I WAS BULLIED.

hi guys welcome to another juicy vlog today's a bit of a different video George is off work and I've been sat here and I've been receiving some messages from you guys about bullying some of you are saying you're getting bullied at school or at work or it college/university it happens anywhere and it's really like got to me because it's quite like a personal thing for me I don't think I've opened up to you guys about it before and I haven't planned this video I haven't worked out what I'm gonna say I haven't got any sort of script or anything I haven't even written down any notes like we often will never sit down video I just wanted to talk to you guys because if in me talking and being honest and open about my experiences that can help one of you than that's amazing so I thought I'd just sit down and talk and see try just get across a few points to you guys that going through a hard time in the moment for me I was believed quite a lot in school and luckily school is where it stopped for me and but I did have it sort of first middle and high school different levels and billion can be anything from like name-calling to like physical abuse or cyber billionaire so many different types of bullying I feel like I I don't feel like I was I wasn't like physically bullied at school it was more like the mental stuff for me and I have ginger hair quite obviously and I had freckles quite a lot of freckles I didn't wear makeup at school I've still got freckles by wear makeup now and I had glasses braces I wasn't really in like the popular groups at school so there was quite a few things for these bullies to pick out on and and get to me and I'm quite an emotional person so any little thing that anyone would say to me I'm quite different now but school it would really get to me and I really used to care what people thought so I was like it was all I didn't have a great time in school I didn't get me wrong I had some great friends and I did enjoy parts of it but there were a lot of times when bullying really got me down I used to talk to my mum for hours about it after school really lucky to have her and throughout the whole thing because she really helped me through it all and but I just felt like the teachers and things are awful they didn't deal with it very well at all they'd sort of sit you down with the bully and it'd just be awful and nothing would and then they go yeah it will change it will change you get home from school it's not even in school hours often it often be on things like MSN or Facebook and things but yeah it wasn't fun but I just thought I'd give a bit of advice and from my experiences I no longer get bullied and which is great and again it's weird for me talking about it with you guys because I never I've never opened up about it before on the internet my closest friends now know about it my mum obviously knows and some family members know from when it was happening at the time but I think like I said like if I can have one of you in sharing some of my experience then that that's incredible so why wouldn't I try and sort of put this video out there I have thought about filming this for a little while as well and receiving the messages from you guys this morning it's really made me think actually I do need to be more open about it and normally these videos are like quite fun and very like we do a lot of editing and stuff this is quite like a straight back video for us Georgians and I'm filming it either I'll probably edit a bit later and show him when he gets home from work but it's such a hard thing to talk about for me because I again I haven't I haven't said it to people I've never really said these things out loud so it's quite hard to say for me I'll start by giving some actual advice on what to do if you're getting bullied so if it's something like physical as in like they're picking out things and your appearance like name-calling so like the ginger hair thing if it's something that you can change like your weight your hair color promise me don't change it for them if you want to change yourself by all means do but don't do it for them I was so close so many times to dye my hair black blonde brown all different colors to get away from this because at school it was like wearing a hat saying bullying me please like it was awful people that used to call me names about my hair probably didn't know it's affecting me like it did but when you get it every single day it really does get you down and it does affect you but I am so glad now but I didn't I loved my hair color now I think if I wear like a black and white outfit this is the colour in my outfit like I love it now if you've got good ginger hair don't die other people promise me don't try and find the people again if you want to see yourself i person blunder the end of mine now a little bit anyway and and that's because i wanted a bit of a change and that's fine if you're doing it for the billy they are winning and if you change your hair to black they will find something else to believe you about it doesn't matter what it is but they will find something and you don't want to let them change you and how you are as a person like that is that's their winning that's you saying yes you've defeated me if I give up and that's not what you want and I know me saying this now at the time horrible awful and you want to do anything you can to stop this happening but from someone looking almost from the outside now after having been through it just stick with it and when you grow up when you when you move jobs or when something have it will change it will change and it will get better if you're watching this video thinking I'm the bully I'm not being believed but I am the Billy just stop you're not going to lose face if you suddenly start being nice to this person I'm not saying that the person you're bullying you need to start buying flowers for and being their best friend but just stop just leave them just leave it alone it's not funny if you think your friends are watching you and egging you on and it makes you look better it doesn't like really when when these people look back at you at school they're gonna think oh that person was a massive bully they were so horrible to this person this person this person you don't want to live without the rest of your lives and it's not too late to stop just please stop I don't carry on what you're doing take a step back and think it's not worth it and it's not funny it's not clever I sound like like a mum telling you off for now but seriously like you don't know what it's doing to this person for me like I never actually like hurt myself or anything but I know people that self-harm because of bullies I know I know stories where people have killed himself because of bullying and that is caused by people that are just being acted on by our friends often and it's just not nice so really just take a step back again and think about what you're doing and just stop just it's not worth it please just stop because you don't know what battled that person facing behind closed doors for me I'd go into school and be really happy and trying to I was like a bit like a class clown kind of figure at school I suppose I was a bit of an easier I've messed around quite a lot and people that knew me knew what I was going through but people that were just observing would have had no idea how I felt inside so people are like that people won't often show their emotions quite obviously so just just think this person might be going through hell leave them alone and like I said with my mum who helped me through all of this don't don't be silent don't keep it to yourself that's the worst thing you can do speak to someone if it's a friend if it's a family member a brother or sister your mum your dad anyone even like even like someone who you don't think you're that close to you just try and get the words out when you say out loud it's sort of off your head it it's a weight off your shoulders and just try and speak to people these people might be able to help you both ways and help yourself and maybe even help the situation they might be able to talk to someone who can stop this happening and I know it's difficult again because when you're going through it you you're embarrassed what you're going through you're embarrassed to say I am being bullied but just talk to someone it's staying in silence that will make this last longer and I know it's it's ridiculous bullying is ridiculous it really makes me angry because why on earth am I having to make this video why should I have to say don't be in don't speak don't stay silent when you're being bullied why should you be being bullied you shouldn't be the fact that this is still happening it's a joke it makes me so angry because it's horrible it's not a nice thing to go through it shouldn't be happening but it is and it won't stop because people are Souls ah just please just don't be silent speak to someone speak to anyone and it might help you depriving yourself of any sort of support is not going to solve the issue often people that are being bullied going to like the victim mode and they let the bully dictate what's going on and they're the person that's like the nasty and you're the victim try and rise above it and try and be the better person trying to pass that trying to stay happy positive I know it's the hot again it's so hard saying do it because at the time if someone said this to me I'd have gone yeah all right mate like it's not as easy as that but just try look past that and win if you are still happy in yourself and you can still keep going through this you've won and that's what it's all about it's not letting them defeat you that doesn't mean fighting them back it doesn't mean being a bully back to them and calling them names but as soon as you're happy in yourself when you think actually then then you won and I guess another view on this would be if you're part of a group with someone who is billing someone else and you're seem to be in that group try and take a step back try and make that person realize they could stop this from happening I'm not saying that it's a responsibility if your friends are someone whose ability to stop them being a bully because that's unfair on you but if there's one thing you can say to them just say come on like think about what you're doing there's one thing you can do if you speak to their parent or speak to a teach and you might be able to have that person and lastly just never stop being you I know I brushed in like a little bit earlier but just don't let them defeat you and don't let them stop being who you really are that is the worst thing that can happen is that you change you for someone else because they're being nasty about the real you that isn't right and if there's one that's the one thing you can take away from this videos be yourself please just keep doing it please keep going and please do comment below if this video has helped you or send me a message if you've got me an Instagram or put my Instagram here my Twitter here if this hasn't exactly helped you personally but you think it could help other people then please do share this video with your friends share it on Facebook shades Twitter again Instagram and I'm just trying to get the word out there that bullying is not okay and that it's horrible and and if again if it does hurt one person then I'm gonna be forever grateful for having uploaded this video bullying sort of made me a stronger person today and and it's almost taught me quite a lot in myself and how I am and if this video has helped or it could help other people please give this video a thumbs up subscribe if you're new George we'll be back in the next video and thank you so much for watching see you next time guys