really can't see through the darkness and It leads to a lot of severe consequences For me obviously it was weight gain and A lot of it. I neglected my body which includes my oral health. So i'm working on fixing that as well It it has to do a lot with with your nutritional choices You know This tastes good. So and it gives me a dopamine rush or what a sugar rush So i'm gonna i'm gonna choose twinkies over an orange It's it's simple small choices That people need to start making to help them heal The smallest choice could be okay i'm going to Take a course on coursera or i'm going to watch a youtube video tutorial or i'm going to find out, you know How to balance a budget i'm going to find out what a credit score is and why I need it I'm gonna find out what kind of foods will actually nourish me I'm gonna find out how to meditate i'm gonna find out, you know how to properly do Exercises where I don't need to go to a gym It's little incremental steps taken on a consistent basis That allows the person to start healing from trauma And when they get to a certain point they make these bigger decisions And it keeps going up you keep elevating your life I don't have the same friends that I did three years ago I have people surrounding me now that are other business owners I have people in my circle that Are so supportive So when you start healing you Start finding people That are now on that elevated level Your friendships get better Your relationships get better And in fact just today I had to Face another one of my shadows I was putting too much stress on myself I'm a perfectionist by nature because of how I grew up I had to figure things out on my own. I didn't have that support system And so i've learned that i've even carried that into my 40s But today I realized Wait a minute I have my you know, I have such a circle i've got my My life coach in my corner. I've got my friends in my corner I've got my business alliances my my, you know service providers in my corner I have some colleagues in my corner I have you know, all of this support system that I just didn't even put, you know, two by two one by one together I have all of these people cheering me on I have my score mentor saying I believe in you. I even had an ex reach out a couple days ago saying I believe in you And yet why don't I believe in myself If they can see it Why can't I see and so I invite you to take a look my website is Currently being upgraded. Um, so i'm not sure exactly where he's got at the process but take a look at dawninginstitute.com I also have a book being published. I am a co-author It's called death it is a collaboration of life transformative stories and it's all about near-death experiences And this will be out on amazon on march 21st. So this upcoming thursday We have all of these stories from 13 beautiful souls these authors that have all come together To put together a story of hope to tell you What's really on the other side?