Gone But Never Forgotten 😢 A Mother’s Worst Nightmare, Struggling SAHM, + Back to School Prep

I have these kids. I want to be here for them. I want to raise them. Like this is a mother's worst nightmare. [Music] Previously [Music] on the reality of Maine. >> This day you look like this a mess. Your riot and pulled me to the side like I told you. Be riding letters back and forth from the penitentiary. Who said that? Do what you need to do. Boo. Y'all pissed. [Music] smack your mama. Chantel, don't smack Jackie. [Music] The way I need to get the on my space on the web pies like a great >> Good morning y'all. It's not even morning y'all. It's afternoon. But I think I'm PMSing low key cuz I'm just not >> I'm not with this But hey, it's August 1st. We made it. We did the whole July, y'all. We did the whole July. That's insanity coming from someone who did not post like barely anything. And showing up consistently for myself for 30 days is insane. So, hello. Hey, vloggers. What's up? See my nails? I got that done, too. out was talking to y'all about how I was going to do the same thing I did in July and August. I also made a group for influencers who are also on the same journey as me and they're trying to either regrow their brand, grow their brand, um you know, show up for themselves, be consistent, post their content, stop making excuses for yourself. So, anyone content creator on YouTube, a YouTuber can join this group. You have to post every day or every other day. I gave y'all some leeway. I'm going to be posting every day something. Whether it be lives, whether it be vlogs, or it be whatever I'm doing, honey. I'm going to be posting something. And if you do not follow the rules, which those are the rules. If you do not follow the rules, you will be removed from the group. I'm not playing. I'm not playing. We did this in July. I had a group, but I feel like I want to do it like 10 times stronger. Okay? I really want the motivating, hardworking, creative creators out there um to join this group and really push, motivate each other and really get to this bag. Okay, it's August. Them kids about to go to school. A lot going on, but we're still going to proceed. Now, today is the start of school stuff. Okay, yesterday my sister, I told y'all she's a teacher, took my kids to go supply shopping. Got some supplies. I think I might need to grab some more. But she got some supplies for me. Listen, my village will be coming through today. We're going to go to get some more school supplies and we're going to go um just to grab some things. I don't know if I'm going to grab a lot of things, but I am going to grab some uniforms for London cuz London schools and uniforms. Apparently, Mimi school doesn't have a uniform. They just have a very strict dress code. So, we're going to grab her some more shirts. Um what else? I think that's really all we're doing outside of the home. Inside the home, I have a lot of sponsors and things to do. I'm just really not feeling it today. I don't know what it is. I don't know if I think I'm PMSing cuz obvious. So, I think that's what the problem is cuz I just been really like down. Like I feel like my energy is low. So, I'm about to beat her face up. Give her a one, two, and hopefully that gets my mood under wraps because uh we not about to be going into August like this. Girl, we not about to We got our nails done. Okay, our lashes is dead. Now we're going to do her do her face. Oh, and another thing that's been irritating me is I've been talking to y'all about my skin and my face and trying to really get her together and it's like this whole side of my face. I really think it's hormonal. I really think I have hormonal acne and it just came out of nowhere cuz I've never been the type of girl who had acne problems and I could go days without washing my face and I I try not to, but I'm saying I could without any types of pimples or anything popping up. Like I just wasn't I didn't have to have a strict routine. When I was younger, I was on it because I had bad acne when I was a teenager. after that little spout of hormones went away or my body got used to them or whatever. As a grown woman, I never had any issues my skin. So now it's like my 30s. It's like girl, I don't know. But I'm trying to get it together before it gets too crazy. So it's like this side right here. It's not nothing like insane for y'all, but for me it's just like no ma'am. No ma'am. Okay. So, and it's like oh right here. So I'm thinking I'm like is it my pillow? cuz I sleep on this side. Last night I had a revelation and I was like, I must I sleep on this side. Maybe that's what it is. So now I've been trying to sleep on my back. Girl, it's been I just been having the time. So this side is just so clear and pretty and I want all of my my whole face to match this side. Like even with this little bit of blemishes, it's still like I love this side of my face. I don't know. I don't know what what's going on. Anyway, I'm going to be my live cuz girl and I think I'm going to do a live today because I don't have any video ready. I was going to do the back to school haul, but I'm waiting on some things. But I could do what they It was from Sheen. So, I could do what I got already, but I still maybe I'll just do two videos because I'm not done. I think I'll do that video and then I may do another Well, let Anyway, let me get into Y'all, I think I done spoken into existence. I think got smoking scissors. OMG, so excited. I'm so excited. I'm so excited. Okay, so I'm going to open all that in a video with y'all. Y'all probably honestly Hold on. Let me find some good lighting. ignore. Listen, I'm a mother and I'm a wife and I like to fold clothes right here. Okay, this is where I fold clothes. So, there are some articles of clothing in the back. We're just not Listen, last night my house is clean. Every night my house is clean. Okay, we're going to just talk. Let's talk about it. Every night my house is clean. I close down the kitchen. I wake up, there's crumbs, fingerprints, just laundry is dump seats. So if my husband's going to work and and his work clothes is in a dryer, he will take them out and dump everything right here or on his side of the bed. So when I wake up, there's piles of laundry in my bed. Good morning. Um then I walk out into the living room, pile of pile and pile of clothes on the living room couch. Good morning. And I'm saying this is within probably about a 5 hour span cuz I go to bed around like 3:00 a.m. You know, I get my little me time. It's quiet. You hear? It's not right now. Okay. And and I just kind of soak up the quietness and the no one's touching me and asking me for anything. Mama, mama, mama. Mama. And then I wake up to put some lotion on because girl, in a matter of I promise you, I just washed my hands because I have makeup all over them. In a matter of me walking down the stairs, washing my hands, going to the front door to grab the packages, coming and talking to y'all, my hands now look like I was out in the garden all afternoon. And I promise I wasn't. >> I'm not going anywhere. Mhm. Just talking to myself. Anyway, y'all, where's my manners? I need to even welcome y'all into the vlog. Welcome, welcome, welcome. Hey, Bel. Welcome to a new day in the life. clearly of a struggling mom and wife consecrated businesswoman girl. I have so many hats, honey. Okay, make sure y'all are ringing the doorbell on the way in cuz if you haven't rg the doorbell, you're not a what? Bell bang. Okay, if you haven't subscribed, you haven't rang the doorbell. Girl, I don't know who you are up in my house. And if my cousins and them jump you, don't come running over to me because girl, I don't know you. Who is this person? Huh? You wouldn't ran up in the family function. Now they're mad. I can't hold them back and be like, "No, no, no, no. That's my friend, girl. That's family. That's my bell bay." I can't say none of that cuz I don't know you. I'mma just step to the side and chop up slide on over to the mac and cheese. Hey family. Hey y'all. So, we're in Target now about to grab first. We're going to exchange some things. Watch out, guys. >> Sorry. I was supposed to do this. >> In the car. In the car. >> Now you're in the car. >> Careful. Come in here to me. >> And then No, you come here and show this. It's a twist out and she doesn't like it. Feeling just tonight I'mma let you be the captain. Tonight I'mma let you do your thing. Yeah. Tonight I'mma let you be a rider. Get up. Get up. Gety up. Tonight I'mma let it be fire tonight. I'mma let you take me higher tonight. Baby, we could get it on. Yeah, we could get it on. Yeah. Do you like your boy? Give it to me, baby. Like what is non [Music] whole side. One thing about it, my girl can shop. She know how to grab what she want. Okay. She done added extra stuff in here. She got some pajamas. Honey, what do they >> I just want to get caught. >> You just want to get out the c? >> Yes. >> Oh, it's okay. I want to keep something now. >> You don't need to get out the cart. >> Please don't get out the car. >> No, we need to find Mimi some outfits. >> But please, >> she don't want to wear dresses. She don't want to wear skirts. >> And I do. >> And you do? >> Yeah. >> I always need skirts for yesterday. >> Okay. >> Just shoes. And >> you got some shoes. >> And I got new shoes. >> You do? You like them? You found some stuff. Let me see. So, what's his dress, though? Um, I think it was really just about like what the shirt says. I thought you had that already. >> So, why are we getting it again? First day of middle school. What are you trying to wear? >> You do want You want a skirt? >> You look cute. >> They're nice size. [Music] Praying I can get her in a skirt. Girl, let's let's dress up for birthday school at least. >> Let's do that. Done shopping with you, London. Mimi, do you like these? >> The full day of the last day of the last day of school. >> Mimi said it's too quick. They're going back to school too fast. >> I don't want to go to school. >> I'm telling you, that's how I feel. I feel like you just like summer just happened. We need to get y'all socks. >> I already got socks. >> Huh? Why are you in my face? >> No. >> You have enough and you have a lot of things to wear to pre-ress day. >> I know, but >> no. Funny that it's always been all about you from the start. I [Music] know what's on my mind this time. >> Y'all, I'm on live, right? I ended up having to get off of live on my computer and get on live here. Everybody say hi. All right. They come to painting. >> Okay. I'm >> Oh my reason I turned her on. Scoot back. Scoot back. Scoot back. Was because this one right here has lost her marbles. I don't know what's going on with her, but she is on. >> What was you about to say? >> I was about to say I dropped You dropped me off and then boo boo. >> You said you wanted a little boo boo and I told you that you can't have one. And then you said you had a little boo boo and I said you didn't have one. Then you said that ya bought a little boo boo but you're not getting one boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo boo. >> I do love boo >> I just saw >> what did you see >> so many boo boos >> so many boo boos. Okay love boo is going a little too far. >> You got a lot of boos. I was trying to I was trying to look and then I was getting some and then I was trying to leave and then I was open the boo boo. >> Okay. The aunt is sleeping, right? >> Yeah. >> Okay. >> So, we're trying to be quiet. Hey. Hey. Stand up. Stand up. Now you in a split child. >> What is going on? Can you stop life? What is happening? [Music] >> Come up here. >> You okay? What was in the Chick-fil-A, dude? >> You all right? She doing push-ups. >> What is happening? >> What was in the Chick-fil-A? Was it in the mac and cheese? I ate the same thing. >> I I just eat them. >> Why are you screaming? >> So many mac and cheese. >> Okay, y'all. She's trying to fight her sleep. And she >> She turned into a superhero. >> Sprinkle. Sprinkle. >> What are you doing now? >> Sprinkles. >> Oh my gosh. I tried playing Roblox. >> You was okay. >> And three + three. >> And 3 + 3. >> Yeah, I know that my color 3 + 4. >> Do you know what that is? >> Yeah. >> What is it? >> It's three. >> Okay. >> Like four. I don't know. >> It's three and four. That's right. 3 + 4 is three and four. Okay. >> And what does this mean? >> What does it mean? Yeah. >> Do you know what that means? >> I don't know. >> Okay. Cuz I was I was lost for a second. >> Four. Three + 4. >> Okay. Okay. 3 + 4. Okay. I see it. >> Three and plus. >> You just wanted to tell him that. >> Three + 4. >> Like, do you know that cost? I don't know because >> am I here? >> It says 3 + 3. Am I in the room? >> I'm all day like I don't know. >> 3 + 3. Okay. >> Okay. >> All right. >> And 3 + 3 is four. >> Okay. >> I'm going to turn it off now. >> I'll just paint. >> Okay. Is that it? Are you going to say bye bells? >> Bye. Oh, >> okay. Oh, you got to cover here if you want to cover it like this. Bye. winking off alive and this is what's going on. Y'all hear that? Oh, quiet. Okay. Anyways, y'all. So, I wanted to end the vlog, but before I ended the vlog, I wanted to chat with y'all real quick. Have y'all heard of this girl on Facebook? Her name is Kiara Campbell. Y'all, I am so sad. like I think it's been about a week now, but this is a mother of seven, I believe. Um she was 27 and she's been fighting congestive heart failure. Well, I don't know how they set things up or how they told her or whatever, but she was under the pressure that if she bought more bags, I believe she called it, then she would be able to last longer than the expectancy than they keep they kept saying cuz I think she was waiting for heart. I'm not sure. I'm not sure of all the details, but I did see her GoFundMe and I seen her last live. And when I say I've literally seen her last live and then I checked back in. I had just found her, seen her last live, checked back in, I think a day later or something like that. And she had passed just that quick. And I was like, "Oh my god." Cuz I remember when I seen her live, I was like, "Oh my goodness, I'm feeling for her." It really has been weighing heavy on my heart. Like she left a husband and seven kids. Like I just I just I I just can't even fathom the thought of like that happening to either one of us, me and my husband and our kids. Just me being like luckily I have like my sister and my mother. You know what I'm saying? I have family who would be a tremendous help in situations like this. But that's nobody's job. Like I have these kids. I want to be here for them. I want to raise them. Like this is a mother's worst nightmare. And I am so sad. Like I am so sad for her at this point. She's at peace. You know what I'm saying? But to think about who she leaves behind the kids, little young kids. She was only 27. You know what I'm saying? So, you can you can imagine how old her children are. I just know that they're all young and it's just sad to see her life just ripped away like that. Like, at one point, she was like going live and doing lives and stuff like that. really really active on Facebook and she was showing how basically they were saying like I think they expected she had like 3 weeks left to live and she was like you know if y'all can donate donate but if you can't the bags that I do have I'm very grateful for who donated for them and that that will give me you know a good chunk of change to sit and be comfortable with my family at home cuz they took her off hospice y'all. she had to go home and it seemed like she declined very fast and she thought that if you know based on the GoFundMe if they donated she would be able to keep borrowing these bags that she needed and apparently not because as soon as she left the hospital she declined rapidly cuz she was literally just online just fine and it was like they took her off hospice they sent her home and she knew that she was going home at the end of her life and that's the part that really saddens me like thinking about okay something happens to you tomorrow it's Like, yes, get right with the Lord. You know what I'm saying? Hug your family every night, every day. Treat every day like it's your last. But if it happens, it will happen out of nowhere. You have no idea what's going on, what's happening, you know? And for someone to tell you like, yes, you're going to go. And then looking at your the sadness that that would bring on on a mother's heart, the sad that just and then the stress of it all on top of that. Like we already stress over the everyday essentials, the everyday life or the future. Just thinking of like our kids being great human beings and you know what I'm saying them having kids and helping raise like we just thinking of all the future things that we're going to be doing with our family. So to then be like, I won't get to see my babies graduate high school. I won't get to see them get married, have kids, like nothing. She has seven. I just, oh my gosh, it really just broke my heart. Like it really broke my heart. That one right there hit like it was like a slap in the face. Prayers go out to her family, her kids, like everyone affected by that. I really hope and pray that they have everything that they need. And oh my goodness, I just pray that they get through this and that it's not it's going to be some type of trauma, but I pray that they have a good strong nit community and village they can pour positivity into them children and really keep her husband keep her husband up lifted. You feel what I'm saying? Like my prayers go out to her entire family. That is just so sad to me. But I didn't really want to end this vlog off on a sad note. It was just really weighing heavy in my spirit, y'all. We did end up, as y'all seen, we went to Target. I had some things I had to film earlier, um, sponsorships and stuff that I had to do. And after that, we ended up going and getting more stuff for school, like school shopping, school clothes, because one is in uniforms. Mimi is not in uniforms, but like they're specific about what they want the kids to wear. So, did a little shopping. Um, sent stuff back that we didn't need from Cat and Jack. Y'all know how I am. Y'all know what I do. I'm invested in Target. Okay? That's the only reason they see my black hair. All right? Cuz I already invested money into them. I'm going to get my coin. That's how she does that. You feel what I'm saying? Getting more school supplies, getting more clothes, getting more shoes. Um, y'all have seen the Sheen haul, I'm sure, by now. If not, it'll be on the next video. But yeah, like we we almost done school shopping, then go on. We have two more weeks and they ending really the chaos starts. Okay, my mommy brain is going to be on Affinity cuz they're going to be outside the house. It's just going to be a lot going on. All right, but I love y'all so much. Thank y'all for watching and keeping me company, especially on the live. We had a fun time on live. did not catch the live, catch the live replay link below and make sure that y'all catching the lives because like I said on the live, we're going to be doing a lot more lives. Okay, it's August 1st, baby. What? This is my first vlog in August and I'm not making it my last. Love y'all. Bye. Talk to you later.