WEEKLY VLOG: First night away from my baby girl! | Suzie Bonaldi

Hello. Hello. Good morning everybody. It is a lovely sunny Tuesday. A little bit tired. We are in a stage where Adam likes to whack me in the face repeatedly throughout the night. So just perpetually sleepy. My current coffee order is a decaf mocka with toasted marshmallow syrup. I actually bought this last year. Not this exact one, but I bought this last year. Wasn't really that into it. Really liked a couple of the other ones I had. Like I was loving white chocolate. I was much more of a matcha girly at that point. I might come back to matcha, but right now I'm just like very decaf after all of my postpartum anxiety. Toasted marshmallow syrup is so good. I'm do a hair wash today. We're going to sort this. If you're wondering why I look like this, it just gets to the point where I don't brush it and then I just put it up and I look worse. are look even worse than just when I'm rocking a slick back. Don't I don't I'm not ignoring you. >> I love how like I chat to you guys and she's just like very intently listening. It's very cute. So yeah, done my coffee, done my shark mask. It's actually I would say if you are strapped on time, the shark mask is a way better purchase than the deeppuffy. I love the deeppuffy, but I actually that's so easy cuz I can do other things whilst I'm wearing it. The texture of my skin is really nice since I've been using it. My dermatitis has fully cleared up and I really feel like it's the mask. I don't like the drunk elephant was really good at like helping, but I actually haven't haven't done my skincare routine in a few days. But I have used the shark mask every morning. So, I would say that the shark mask is like definitely doing some good for my skin cuz it is looking lovely at the moment. So, yeah, I kind of do it in the morning whilst I'm either putting my clothes on. I'm still in my jummies or making my coffee. At first, Dad was like, "Who is that?" Now she knows that it's me. She's just like, she thinks it's hilarious. Yeah, we need to get ready this morning because it is a Pilates mom morning. Okay, operation. Get ready at the speed of light. Chug a load of water is a go. Now that I've woken up, I really was talking to you straight away after getting up. I am feeling like my glands are swollen and I'm a bit scared because I might not get that ill, but like how long is that going to take to turn into like a full-blown illness with my child? Don't any skin care? What am I doing? I need to just like locate a moisturizer. This will do. This is my Does this mean she's going to automatically get ill? Does it mean I'm a bit run down? I'm not entirely sure. Oh my god, I haven't used this in ages and it's so nice. This is my last clear cream that I have in my possession and I'm so sad for it to end. I'll link it and you can find out why it's not in the budget right now. So, that's stressing me a little bit. I also don't want to be ill cuz I have two very basically every week in the run-up to Christmas. My December is so busy. So, I can't really afford to be getting ill. Yeah. Not sure how things are going to go if I do get ill. You know, this week I am spending my first night away since I've had the lia. Also, my first night away from home, not including the hospital in so long. I can't lie, I am spiraling slightly. I'm so excited, but also just so nervous at the same time. I've done nights without Ryan cuz obviously he has to like work and stuff and his working hours when he plays shows are not very family friendly. So, I've done like a full night quite regularly. I was doing them like a couple of weeks after Delilah was born. Brian actually hasn't. So, it's going to be interesting for him. I'm slightly scared for him. She definitely falls asleep on me a lot easier than anybody else. Things are progressing at the moment, I have to say. And I do feel more confident than I did a few weeks ago. A few weeks ago, I was meant to stay away from home and I actually just couldn't because she was having like this raging, screaming fit as I was meant to be leaving the house and I was like, "No, that's not fair cuz I don't actually need to stay away from home." Whereas like this is like an actual overnight stay where like the overnight stay is an integral part of it's the whole point of the trip. I am excited. Like last night, you know, in that hour before they're like due to go to bed and they're just like screaming at you. Ryan was at football, I was just like kind of it just gets to the point where I start laughing cuz I'm just like this is so ridiculous. Like how are you not so tired that you've just fallen asleep because you're so grumpy? And I was thinking like, yeah, I'm excit I'm actually excited for a night on my own. I think I'm ready. I am ready. I've done so many nights on my own now that I'm like I deserve a night off. Sometimes her hour before bed is actually really nice and she'll just like chill on the bed and we just like giggle and laugh at each other and it's like the cutest thing in life and like those little things are like the highlights of my life. But at the same time, having a baby definitely makes I feel like having a baby, this is a real tangent, having a baby like really amplifies everything. So, it makes the hard moments really hard, but it makes the good things, however small, like it could be reading a book, it could be like going for a stroll in the seafront, it could be going for a lovely overnight stay, however big or small, it like amplifies them. And I really love and appreciate that cuz it just makes me appreciate even the little things so much more. And I really really like that. On the whole, I just love and I'm really enjoying this journey. And I like I like myself a lot better, which is also nice. I mean, do I feel like a potato very regularly? Yes. But in terms of like who I am as a person, not what I look like. I like myself a lot more. Dare I say I've got slightly funnier. Where am I going with this? I I'm I'm excited for my overnight stay. I I know I'm going to appreciate it. Like I loved it. It's the same trip that I did this time last year, and I know I loved it then, but I like I'm going to appreciate it so much more this year. So, I don't really want to be sick for that. Is I think the point that I started out on making. These next two weeks are so freaking busy and I don't want to overdo it this week and then get sick next week either. That would also be a disaster. Am I going to cancel Pilates and rest? No, this is not the day for resting. I am due a full tan, everything shower, pilateses, workout, walks, dad's birthday must wrap present. If you're wondering how I'm doing all of that and I have a child, it is Ryan's day to look after her. So our parenting situ is that I'm very blessed and we actually rather than just one of us going back to work, we both just like split child care between us and then my mom comes in like helps out if like we need to work and it's actually like our day to look after Delila or just if I need a shower and it's my day to look after Delila because my showers I do my C-section massage in the shower, they're not quick. So yeah, sometimes it's just nice to have an extra pair of hands. So very very lucky and that is what I am using today for is just to get prepped for later this week pack do the whole shebang but it does mean I need to be like really on it today which is not necessarily my area of expertise. Sorry this is going to be the longest chat in the world because I just feel like I haven't had a good catch up in a while. Any other business? Yes, I need to talk to you about Secret Lives of Mormon Wives because I just I have one person in my life who is just starting to watch it which I'm really excited about. I love it. I the the way of life is just so different and I really like that in reality TV. Like I like I don't want to watch like my own life on TV or anything similar. I need to get into Real Housewives. I tried. I'm just not sure on I started Real Housewives of Salt Lake City because I was really enjoying Mormon Wives, but then I just love Mormon Wives so much that Salt Lake City just felt a bit like close but no donut kind of vibes. Let me know which one I should start with. Should I go all the way back and start like Beverly Hills from the beginning? Cuz I could I have time. You know, I spend a lot of time on the sofa completely nap trapped. Delila is back loving a contact nap. I was going to go with New York and then I heard that like the more recent seasons like they've completely switched up the cast and I was like do I want to start? I don't I don't I don't know. Anyway, my point being Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, I hope you are up to date. If you are a fan, I I've watched season 3 and I don't de me what is happening like she's never she's she's always given me mean girl vibes from the beginning. So I'm kind of not surprised at the current situation. I have to say like not surprised at all. I've she's never given me the vibe that she's a nice person. There always seems to be someone that she's gunning for. Like every season it just seems to switch and I'm like how is everyone only just realizing now that she's just actually a bully? Tik Tok is spreading rumors that she's leaving the show. And honestly, like she's great reality TV, but have they just edited her really badly and made her look like a villain? It's really Sometimes it's really hard to tell with reality TV. I just think if someone if you can edit someone to really look like that much of a bully, they probably are. Cuz everyone can be a little bit You can edit anyone to be a bit And this season, I was just like, I don't know what the hell is actually what like what on earth is going on in the House of Commons vibes. like it just was so chaotic, but I love it because it was so dramatic. Whitney, who has previously just been a bit of a like she's just never been my favorite. Always seems to be like making drama and it's just like, oh, just stop. It just always felt so pointless. Really loving her this season. I feel like she has potentially on purpose switched up her her she definitely has a strategy 100%. I feel like she wants to get into like different like acting, TV vibes and she's done a full she was smart and did what De failed to think about and like actually thought I'm not really coming across particularly well. Maybe I should like switch tactics. And she's very likable this season. Like she gives me main character energy. She also seems really happy and I wonder if that's because she got Dancing with the Stars and she's now I think in Chicago and I'm like are you actually just like happy and content and it's not a tactic switch. You're just actually like really happy in life and that's really coming across and you just are acting different. We're all a much nicer person when we're happy and content and not feeling like threatened. Kind of loving her new era for her. Really glad Jen's back and she seems to be also doing better and she's just so sweet. I just love her so much. Taylor, as usual, is the drama. I don't know how that one person I think it's poor life decisions, but I don't know how one person can just continually have so much going wrong for them. Great TV. Feel really bad for her. Macy, lovely and sweet as always. Jesse, there is some that that I feel like there is more going on in that situation than they're actually showing. Tik Tok is really stirring that, but I don't know. That gives me real red flags. I can't lie. Why am I I've just realized I'm doing a full face of makeup and I'm going to come home and do an everything shower. If you've already thought that, just let's not talk about it. Let's don't don't say anything. Am I going to continue putting on this full face of makeup? Yes, I am. I actually considered before coming on here to talk to you, I was like, do I start my own little Reddit thread where everyone can talk about Mormon Wives because I just needed somewhere where I could talk about it. And whenever I see Mormon Wives come up on Reddit, it's just people that are like, "What the hell is this show?" Like, they don't they don't get it. And I'm like, if you don't get it, like this is not what I'm looking for. I want people that are like into it and loving it and like super here for the drama. So like if you don't get it, we don't need to announce that you don't get a medal for not liking reality TV, you know? But I personally love reality TV. So if you you are like me, should we set up a book club but for all reality TV and then just decide what show we're watching like each month? That could be so fun. This you all ask me about this every time I use it. It's the Charlotte Tilbury look in a palette. It's a million years old. I think I've had it since I was in my little underground basement flat. Like the second flat I lived in on YouTube. I'm sure it's that old, which is actually I should probably not be using it anymore at this point because how many is that? Like 2015, 2016, 2017. Yeah, it's that old. They brought it back. And like I'm lowkey like, wouldn't this be so fun if this was because of me and you all searching it repeatedly online? It's probably not, but in my head I'm like, wouldn't that be so fun if it was? I would die. They brought it back and it looks stunning. The packaging has had a little upgrade. Did I love the old packaging? Yes. Is it probably a little bit more affordable this way? Also, yes. The shades look so nice. This is the lighter one. They've done two. One is darker. I'll show you it if I come across it, but my brain is I'll probably forget. This is really nice. It looks like a pillow talk blush shade. It's all very pillow talky colors. like a really nice little cheek highlight color. Gorgeous bronzer shade. I would say, dare I say it's warmer, which is my only reservation because the one in this was very cool toned. I would say it's darker as well. Actually, this one was better if you were fair, but I think they did this in like three shades. They need to bring out an ever so slightly lighter one. They need four, I think. One for very light, one for very dark, two in the middle. That would be great. Yeah, the bronzer is looking a bit more cool toned in this one, but the eyehadow shades are not crazy far off. The blush shades, I think the blush shades in this is actually going to be better. This one is very, very pink. So nice, though. I almost don't want to touch it because I've already got one that is like vile. I squealled when it arrived in the post. It was actually wrapped up as part of a gift set that Charlotte Tilbury like you can give away to a friend. And I was like, no. So, aside from those updates, I think all that is left to say is happy 1st of December. If you've been watching for a long time, you'll know get I get a bit grinchy at this time of year. Christmas I used to find very stressful, overwhelming, annoying. Unfortunately, when you're an influencer, there's there's a lot of work this time of year and you kind of end up saying yes to things that in the end you wish you'd said no to because it's just so overwhelming and you end up making it really stressful and just like the family juggles. Me and my partner both have moms that love us dearly, but it means that they're both like they both want us at Christmas, so we have to split Christmas. And it's I've always found it so stressful, but actually over the years we've got a really good system in place. We're really happy with like where we go and how we do it and all of that stuff. And this year we have a festive Christmas angel, which I'm so I've always just for years and years and years now felt like a baby was missing at Christmas, like every Christmas. Maybe that was why I got really grinchy. I've never really deeped it that hard. Maybe that is why I get really grinchy cuz actually there was something that I really felt was missing. I'm just every time Christmas songs come on and I'm singing them to her, I like end up crying at the moment. Going to use a little bifro pink sorbet which isn't my go-to color cuz I'm not a pink. Pinks don't really suit me. But everything else is downstairs. It is actually a gorgeous pink. I'm just so excited for Christmas. Like even just putting up the tree, she loves the tree. She loves looking at it. It's so cute. I'm just Yeah, very content in my Christmas mommy era. People keep asking us what she needs for Christmas, though. I'm like, honestly, no idea. She could entertain herself with a crisp packet. I don't I don't know. Bath toys and books is what I have gone for, but now I just am scared my bathroom's going to be overrun with toys. I don't know if if Charlotte Tilbury still sell these, but this is number one the most annoying thing in terms of the jingle jangle. I need to cut these off. But this is actually the best thing ever. I clip it to my makeup bag and I just always have a little Charlotte Tilbury face mist. So good for when you're going away. Also got these mini CT brushes which is so good. They're my favorite brushes but in tiny tiny tiny. So to sum up, I am not a Grinch this year. Happy first of December. I have got a lot of advent calendars to unbox. I've got the Space and K advent calendar. As you well know from previous vlogs, I have got the hotel chocolate advent calendar and I also just have a regular chocolate one which is delish. Every year I don't really particularly care about advent calendars as much as that. Like I like them, but I've never really been like buzzing for my advent calendars. And I think this is another example of like how having Delila has just made me love everything. Like I'm like yeah buzzing to open my advent calendar. Anyway, that is that on that. I hope you enjoyed that monumental catch up. Now we are going to hot fet it to Pilates. Let's go. Let me tell you what a disaster my day has been. Finished Pilates, went and did my food shop. Halfway around the shop, I think. Where are my house keys? I've left them in my coat pocket of the coat that I picked before I realized it was peing it down the road this morning and then proceeded to change my jacket. I thought, "No, it'll be fine. Ryan's in. He's in." The next thing I know, the doorbell's chiming on my on my phone. Someone's leaving the house. And I try calling him. I'm like, "Please, please say he's just coming in. Not that he's left the house. Please, please. Nope. He's left the house. He's not answering his phone cuz he's driving down the road. How do people do this? How did I do this before having a baby? I don't remember. Maybe I just do it all in one go. Yeah, let's do that. So, in short, I locked myself out this afternoon and it was not great. I had loads of food with me, needed to pee. Ryan's destination was a long way away, so he actually was all the way in Brighton before he realized that I needed him. So, I just had to like hide my food, go for a walk, pee in the local coffee shop. Consequently, I've done nothing with my afternoon. I have not even opened my advent calendars, which I was so excited to do. And honestly, I spent most of my walk whilst I was waiting for Ryan to come home trying not to cry because I was just like, this is my Delilah free day of the week where I'm actually at home and I've just completely messed this up and I was so annoyed at myself. So, yeah, not the best day. not got the most vlogging done. However, we have turned things around somewhat. I have tanned. I have washed my hair. I'm attempting some form of curling my hair. I'm scared of curled my hair the wrong way, though. I'm going to figure this out. If it works, I'll give you a tutorial. My battery died last night and the little sock curl thingies, but with this did not work out. It was very overstimulating when you've got a baby that you're trying to look after and there's just like thing. Oh, no. This is what I ended up with. Am I going to have anything that resembles some form of nice hair today, or is it going to look even worse and ruin my day? Let's find out. Please work. All I want is a heatless hairstyle that like can't be pulled out by my child and isn't over stimulating. How's that looking to you guys? It looks semi okay from over here. No, no, I'm not sure. I was hoping the scrunchie wouldn't leave a line, but it did. H I guess if I'm like doing a clip that can work. We can work with that and then you don't see the line. Is this just going to last 2 seconds? Am I just going to have flat hair in like 5 minutes? Who knows? It's kind of nice though. I don't know if you can see. Let me get a clip. I'm really converted to small clip rather than a big claw clip. So annoying that there's a line there. Maybe I'll do it without the scrunchie. I just really felt like the scrunchie would hold it in cuz sometimes you wake up halfway through the night and it's just like pulling and it feels really awkward. This is today's nap walk. Got my thermals. Got my rain. Little crop jacket because can't keep up with the weather. Lip balm. This is my lip balm. Have to not put them in my pockets though cuz I've already lost one. No idea where it is. Okay. Well done. And let's pray for a better day than we had yesterday. >> Oh my god. Delila is napping, so I have a few minutes to actually unbox my advent calendars. Oh, by the way, this is my tree. She's kind of juvenile this year. Candy canes, lollipops. They're from Tesco. They have like flown out of stock, but I was going to go back for more, but you know what? I think we've got enough going on. I also bought this. This is Delila's decoration. She's new this year. It's a Bartholomew bear from Jelly Cat. So cute. Yeah. So, loving the tree this year. The giant bow on the top. I don't love it, but I can't be bothered to find another tree topper. So, we're just going really big this year. And we also have new stockings. These are from Mumas and Poppers. I actually need to cuz this one's upsetting me. But I got sent one. And then I got two in the Black Friday sale. So, we have a matching set. So cute. But yeah, my advent calendars. Oh my god, it is so beautiful. But so hard to find the numbers. Where is number two? There's no contacts in today. I'm so blind. Where is it? Where is number two? Lisa Eldridge kitten Lash Mascara. Ooh, I haven't tried anything from Lisa Eldridge. Oh my god, who remembers this is showing my age? Who remembers the days of a Lisa Eldridge makeup tutorial? Ooh, that looks nice. It's like a curvy plastic wand. I feel like she's going to be quite demure with her lash situation. It might not be for me, but we will we will see. Oh my god, wait. Am I 3 days beh? It's the third. Oh my god, we have another one. Oh my god. Now I've got to find another one. Oh, there it is. Got the K18 hair oil. Is this what everyone's been talking about? As a mom, I feel very behind with everything. Like, I have only just started making my way through Taylor Swift's new album. I just feel perpetually behind. Why is this so hard to get into? There's a sticker involved. I'm going to have to tackle this later. I don't know if this is the treatment. I don't think it's the treatment, but still fun. Love a new oil to try. Ignore my sofa cushions. They need judging, but my dog and my husband love to like just come in here and throw them around. It's so dark today. Gorgeous weather this morning. The heavens have now opened and it feels like it's bedtime. Oh my god. Okay, I'm going to have so many hot chocolates to catch up on. I haven't had a hot chocolate in days. Day number one, pumpkin spice. I really wanted to try that, but I really wasn't going to buy a whole entire box of them. So, I'm going to let you see this one first. Yes, I love the milky one. It's so good. It's just such a perfect like if you don't know what you're in the mood for, little hot chocolate. Okay, I've got one more. I've never been so excited about an advent calendar. I have to say like beauty ones are great, chocolate ones are great, but a hot chocolate advent calendar for the girl that has one. A minimum of one most days. Is that salted caramel? Oh yes. I literally have just finished my box of these. I gave my last one to my mom yesterday. I can't believe you get one every day. I just love it. Whilst Delila's napping, I'm actually going to turn on my little candle warmer. I don't go crazy with this. This is a Joe Malone candle that I got last year. And the scent is, it doesn't say, but I'm pretty sure it was chocolate orange. And honestly, it is the most incredible smell. Going to pop that there. Get all cozy in here. I am loving my Christmas setup this year. Like, gone are the days of minimalism. My home just feels so full right now. Like, we've got a whole play pen over here. I actually love it. It feels like such a home. There are pizzas on my side. I don't know if you can see them. My husband is obsessed. If you want to follow his pizza making journey, you can do so on Instagram. I'm going to make a pot shocky shock. I think I'm going to go for the pumpkin spice. I must try something new. I'm going to rate it for you. The little le crus cups. I do also love my bifro cup, which I think these are coming out soon. I only have it if I'm having a very chic demure reserved hot chocolate. Basically, a small hot chocolate. Standard size. It's got to be this. The hotel chocolate hot chocolates fit into this perfectly. It's like they were made for each other. They also have little sauces for them, which is just adorable. Now that I've talked about it, I must have one. Not me teasing you with these cuz they are completely sold out, I believe, at the moment. But I love them. Okay. Ooh, that's a good foam. I'm happy with that. Let us attempt to taste test without hopefully burning my mouth. Do you know what? It's nice. I don't love pumpkin spice at the best of times. You know, I used to get a pumpkin spice latte back in the day. It's nice. It's not my favorite. I think with the hotel chocolate hot chocolates, the their hot chocolate always still comes through, which is nice. So, you still get that kind of taste that I personally do really like. Is it my favorite? No. Am I happy to drink it and going to consume the entire thing? Yes. I would give it like a four and a half. I feel like that's reasonable. And hopefully my daughter will sleep for long enough for me to consume this entire thing. No guarantees around here. But literally only just out of the half an hour nap 4 month situation. Also, how on earth am I ever meant to fit back into my pre pregnancy jeans with this around? It honestly looks delicious and it smells even better than it looks. Like, oh, the smell of dough. So, we got an air fryer and it has changed our lives. I am just obsessed. Like the fact that you can sink things up. I love it. Have I used it yet? No, because Ryan does all the cooking. But am I very happy with the food that I'm being served from this? Absolutely. I did it. I've restarted Mormon Wives from the beginning. I'm loving it. I was hoping that it was going to stop raining. Oh my god, there's all these golfers and they're just about to have me and all the all of the girls descend on them. Umbrella, my hero. Oh, thank you. That was crazy. Thank you. >> Oh, we're doing sandwich swapping. Oh my god. >> This afternoon tea, we had this last year. It is sensational. You can actually book it here at the Grove and have a Joe Malone afternoon tea. It's so good. >> Oh my gosh, this is so cute. >> I have just checked into my room at the Grove. Oh my god, it's so stunning here. I can finally talk to you cuz we're finally alone and I'm not distracted. It's so overwhelming when you haven't seen everyone in such a long time and you just have so much to say. Like everyone I haven't been to many events. So like everyone is like, "How is baby? How was it? How was birth? How so much to say." So needless to say, I didn't get a lot of vlogging done. But yeah, I'm in my room. It is stunning. I love I love love love the Grove. It's beautiful. I would always say one of my favorite moments for any room in the Grove is the bathrooms. Like look at that tub. It's not even showing up on camera how enormous this bathtub actually is. It's freaking enormous. Look at how pretty. I love it. Got a shower in there, toilet in there, little scary situation going on. Do I dare open it? Beautiful. And the best thing is this year I had a really tiny weeny mirror last year. This year like that is I need one of these at home. Imagine the OOTDs. This is my outfit by the way. Today I'm in my 2019 Topshop Joanie jeans. I'm wearing my Stuart Wiseman boots and then this top I think is from Pretty Lavish. This is the most fitted thing and like the most normal thing I've worn since Delila was born. I'm trying like we don't turn to the side. We ignore. But yeah, I actually don't feel horrendous. So that's kind of nice. I don't know where these hoop earrings are from. I will try and link them. They may be like a Monica Vine situ. If not, they're just like an ASOS job. New necklace which is from Nema Row. I don't know if you're going to be able to see. It's got a D and a H in it, which are Delila's initials. And then my rings. Oh, I've got this really cutie patootie little pinky ring on. >> Oh, amazing. Thank you so much. Thank you. Have a nice evening. Thanks. Wow. This is my wreath. And I show you just went with bows. Stunning. I did a really piss poor job at making that wreath. So, I had the girls, the lovely ladies that run wreath making je for me. and she's had like a Chris Jenner facelift and now she's stunning and I'm so happy. Everywhere I look there's a Joe Malone bag and I keep I don't know which ones I've actually opened and which I haven't. Like it's just they're so so very generous. Anyway, this is just trying to show you my little ring. So cute. I really love her next to my wedding band. So yeah, those pieces are from Nemo. This is from Etsy. Numero is like I don't know if any of you follow Naomi. If you don't, I'm obsessed with her vlogs at the moment and her jewelry brand is really cool and I had to order a few pieces and I saw this and I was originally going to go for the heart. Thought I'd go for the oval. It's quite like a little bit more chic, but I thought Delila can have this when she's older and I just put her initials in it, but you can change them out. There's like a little flap on the side and you can just put whatever you want in. So, I might switch it up. Might put an R in there as well. Loving her jewelry brand. It's so cute. Yeah, I'm going to get ready now. I'm going to do makeup. I think I'm going to like do my hair and curl it and then once I've done my outfit, decide on what I'm actually going to do with it cuz I might do like a French pin, but I want it with curled hair if I do the French pin. But if I leave it down, I also want it curly. So, I'm just going to curl it either way and then decide what to do. And then Amelia is going to come and help me. She's going to hold my hand and help me decide what to wear because I just need handh holding these days. and she, bless her, painstakingly held my hand whilst I tried on all of my pre-baby clothes, all of my like pre-baby event clothes that I felt would fit and helped me. She's really like not very non-geemini of her, but she's really really honest with like what she thinks works and what doesn't. Like I loved having her with me through my wedding dress process. She's just really good at like I really trust her. She will never tell me I look good if I don't, but it's never in a mean way. like it's always I can't describe it but just you know when you're so comfortable with someone giving you feedback and like she's been so helpful throughout my entire trying on my pre-baby clothes process and it made me actually not lose my sanity which was wonderful. So I just want her to see the options that we picked IRL and help me. Right, let's get down to Biz. I'm using a new foundation. I love it other than the fact that the lid is so hard to get off. This is the Gioveni Prism Libra. I have already had compliments on this so far today. So, this is going to be a new fave. Also really loving the fact that like I through no fault of my own do get sent quite dark shades. I normally match to my fake tan, but right now other than this week and next week, I don't really tan and I'm actually I'm kind of enjoying it. I'm just going to pretend I'm going for that like Kylie Jenner slightly ever so slightly paler vibe, but obviously I'm not I'm not pale. I'm enjoying it. I'm enjoying being a bit more free. Was I going to go without fake tan though when when I'd be likely having photos with Victoria and Amelia? No. No. I need to stop doing that. Like we we all know the punch line that's coming. It's not even funny when I make these jokes. But anyway, yeah. I did not feel confident enough to stand next to my best friends without fake tum because they both are so such glowy goddesses. I can't do it to my self-esteem. I used my Coco and Eve 1hour tan. It's a phenomenal tan. I can't lie. Moms, you need it because obviously like just having like tanning if you have a baby like when are you get you can't hold them. You need the shortest on skin time possible and then it develops over 8 hours but you just have like the products on your skin for only an hour. I would recommend that tan to anyone but especially moms because I just think like you do need a tan that's going to be in your skin for like the least possible minutes of your day. Oh, forgot how good this was. The Charlotte Tilbury Unreal Skin Sheer Glow Tint. Oh, I've missed my evening glam. This is not These are not my makeup bag regulars. Gorgeous. I'm using shade three of the skin tint. And then 2N. Wow. I'm probably not going to match I'm going to have to bronze cuz I'm probably not going to match my tan. But daytoday, that is going to be a stunning go-to foundation. It's so beautiful. We're probably going to go for like a smokey eye tonight and do the under my eye situation because my eye shadow is like falling underneath anyway. So, we're just going to roll with it. I was also just talking to Amelia on FaceTime from a different room. I was talking about video lengths and I actually I'm going to put this out there for you guys. My last couple of videos have been kind of long and obviously I film them over a longer time and just release them like every couple of weeks. Would we prefer shorter and more frequent? So like let's say a maybe a 30 minute 29 minute situ or do we just prefer I save the footage up and do one long vlog. What would you like? I'll do whatever you want. I really don't I don't mind. But yeah, I found I I do have like a fair amount of footage somehow. But yeah, let me know your thoughts because you can't have unless we're in like the Christmas period where this may actually happen and you may get a video a week. Who freaking knows at this rate? But I'm doing something next week, so I'm vlogging next week. Unless it's a special circumstance. You can't have both. So, do we want lots of fun things happening less often or less fun things happening but vlogs more often? Also, how stunning. It's giving Sailor Moon. I don't know if the design team had this in mind. I don't know if that's what they were going for, but am I going to keep this for the rest of my life? 100%. cuz it's like if you know that's what we're going I really don't leave the house enough. I've actually just given myself a stitch laughing at myself. I'm so embarrassing. Wow. That's the blush. How beautiful. Very summery to be fair. Pillow talk flawless pink. Beautiful. I'm using my Charlotte Tilbury palette for the first time. This is so exciting. Like I can't believe it's back. It's so good. It's so good. Oh my god. Do we go sparkly on the aisle? I think I might might have to do it. You know, guys, we've got this sparkly situation here, which is really nice. Very like mauvey. So, I actually think it'll bring out my eye color really nicely. Or we have this one here, which I used actually at the start of the year when we were doing a job for Charlotte Tilbury, and the girls were like, "Eye makeup looks phenomenal." Right. This is where my little minis are going to come in in handy cuz I don't have I don't have the right brushes. Oh, wow. That's just That's adorable. We're going to use this because I need to let you guys know if it's good. Gone for a base of the iron arms. So sparkly. Wow. Okay. Is it as sparkly if I use my fingers? I find sometimes with Charlotte Tilbury, if you don't have like the perfect brush, fingers will do. Oh, yes. I really like this. It looks a lot darker than it's actually coming off. Can you see it sparkling? Okay, we're bronzing under the eye. I'm actually using the very dark purple in this. I'm scared. Oh my god. Now I have made a mistake in which I don't think I have anything to line my water. Oh no, they didn't. Oh my goodness. Perfect. I have been gifted a Bobbi Brown liner. Oh, it's been a while. My dark color that I always use on my lash line. Not used to using this brush. That did not go well. Wow. Yeah. Okay. I'm going to put some mascara on. Going to curl my hair. Probably add a few more layers of bronzer because I am probably going to get stressed and self-conscious cuz I haven't done pics, evening pics in quite some time. And I will be back with you. Got to do my bifro lippies and I wanted the good the good lighting cuz this is so much better. Why did I not film this whole vlog from this angle? So, I'm using milk chocolate. Someone asked me in the comments what my favorite shade was and I was like sorry I didn't say what my favorite one was because I thought it was just very very obvious. I love milk chocolate. I think the best if you've got a more olive skin tone, but also if you actually if you're lighter if you've got a lighter skin tone but you like a more nude liner like me, it will really work. If you're darker I think it's just going to look like a nude lip which is gorgeous but obviously just to bear that in mind. I feel like dark roast if you're darker than me will be will give what you want milk chocolate to give. Yeah. See I've got two milk chocolates in my hand here. Yeah. So then chai latte. And these just are a dream. Like my favorite thing is like a freshly sharpened one of these. Oh, I love So that's it with chai latte in the center. And then you could just put varm on and go if you wanted to. I also love it with my favorite lipstick. Dark roast just there and there. milk chocolate around the edges and then chai latte in the center and then YSL shade 200. I'll try and link it. It's so hard to shop for a YSL love shine. Like they all all the swatches just look the same online. Oh my god, my lips are so dry. It's actually embarrassing. This might not be the day for a Love Shine lipstick. Sometimes they don't make you look good. Actually, it's okay. I think it's okay. I might just I might just use my Valentino. This is like a very pinky nude. My favorite nude. And then sometimes what I'll do just before I go out is like smush it in with my fingers so it's a little bit more lived in. But anyway, let's go over the tootsies cuz we don't give our feet for free. But my god, the shoes. That's so pretty. Vic looks incredible. >> Hi. This is very close. Sorry. But >> I love that dress. >> It's cute. Velvet is just so cute. >> I am wearing Oh, this is hold. >> Thank you. Chanel bag. So, I am wearing an old Zara number, little backless number. My boobs are taped to the high heavens, so let's hope they stay where they are supposed to be. I've got curly curls going on. Don't know if you can see, I've got Jimmy Shu shoes on down there. Girls are glinging. I can just see. She is so cute. You're so cute. I just want to squish you. >> Joe Malone Marin Tonka. Also, if you see a brown mark on my head, oh my god, it's actually No, it's so bad. It looks like makeup that's like not been blended, but I've burnt my forehead. Delicious. I wore this this time last year and it's just beautiful. Does my hair look okay? I mean, I'm not sure if it does, but we're just going to we're just going to roll with it. I might take a clip with me and just put it up if it's annoying. Gorge, gorge. >> We're not allowed to make Amelia laugh in photos, so we're standing at a >> like >> reserve distance. Merry Christmas. Don't have to worry, baby. Two words. Thank you. Oh my god, you guys. The dessert room is back. >> Happy birthday to you. >> I was secretly pregnant last year when the dessert room opened up. You can imagine my joy. >> It is. It's 1:00 a.m. The girls left me quite a while ago. I have sat and scrolled Tik Tok for a phenomenally long time. I actually don't get that much time to scroll Tik Tok at my leisure. It was sensational. I also filmed a Tik Tok. In the process, I have annihilated a good pack of this lint chocolate. I haven't had lint extra creamy ever before. I dare never buy a pack of that. It was in the hotel mini bar. I will never be buying a packet of it because it's a bit too good. I'm going to put some of the I'm a celebrity extra episodes on, you know, the interviews after. I have a choice of that or read my book. I should also just go to bed, but being alone in a hotel under stimulated or the appropriate amount of stimulated, not over stimulated for once is actually it's wild. There was a point earlier, two days ago, where Delila was just like screaming at me before bed and Ryan was not in the house. He was out and I was just like, I'm ready for my first night solo. Like I was genuinely ready for it. Have I been spying on them on Huckleberry? Yes. So like I can see what time Delila went to bed. I hope they're all okay. I hope they're fine. I hope Ryan is actually sleeping cuz I know he sometimes people will just lie there and stare at her cuz he's like, "Is everything okay?" So yeah, I'm hoping that's all going well for them. I need to take makeup off. I actually I am, believe it or not, very very very sober. I did not have a drink tonight. I'm actually a little bit scared. Oh, it's so chilly outside my bed. I have had a total of one drinks since I had Delila. And the reason for that is, yeah, I'll be a lightweight. I don't care. I've always been a lightweight. I'm a very cheap date, but I get sads after a drink. And 9 months without sads was really nice. I don't want to go back to that. So, that's what I'm scared of. Not the getting drunk. Love being drunk. Yeah. I'm really scared of like the sads the next day. So, I just can't do it. So, I haven't Oh, it's so cold. I'm going to go do this and I'll be back with you in the morning. This has been fun. It's been nice to like vlog leisurely and socialize and yeah, loving this. I really thought I'd spiral. I'm not I'm not spiraling. My friends keep texting me like, "How are you doing? Are you okay?" And I'm like, "Yeah, babes. I'm fine." But even Vic was like, "My friends, they've cried. They've" And I'm like, "I'm good. I love my child. I love my husband. But am I very happy to be here? We I don't know if anyone just saw this. That's my boob tape. Anyway, I'll see you in the morning. Wow, it's so beautiful. It's so frosty. Crazy. Good evening, everybody. I am home. I thought I'd just do a little check-in with you because I haven't vlogged today. I had the worst night's sleep last night. I think it was the fact that I haven't really slept outside of my bed with my husband and my baby in 5 months. Brian and Delilah had such a good night's sleep last night. I slept the worst. And I was obviously really expecting to sleep very well, being in a big bed all on my own, not being whacked in the face all the time and like having to get up for a night feed and like just the worst night's sleep. I think I did sleep, but it was almost like I was like half asleep. Like my body did not shut off. Like my brain didn't shut off. So, yeah, I just felt absolutely wretched this morning and went down to breakfast with Vic and Amelia. I had breakfast and I'm not a breakfast girl. I don't eat breakfast. It took until 5:00 p.m. for me to feel well enough to eat something. There is something about having breakfast that just does not work for me. At the most, a little bit of fruit that is probably the only thing that I can I could really stomach if I wanted to. So, lesson learned. When I go on my next trip, I will not be having breakfast. It's funny like I haven't stayed away from home in so long. I'm kind of like remembering how to do it all again. Even in pics learning how to pose all over again. Like it just it's not natural to me anymore. But yeah, then came home and just sobbed at the sight of Delila. She like gave me the biggest smile and I just immediately started sobbing and just it was so nice to have her back in my arms. So like it was I was fine leaving but it's coming home which is where the tears are apparently. Yeah. Then we just I was so tired. She was due a nap. I was very overdue some sleep. So, I just basically napped on the sofa with her for two hours and it was just gorgeous. Finally ate some dinner, watched I'm a Celeb and now I'm here in my room's robe. I'm going to get ready for bed and I think that is where I'm going to end this vlog. Yeah, I hope you guys have enjoyed this vlog and I will see you again next week. Love you. Bye.