We often joke that an ocean crossing starts when you reach halfway. But the truth is, that passed the excitement of the first days, a long offshore passage can sometimes be a lot more mentally challenging than one would think...
There is a myriad of reasons why an ocean crossing is a hard thing to do and not a lot of people do it. First off, you need a boat, a few sailing skills, and lots of time on your hands to get ready. The list of what needs to be prepared, purchased, fixed, double-checked, serviced and triple-checked is massive. The equipment needed to cross an ocean crossing comfortably and safely can also be daunting, and cost-prohibitive.
Ryan and I estimated that we spent approximately 10 000$ to buy our offshore sailing kit. That includes satellite communications, an extensive medical kit, spare parts, better sails, extra jerricans of fuel… the list is long and adds up quickly.
Getting to the starting point of an ocean crossing is an endeavor, and while we often tell ourselves that the preparation is the hardest part of a crossing, challenges do not stop once you’ve untied the lines.
One aspect of crossing oceans that is a lot less discussed but not least challenging is how mentally overwhelming life onboard can be after a while.
Passed the initial excitement of departure and what I call “the discovery phase” of a passage, during which the crew practices their sea legs, goes on their first watches and explored the various aspects of life offshore, time becomes long, tasks monotonous and the small annoyements that come with sailing the distance can become a much bigger deal.
It is day 12 of our crossing from Bermuda to the Azores and five days after our iridium go
died on us, leaving us in the middle of the ocean without any updated weather forecast,
our shore support Willem comes through for us and our backup satellite tracker finally gets activated.
Willem came through for us! Within an hour we managed to get in touch with our weather router
Charlie who sends us the coordinates to a waypoint for us to follow and as a bonus surprise on the
of the next day we get reunited with our buddy boat Zanzibar a thousand nautical miles offshore.
With emotions on board rolling as fast as the gnarly Gulf Stream sea state that we are
experiencing in the northern Atlantic, we are starting to face some of the mental
challenges of an ocean passage and the atmosphere on board is a little quiet.
Hello and welcome on board Polish Seal. It is day 12 of our Atlantic crossing. Here is the thing,
if crossing an ocean was easy, a lot more people would do it and I think that we could talk a lot
about what is hard about crossing an ocean but one aspect is definitely that once past halfway
it gets mentally really difficult to keep yourself in a place where you're positive, happy
and excited to be there. Usually in the first half of the crossing you have explored all of the
aspects of the crossing from the watches to cooking food to all types of entertainment you
can have on board and so typically in the last week of the crossing things can get a little
rougher on the morale on board especially if, like it is our case, you can probably hear around me,
the sea state is a little bit crazy. For the last three days we have been jibing like nutso and
jibing on board Polish Seal, as you've probably figured by now, is quite a complicated operation.
It takes us half an hour and it is something that we have to do at least three times a day,
sometimes at night, not to mention reefing. That's all part of sailing but it takes a lot of energy.
I guess that what I'm trying to say is that today when I get out of bed I realized that the crew is
a lot more tired and mentally fatigued than I probably realized. So this afternoon in an effort
to cheer everybody I'm going to make a cake that I know everybody enjoys and I'm going to make a
tiramisu. Also as mentioned the sea state is a little bit crazy so this should be a little sporty.
Okay so when I make tiramisu I make it a sailor's tiramisu and that means that instead of adding
amaretto or some type of an almond liquor to the coffee before dipping the finger biscuits I
add rum. Yeah that's when the spirits on board need to be lifted. Okay let's lift some spirits.
We're uplifting. Now I get to clean the mess. And if you're asking yourself well Sophie aren't you
just trying to sneak in as much booze as possible in the food to lift spirits? Well yeah that's what I'm doing.
But I agree with Sanzibar if this speed gets too low we're gonna need to motor sail
because otherwise it defeats the whole purpose of what we're doing.
We have five knots of apparent wind behind us and we're doing 3.9 knots. It's not good.
All right you want to start the engine? I think in a little bit yeah let's just get
we look at our wind angle too we're going almost due east again. Oh yeah those winds have shifted
I think that the clouds with the rain. So in the spirit of day 12 and also a little bit out of
shame because it's now been 12 days that we have been sailing without giving in to our favorite
activity on board when we're crossing an ocean which is Ryan. Hello which is me what? It's fishing.
Okay the last time this box was open was in 2019. So we have our snubber. What color are we gonna do
today Ryan? The pink. The pink I think that's an excellent choice. Big thanks for Jules who
bought this amazing lure kit for us. Oh man Ryan aren't you excited? Yeah. All right fishy fishy
and now we're gonna catch a big tuna.
It's so hot why do you think it's hot? Because I stepped down here? No. Okay. That is because
the oven is on. Okay. Do you know what's in the oven? No. Do I need to open it? Yeah you should open it.
Is this bacon bread? Yes. Oh. Today Ryan is the return of the bacon bread. I love the bacon bread.
Oh that looks awesome. The bacon bread.
Well do we have a fish? No. Oh no. Where is my fish? I put so much effort into this fishing today.
You know choosing the lure and everything. Are you excited about bacon bread Ryan?
Does that make your day a little bit better? It's a little better. I've had a not a nice day.
I've just been stressed like on the boat sometimes with the moving and the noises if it's like
sometimes it can be too much and if you like feel like you're losing control it's like I get super
stressed and today I just felt like. So Ryan what were you losing control over? No that's the thing
there's nothing but you know you're downstairs the engine's running the water maker's on the
sail's like clogging like hell the boat's moving everywhere it's just a lot you know it's like a
lot of sensory things going on. Well you made it through another day. Good job. And now you've earned
yourself. You were supposed to finish my sentence here. A bacon bread bagel. All right guys shall we uh
break bread? It's hot. How is this Annette? Delicious. Heartwarming. Literally. I also heard we are at 40 north now so that's also heartwarming.
All right let's go lift some spirits. Okay guys you're ready for the real surprise.
Yes.
Oh heaven. That's great. That looks amazing. What a nutritious dinner we just had. Oh yeah.
Thank you for making this. Does this lift your spirit Annette? It's been lifted as high as it
It's time to sail. So I tried letting the main sheet out and nothing happened. That's when I
realized that or realized that's when I remembered that we had dropped the main sail so I'm gonna go
wake up Ryan and uh put the sails back up. So I'll get in the wind and I think that we should keep at least one reef.
Yeah we're gonna take a reef. We'll have the reef out. Yeah. All right. One reef.
Well that's a bit better isn't it? Oh Ryan he's not getting a lot of sleep this morning.
We got a child. Ryan my angle to the wind right now is 130.
We're like so deep. We are going way too north. All right I'll take the head sailing.
can be a little bit complicated because of the Azores high which can be placed a little bit
differently and it can create some fluky winds some headwinds and now and then some perfect
conditions. We do not have that. Now our landfall in the Azores is made more complicated by the fact
that we do not have direct access to weather forecasts. We are relying on our weather router
Charlie or our buddy boat Zanzibar. Yesterday we were navigating through a zone of low winds
slash no wind. Today the wind is a little bit higher at least we can sail but what is frustrating
is that we do not have the wind that we would need to sail straight east towards the Azores
because like right now the Azores are literally right in front of us so what we need to do is to
take an angle to the wind go farther north before turning south and get towards us. It is frustrating
because when you look at a map it looks like we're sailing further away from the Azores
when in reality what we're doing is go as fast as possible with the conditions that we have
and mentally when you have been at sea for almost two weeks and you're tired you've sailed
to rough conditions or you're a little bit sleep deprived it can be a little hard to look at the
map and be like we're going farther. And to be very honest it is even more difficult when the
we were staying pretty far south. We were actually planning on going way way north in the beginning
but the weather just didn't give us that and we stayed around 37 degrees of latitude and the
consequence of that is that the passage was fairly warm. A lot warmer than we thought it would be
and today just about an hour ago we reached 41 degrees north. I was wondering when the sallys
would come out. Well they just have. We're also averaging seven knots so a pretty fast day
Good times. Dolphins! Oh wow! Hi guys!
We haven't seen that type before. I mean since this day I guess.
What? I haven't left the companionway. What are you doing Ryan? Just reading a message.
And in other exciting news the wind is finally starting to turn north meaning that
our climb northwards can stop. We can finally start turning towards the Azores and
we can see Zanzibar on the horizon. Sophie what are you most excited to do when we go
to shore? I am so excited to get drunk!
Yay!
Awesome!