Fear and Trust

A few days later I found you on YouTube and you were speaking from that and I was so happy that finally someone was speaking from my heart and I thought wow this was actually very good what was happening and that behind the fear would be the freedom and since that time I can remain in the sense of I am which is beautiful and there's a lot of peace and bliss but still when I try to inquire deeper and I ask myself who is the one who is even aware of the I am then the fear comes up again. But you have to everybody every sentient being whether human being or animal insect will experience fear it will come fear will come but the point with the human being you alone can really contemplate and to look investigate the nature of the self and go beyond the menace of fear because fear will come the fear is coming for the the sense of our self as a limitation the fear will come for the personality the sense of person the fear is not coming for the self therefore one must find the self what it means the self must come into that otherwise you're going to be always in the reach of fear it's going to be there and the fear is helpful because without the fear you're quite happy to stay in the personality so fear is good that if you stay here your life is not going to be so tasty like you think I'm going to mess you up so fear helps us sometimes to go beyond the fear back to your real place find out who is afraid and what of usually you'll be afraid because you have an investment in something you don't want to lose something and then the thing says I'm going to take it from you then fear will come this thing can be something external apparently like a relationship or something like this or some money or fame or something or it can be the sense of your life your you see like this so but something is there that you feel no at any cost you can take anything but this please don't touch this then where is the fear gonna come right to this place then you go to this place this place which is being protected now okay this place is being protected now you're saying please touch anything else but don't touch this please is fear going to listen to you because you put your all your investment all your energy now is resting in that insecure place that which can be taken there is something which cannot be touched by anything by any being it cannot be touched somehow I cannot find the trust you cannot find the trust yes it is there even before trust it is there even before trust why you need trust because of some separation you feel you are the person the person needs trust the person needs trust the egoic mind needs trust the consciousness that is identified with person needs trust the self doesn't need trust where is the self you need trust if you have to get to the self that means the self is some distance from you what is that distance these are all ideas that have exceeded themselves the ideas have become more because they have been somehow in imbued some supported by so much belief has gone into them so they seem concrete they seem real but there are nothing even yes trust has its place I cannot speak against trust trust is one of the greatest powers we have but is it needed to be the self this I don't know how many people here is going to comprehend it trust you must have towards God towards life but towards God you need the trust is important because trust helps you to move beyond the limitation so I trust this but I'm asking another question who is the one who trusts can it be identified you see it's not an easy question for us because we're not used to this kind of question because first of all the answer seems obvious it's me but who is me what exactly do you mean by me some people they will not even want to hear this question it's like your me is so much taken for granted that you will not even challenge yourself everyone says I but the I wears different uniforms I can be I am this body and you can live in the notion I am this body or I means being or consciousness or weakness or presence same and we can be aware of that sense of presence it's a higher state of consciousness than I am the body because here more you observe and contemplate and without moving without moving from where you are you can invite the universe into your own being your being becomes universal this is the greatness of consciousness but there are some beings who have gone beyond consciousness now you may ask how to go beyond consciousness they realize that in which even consciousness is seen don't imagine this is beyond you just you're not familiar with this way of looking but even consciousness which contains the feeling of I am and person and world and relationship all of that is in the bubble of the I am there's awareness of I am don't try and force or imagine because gradually this realization will come to you more and more even just sitting in satsang will come spontaneously you might come and see but even this feeling I am this feeling of presence it's known also but don't speak about it just be quiet with yourself and see the fear comes many people it's not uncommon maybe one day you're walking down the road towards the village or towards the Ramana ashram someplace anywhere and suddenly suddenly you may feel that the body personality somehow vanish but something is here and that something is more you than you can ever be than you can ever be as personality we are afraid when you are with the personality that if the personality goes you'll be blank you would just be you know just walking about like in your days or something but when the experience is there you see wait a minute I am more alive actually and what is personality even it doesn't seem to like anything really happened it's just I see that I'm not all these things that have been carrying around in my head that's all but you're still the full even now even with the ego feeling mostly is the feeling of presence you're experiencing not the personality is just like putting some yellow glasses in front of it then everything looks yellow so we don't need to be afraid the reason why I say that is to just trigger you to spontaneously open your heart to take all of it in don't make any contract don't compromise say I am going completely for gold go completely don't think you know no don't be stingy with your consciousness move open openly the confidence is there so will rise in you don't be afraid