Showreel - 2025

Hi, my name's Lily Prowse. I miss him. I miss him every day. Okay, and there's something special about the way that they hug you, you know, your grandparents. There's something special about the love that they have for you, right? You have no idea, do you? How much time I spend waiting for you. How much ---- I've taken because you just never taught me how to do anything else. He took something from me. He took these little pieces of me, you know, like so small over time I didn't even notice, you know. I mean, he wanted me to be something I wasn't and I made myself into whatever he wanted to be, you know. I could smell him. I could smell him for the first time in like 13 years. Okay, and I don't have faith and I don't believe it, okay. I know it. I know that was him. So, if you're just going to sit there and just say to me that when you're dead that's it, you're gone. I'm sorry but it's just ******* bollocks, okay. I lost myself for a really long time and now I'm finally me again. I just, I that's how you disappear for months on end. That's how you just ignore my calls, especially when ---- between mum and I is so bad. Why didn't you stand up for me? Why weren't you there? I don't have faith and I don't believe it, okay. I know it was him. I know it was him. So, when you tell me that after death there's just nothing and you're just gone, I'm sorry but it's ******* bollocks. I lost myself for a really long time and now I'm finally me again. I just can't and I love you, okay. I love you so much more than I ever loved him. I love you and when you asked me to ignore Teddy's page, you took a piece of me and I let you. Do you know what? No, okay. You don't get to rely on me. I'm the child. I'm the child. What if it is belief? What if I believe it and you don't believe it and then we can't talk? Just, please, don't give me any of that fake crap, okay. Just, please, for me, please, believe it because if I can't talk to you, please.