Harvey and Donna - all their story | #SUITS

Well, today's your lucky day, because it's the day you get to meet Donna. Let me guess, you're Donna. You have no idea how Donna I am. So maybe you should buy me a drink and we can continue this conversation in the corner. I want to move to your desk. I came down here to tell you I think you have something special, and I'd love nothing more than to have you on my desk. I will take a bullet for you. You're an enemy. I don't get involved with men that I work with. You're afraid you'd fall for me. If anybody's falling for anybody, it would be you for me. It just occurred to me that you and I don't work together anymore. Why do you think I have this in my hand? But I'm getting my own secretary. Associates don't get their own secretary. This isn't about the associate. It's about the secretary, and I'm not coming here without her. I don't want to lose you. Come work for me. She must be very special. She is. Look, I don't want to find out what kind of lawyer I'd be without you. Who's your girlfriend? Oh, I'm not his girlfriend. I'm his girl Friday. I got us an offer at Bratton Gould to be there by the end of the week. You didn't even think to ask me first. For the record, I would have gone with you. For the record, I should have asked you first. If you can't even separate yourself from him when he's asking you to leave a job that you love, it makes me wonder if it's really the job you love after all. You just made partner. We just made partner. You really know him. I really do. Never. No. Ever. No. Why? Because you can never go back. That document never came into this office or you would have seen it. That's the memo in her heart. He's been accused of burying it. I found it in the file room that day. It has my date stamp on it. Mine. I wanted to protect you. Lying to me doesn't protect me. It betrays me. I did what I thought I had to do for you and if you can't, just fire me. He wanted to be the one to have this conversation with you. Am I being fired? Yes. I know losing Donna's been hard. I'm fine. You haven't hired a replacement. She's irreplaceable. You came to get me to do the trial run. It's important. Yeah, important for me to get up there and say I screwed up trying to protect you. See, I think you'd do anything for him. Like I expected you to fight for me. I did. Do you love Harvey Specter? That has nothing to do with... It has everything to do with... All you managed to do was make it look like I love you. Why'd your last boyfriend break up with you? He thought that I prioritized my work over our relationship. He asked you to choose between him and Harvey. Yes. Who'd you choose? Harvey. I need you. Me. Neat. I can't be me without you. Harvey and I are like this. I have a relationship with him that's a lot longer than a few weeks. And when you mess with him, you mess with me. I was finishing up a couple things for Stephen. Oh, you're working for Stephen. I made some coffees. You work for me. You still haven't told Harvey about Stephen? I meant to tell him, but he was in a bad mood. And somehow I ended up telling him that I made some coffees for Stephen. And he got really pissed. What are you... I'm sleeping with Stephen. This is about me getting personal with Donna. When did you find out? Last night. Why didn't you tell me? I shouldn't have to. Meaning your focus hasn't been where it usually is. Okay, meaning that my focus has been on Stephen. Just admit that it bothers you about me and him. I'm not admitting anything because there's nothing to admit. It bothers me. I know it's not fair, but it does. I'm so sorry, Harvey. You're a good man. Trust me, let things be. They'll turn out the way they're supposed to. You don't know that. I do know that. You ever sleep with Harvey? Once. It was once, and I never would have done it if we were still working together. Would you want a relationship with him? I would have wanted to try. He pressed me, and I broke. So, this is not your fault, and I never want to hear you say that again. We are friends, but my professional loyalty to Harvey comes above that. Who did you say you're with again? Have you heard of the National Transportation Safety Board? It means that I led the woman to believe that I was an official from Washington. Led them to believe it, or flat out told them? What didn't work? I tried to make a deal with Evan to trade the case. You mean you want her to drop the case in exchange for me? Because one kills our case, and the other puts you in a world of ----! He's trying to get her to turn on you. You cannot be her lawyer. I think maybe Louis was right. Maybe he should be handling my case. And this is Donna's life. And I'm not putting it in your hands. And it's not your decision to make. No, it's not. It's Donna's. And she's sticking with me. And I'm telling you that I'm petrified. And I understand, but I don't have time to comfort you. Well, I need you to make time. And I can't because... Harvey, this is my life! I told you I'd never let anything happen to you. And I won't ever. So you don't ever have to feel scared like that again. The thought of you going to prison makes me want to drop to my knees. I'm sorry I doubted you. I'm sorry I slept with you. But I assume Louis loved her, so... Oh, because she was his secretary, he must have loved her. If anyone else ever loses faith in me, it doesn't matter. With you, it's different. Why? You know why. How about we start with the fact that I have been wondering for the last ten hours if you're going to acknowledge what happened last night. But you're you, so of course you're not. I'm not going to acknowledge it because nothing happened last night. Why? And don't tell me I know why. Because it would have been a mistake and you know it. What I know is something happened. You know I love you, don't I? Love me how? That's what I thought. You either can't answer or you won't, which is bullshit. Because obviously you don't just look at me this way. You're capable of looking at me that way. But you don't want to let those worlds collide because you're afraid to risk anything. Don't let the people you love walk by you without letting them know how you feel about them. Because life slips by and then it's over. I think you're one of the most amazing men I've ever met. I'm leaving you, Harvey. I'm going to work for Lewis. Your sleepless nights aren't going to stop until you accept the fact that your secretary isn't coming back. Why don't we start with you taking me through the whole story again? I'm leaving, Harvey. This is my formal notice, but I have no intention of leaving you high and dry, so let's talk about finding you someone in the next two weeks. You remember when I told you you could never go back and then I said I lied about that? I'm not abandoning you, Harvey. I'm doing what's best for me. You know what's best for me? Ripping the band-aid off. Harvey! Why don't you clean out your desk and walk yourself over to Lewis? Turns out I was lying when I said I lied. This isn't how two adults who care about each other move on. As far as I'm concerned, two adults who care about each other don't move on at all. Because I spent 12 years putting you first, and the day I finally decided to do something for myself, you didn't just stop treating me like family, you started treating me like a stranger. And for your information, that is a thousand times worse than if you treated me like your enemy. After 12 years, the woman you wouldn't come work here without is now working for someone else. You are as close as two people can be without being that. Because you're too damn jealous of me and Donna. If I was so upset about the two of you, why am I still paying your salary? Bullshit, the firm pays your salary. Not all of it. You want to know what kind of man Lewis is? This whole thing started because he wanted to prove to you that he had your back because he thought you were jealous of us. No, this whole thing started because I told him that I've been paying your salary since we came to the firm. See, when I brought her over here from the DA's office, Jessica wouldn't hire her because I was her associate, so I paid her salary. And then I made Parker, and I didn't think it was enough, so I paid her more. And again. And again. And if you've kept that from me for 12 years and you're only just telling me now, then maybe you are jealous. I never welcomed you to the firm, and I should have. You didn't welcome me to the firm because you weren't ready to see Yellow Girl move on. Are you saying Harvey's my little girl? I'm saying you weren't ready to move on. You say you're coming back to me? Yes, because I think you're worthy. And I don't want to lose you. Then keep my buy-in and make me COO. You can make a hell of a COO. Donna asked for a seat at the table, and I gave her one. Because when she worked for me, she had my back and would kill anyone coming for me. I'm sorry, Harvey. What do you mean? You promoted me, you had faith in me, and I never found out who it was I let you down. Donna, you haven't let me down in 12 years. And you didn't start now. Are you worried that I have feelings for her? Of course you have feelings for her. That you started having panic attacks after she left you. We wouldn't even know each other if it weren't for those feelings. I've been seeing Paula Agart, and not as my therapist anymore. What? I'm just amused that you think I didn't know. Maybe you don't want to tell her because you like being the object of her attention and affection. You're worried this will change that. She loves you. Harvey told me he's involved with somebody last night. I just got some news I should have seen coming, and I didn't. I didn't see it coming because I didn't want to see it coming. What's that? Something I should have given back to you a long time ago. The key to your apartment. What it's like to find out twice in one year that the person you thought was the love of your life doesn't want you. Do you regret it? I guess it just made me wonder if what she really regrets is never telling Harvey how she feels. Tell Harvey how you feel. So if you think there's even the smallest chance that you might ever want to be together and you don't tell him that soon, you might lose the chance to tell him at all. Since then, I've been counting the days until my son marries someone else and walks out of my life forever. I needed to know. Know what? Our lines have been perfectly clear for a long time. Our lines are as blurry as lines can get. If it didn't affect you, then just go ahead and tell her you didn't do anything. It did affect you, didn't it? Donna kissed me. What? We've done more than that. Unless, of course, you haven't told her that either. But what you meant was I made you forget about your feelings for Donna. I don't have feelings for Donna. We've been through this. Of course you have feelings for each other. She's part of my life. And I like her being part of my life. I know that I told you that I could handle you having her in your life, but I don't think I can. Maybe because stupid Zini just offered me a job. You can skip the part where you pretend you weren't the one who asked him to make that offer in the first place. I want to know why you did it. Because Paula said she doesn't think we'd survive if you and I keep working together. I'm sorry, Paula. I'm asking you not to put me in a position to leave the job that I love. I want to stay here in the position that I fought to get and that I love and that I know I deserve. I know you did too. Then why didn't you stand up for me? I want to say yes to you. But can you swear to me that nothing like that will ever happen again? That right there is why I said what I said to Harvey in the first place. Effective immediately, I, Donna Paulson, hereby resign from the firm. You didn't make me do it. I chose to. And now I'm choosing to undo it. I'm the person you call at six in the morning. Or at midnight when you need someone. It's over. Are you okay? Will you come back? Yes. I kissed him. What? I knew things were getting serious with Paula and I just, I had to know. Donna kissed me. But I feel terrible because Harvey and Paula aren't together anymore. It led me to realize that Paul's not the one. Because Donna is. She wanted me gone and Harvey didn't want to fire me so he went to Stupazini and got him to offer me a job and I was going to take it. But then at the last minute Harvey changed his mind. He chose me over her. Why'd you say that stuff to Donna? Yeah, I guess maybe I was rooting for Donna to be with you. There are a lot of things that we're at odds with each other about Scotty but the one thing we've always had in common is that we both care about him. Why the hell are you even defending her? Why shouldn't I defend her? Because you've always been... Been what? Afraid to say? I hope someday he sees what everyone sees. Thomas Kessler and I have been seeing each other and I know he's a client. As far as I'm concerned if you two are okay with seeing each other while he's still a client then I'm okay with it too. Have you told Bobby yet? I don't just want to tell you because he's a client. I wanted to tell you because I really like him. I am happy for you. I got a proposal for him from Simon Love. Thomas is so excited about this deal. Simon was using Thomas as a stalking horse. Well, I have a decision to make. One side is work and the other side is someone I care about. When he finds out about this, no matter what you do... And he's not going to find out about it because if we tell him we've betrayed our other client. Actually both sides involve someone I care about. I just need you to trust me. I just need you to have faith. I'll text you in the morning but please don't do anything until you hear from me. Simon Love was using you as a stalking horse. You chose him over the first. You are upset because I chose Thomas over you. Then what are you so mad about? Because you didn't give me a chance to fix it when you said you would. You lost faith in me. For all the time that we have been together that has never happened. Harvey, if there's anyone in the world... I have faith in you. It's you. Technically, you did not break privilege when you told Donna. He's going to lose everything because of me. In other words, I can throw Donna under the bus. The worst part is I don't even know why I did it anymore. I know you won't do it but it had to be said. You told him because you love him. Love him? We just started seeing each other. I'm not talking about Thomas. Donna was the one who told you about Simon but all you say is me. You want me to lie? He pretty much said that he was about to lay himself down on the train tracks for you and he wanted me to help tie him down. All I'm asking you to do is protect her. All you seem to care about is you can tell me who he is to you. I just know that he's somebody that I can't seem to figure out how to cut out of me. He was the only one who saw who I was. All my baggage. All my flaws. And he accepted you anyway. He didn't just accept me. He loved me. It's not easy to find someone like that in this world. I mean, what am I supposed to do when I have a big victory or a terrible loss and the only person I want to run and tell isn't there? I looked around and you aren't there. Because once it hit me that we should be together, it felt like we've always been together. It's that night everything finally made sense. I'm finally where I'm supposed to be. And so that love badge you gave me. Love about me? Love badge. I'm thrilled for you. I'm even happier for Harvey. Oh, really? And why is that? Because you're the best thing that's ever happened. And he finally knows it. Harvey and I have started seeing each other. He said if I'm happy, he's happy. But if the two of you can't figure out a way to share a meal together, then what the hell are we doing? Donna, from everything you've told me over the years, a man can be selfish. Harvey would throw himself in front of a train for me. He said that you wouldn't put me first. Well, putting me first would mean fixing your relationship with him, so... James, you have an amazing marriage. You've raised a wonderful daughter. You've had love in your life. If that's not something to respect, then I don't know what is. You made it right with him? I did. Deep down, for years, I knew I wanted to be with Donna. Just couldn't access it. And I love you. I love you, too. I haven't exactly told her yet, but she's the one. I miss you. I miss you, too. You're the real thing. Your mother had a heart attack. She's gone. I found this on Mom's desk. She never got around to mail it. Dear Harvey, I wanted to make sure you have this. Harvey, you don't ever have to tell me what was in that envelope. I'll tell you, Donna. But not today. But Harvey's hurting. He needs a break, and he needs it to be with you. Tonight was supposed to give you a break. I know you called Mike because you knew I needed it. Because more than anyone else, she gives me. You gave me what I needed. Sometimes you need two people who were so perfectly made for each other. Each one complements the other. Donna, Roberta, Paulson. Will you marry me right here, right now? Yes. I kept my feelings inside for so long because I was afraid. But when I finally got good news, that's when I knew that you were my everything. None of us know how much time we really have. It could be a minute, it could be an hour, it could be 50 years. But I know even if it's 100 years, I'll never have enough time. You know, I couldn't have done any of this without you. Any of what? Everything. Without you, I'm empty. I can never go back to the way I was before.