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My name is Sister Helena. I'm 31 years old. I've been a nun for eight years, and sometimes, yes, I regret it, deeply. My name is Sister Helena. I'm 31 years old. I've been a nun for eight years, and sometimes, yes, I regret it, deeply. Not my faith. My faith is the only thing that never wavers, even when everything else collapses. Not the vows, either. I took them, knowing exactly what they would cost. No. What I regret is being sent where even angels turn their eyes away. My neighborhood no longer has a name on the maps. People simply call it The Pit. GPS abandons you two streets before reaching it, as if afraid to go in. Police never come alone, never on foot, and never after 8pm. The walls are open books. Graffiti, bullet holes, names crossed out with spray paint. Children play hopscotch between syringes. Mothers walk fast, clutching their bags against their hearts. Old people don't go out after sunset. Being a nun in a white habit here is wearing a siren of provocation. People point at me, whistle, spit. Hey Virgin Mary, you lost your way? Sister, are you brave or just stupid? Go back to the convent before someone steals your rosary. Some laugh, others spit. A few look down, those who still have a grandmother praying for them. I do the emergency visits. That's the polite name for what nobody else wants to do. I go where police turn around, where social workers no longer dare to set foot. Undocumented families. Violent husbands leaning on the door, teens in crisis threatening to blow everything up. Mothers hiding their kids in the closets when the beating gets too loud. I'm the last person they call before the tragedy. And often, I'm the only one who answers. The Mother Superior says I have a gift. I think I just forgot how to be afraid like a normal person. Or maybe I've become addicted to the adrenaline of walking on the wire. On October 14th, it was pouring. A cold, heavy rain like it wanted to wash the city of all its sins. 10.47 p.m. The mission phone rings. A woman's voice, broken, barely audible. Sister Helena, come. My brother. He's going to kill someone. Please. A crash behind her. A scream. The line cuts. I know that voice. Maria. I'd visited her three times already. I know where she lives. I run through the storm, my veil stuck to my face, my sandals slapping in the puddles. The neighborhood is dead silent. Not a soul. Even the dealers have taken shelter. The door is cracked open. A yellow light flickers inside like a dying candle. I push. The smell of blood and sweat hits my throat. In the living room. A man in his 40s on the floor, face purple, hands clutching his throat, gasping. In front of him, a 23-year-old shaved head, tattoos up to his neck, broken bottle in hand, eyes bloodshot with madness. Blood drips from his palm. He's trembling all over. In the corner, Maria curled up, hands over her mouth to keep from screaming. He sees me. He raises the bottle. Don't come any closer or I swear I'll stab you. I don't think. I take three steps. I stand between the bottle and the man on the ground, arms wide open, white habits soaked, cross beating against my chest. If you want to hit someone, hit me first. He looks at me like I'm insane. Are you sick? Move. No. Silence falls, heavy like the rain outside. All we hear is the man's ragged breathing and the drops falling from the ceiling. I look him straight in the eyes. Your name is Jamal, right? Your sister told me about you. I know you're not this, I know you're hurting, but if you do this tonight, you'll never forgive yourself. He trembles harder. The bottle wavers. A tear runs down his cheek, mixing with blood and rain. I... I can't anymore. I just want it to stop. The bottle drops. He collapses to his knees. And he cries. Not like a thug, like a five-year-old boy who lost his mother. I kneel. I place my hand on his shoulder. He doesn't push me away. He clings to me like a lifeline and sobs against my veil. Maria comes out of her corner and joins us. We stay there, all three of us, soaked, shaking, alive. I call for help. I plead. I beg. They take him to the psychiatric ward, not into custody. The older officer, the one with tired eyes, nods and simply says, this time, sister, you won. Back at the mission. I close the door of my cell. I remove my veil. And I collapse on the floor. I cry all the tears in my body because, yes, I was afraid. Terribly afraid. I thought I was going to die tonight. And for a moment, I wished I was somewhere else. Anywhere else. Two months later, someone knocks on the door I open. It's him, Jamal, clean-shaven, clear-eyed, shy smile. He's holding a small wooden cross he carved himself. Uh, sister, I just wanted to say thank you. I'm being followed. I take my medication. I talk. I sleep. I'm starting to live again. You saw me when no one else did. He gives me the cross. I take it. My hands still tremble. He leaves. I stay on the doorstep, December sun on my face, tears sliding silently. I finally understand. I regret things sometimes. I regret safety, calm, the mornings when I don't have to wonder if I'll make it back alive. I regret not being able to just pray quietly in a clean, warm chapel. I regret being so often alone with all this. But I will never regret going where no one wanted to go. Never regret risking my life for a soul everyone had already condemned. Because that night, in a house that reeked of fear and blood, I saw a miracle. A real one. A man who was about to kill became a child again. A brother who was about to die breathed again. A sister who was about to lose her whole family found hope. And I, Helena, 31, insignificant little nun, understood that this was my gospel. Not the pretty speeches. Not the Latin hymns. But standing in the middle, arms wide open, and saying, hit me first. Even when your legs shake. Even when your heart screams to run. Especially when everyone else has already run. This is what it means to be a nun here. This is what it means to love. This is what it means to believe. And as long as I breathe, I will go. Even if I'm afraid. Especially if I'm afraid. Because the light, the real one, shines where it's darkest. No binding grace, a river flows. Where every weary spirit knows. No love so deep, a peace so pure. Forever steadfast, ever sure. My soul rejoices, lifted high. Beneath your ever-watching eye. Through every season, sun or rain. You heal the hurt, you ease the pain. Not tender hand, a guiding star. With every breath, a thankful sigh. For blessings falling from the sky. The sky. No binding grace, a river flows. Where every weary spirit knows. A love so deep, a peace so pure. Forever steadfast, ever sure. My soul rejoices, lifted high. Beneath your ever-watching eye. This gratitude, it fills my soul. Making every broken part whole. The melody of thanks I raise. Lost in wonder, lost in praise. For all you've given, all you do. My heart belongs completely to you. No binding grace, a river flows. Where every weary spirit knows. A love so deep, a peace so pure. Forever steadfast, ever sure. My soul rejoices, lifted high. Beneath your ever-watching eye. Abundant grace, so sweet and free. Forever flowing over me. Surrendering.