Windsurfing in Extreme Wind and Waves

I'm not too tired, I just feel the pressure of the bad things that I have in mind. I wanted peace, I wanted to be fine. I wonder why I cannot just sit for a while. I really want to see what it looks like. To have a moment, I know that it would be mine. When the windows are all closed. Like a picture of the time. When the future is all you're looking for. Save me from everything. Tell me a way to find my way. I'm just looking for something. I can't make it another day. Cause I'm falling down. Keep on running. Always working fast and hard. Never thinking about now. Believing in thanks to all the things that I have to try. I wanted peace, I wanted to be fine. I wonder why I cannot just sit for a while. I really want to see what it looks like. To have a moment, I know that it would be mine. Would be the best. If I blame myself tonight. Have a job to find. So tired tonight. I'll fall asleep. I was just too far from here. Focused on my own way. Looking back to this world left empty. There was nothing I could do. There was nothing you said. That could make me realize. How much lucky I was. Just out of reach of this final. Was not aware of this final. But when I stopped to see through. Started begging for help. To try to change and to search. I took a deep breath. I can see my life is crap. I have to see them too. I just live into my own. Far in the field. Just out of reach of this final. If I set tonight. Into the limelight. It seems I can find a place.