✨ How I'm Reinventing My Life & Becoming Her (Glow-Up Reset Vlog)

We are going to completely reinvent ourselves. Getting our hair done. Oh my gosh, the sunset right now. Your girl is actually going out tonight. Okay, what do we think of the makeup? Mommy, you want some matcha? You can't drink this. Hello everyone, welcome to another vlog, another day, another vlog. So I got my little matcha here. Mr. Leo is joined here with us today. Today's vlog is actually going to be a very different one because I have entered a really different chapter of my life recently. If you know, you know, if you're a real one and have been watching my vlogs, I kind of opened up about the things that I've been going through. But if you haven't watched those and you need to be caught up with the girlies, basically, the end of 2025 and pretty much all of 2026, like the beginning of the year, let me tell you, it has been humbling. Okay, literally the past few months had me fighting for my life. I went through a lot of personal things, a lot of hard things that has honestly changed me as a person. Literally every aspect of my life. And you know when you're going through kind of like a hard time or you're in the middle of a slump, you start to like not really feel like yourself. You're confused. You start asking yourself, who am I? What am I doing here? What is my purpose? Well, if you've also been in a slump or been through a really difficult time in your life like your girl, here's your sign that you do not have to stay there. You're allowed to reinvent yourself. You're allowed to decide who you are, who you want to be. And that's what this season is all about for me. I am committed to realigning with who I am, who I'm meant to be. And I realize the way you show up for yourself externally should also reflect how you show up for yourself internally. And so that's what today's video is going to be all about. We are going to completely reinvent ourselves in all areas of our life. I'm talking mentally, physically, spiritually. And so we're going to start off with step one, physically. So yeah, come and join your girl and let's reinvent ourselves for the better together. Okay, so this is the part that I was honestly most excited for. And it's to create a visual blueprint of the woman you're becoming, what she looks like. So literally for like the past 30 minutes, I was scouring the internet, Pinterest, TikTok, everywhere to find outfits that just represent the person that I want to become. Having a visual representation of what she looks like is really going to help you visualize and then embody it. And a huge part of this new chapter for me, I am trying to elevate my style. The real ones already know my style. Like a lot of my style before, it was very much like this. Very body-ody-ody. A lot of athleisure it's giving. I just came from the gym, but I still want to look cute. You know, it served me back then in my past, but not anymore. And I realized I really want to go for classy, timeless, elevated. And so I've been saving a bunch of outfits that I really, really like. And if you can see here, the style is very much like it's kind of giving office baddie. Very elevated, chic, timeless, tailored. And I was just trying to get the vibe of what I'm going for and this is very much very accurate. Seeing it all together here, I'm like so excited to dress like this now. And another thing I did was actually save links to outfits that I'm actually going to get. So using the inspiration pics, I found a bunch of similar items from White Fox. So for example, these low-waisted blue jeans. This is definitely my vibe. I'm excited. And I'm going to order these clothes and then embody this new version of myself. Alrighty guys, guess what came in the mail? Ta-da! So your girl did a massive order from White Fox because you guys already know, we are trying to reinvent ourselves. I'm trying to upgrade my style, level it up for a more classy, upgraded, elevated look. By the way, White Fox offers express worldwide shipping and next day delivery and two days delivery. So a bunch of these that I actually picked out. It's stuff that I normally wouldn't pick out. I'm excited! Okay, first outfit. We're starting off a little simple. Woo! I've been loving a good, like, wide leg jean. And so when I saw these on the site, I was like, I need them. And I, like, love this, like, halter top style. I have multiple pairs of White Fox jeans and I love them. Like, they're amazing quality. They just always fit so nice. And you can never go wrong with a simple white top. And you guys know how we talked about being classy, elevating? This blazer, oh my gosh, I'm so excited to try this blazer on. It's so funny because anyone that knows me kno- Oh my gosh, wait, I love it. I love it! Anyone that knows me knows that they would never catch me in a blazer, like, ever. And then my taste has changed because why do I love a good blazer now? Are we grown-ups or what? I feel so professional, guys. This is a moment. This is a moment. With some, like, nice heels. It's giving, I'm going to the office. But I still look cute. I love it! Okay, next. I was kind of unsure about this, but now that I put it on, I think it's actually super cute. This sweater is so soft. It's kind of giving, like, school girl a little bit, but, like, elevated, you know? Not that I don't love a crop top still, but I just have so many crop tops where I'm just like, enough is enough. I need to invest in some, like, non-crop tops, so this sweater was one. Okay, next outfit. How cute! It's everything. I love the oversized fit. I feel like this is, like, the perfect spring jacket because you know, spring, you need some layers, but it's not, like, super hot or anything. This dress also is super cute. Perfect! Literally the perfect length. And this dress, it snatches you in. I love when an outfit looks feminine, but also has a little bit of, like, edginess. I feel like this outfit gives that. Also, fun fact, I'm going to Japan this month. I'm definitely bringing this jacket over there with some, like, boots or something. White Fox has the cutest sunglasses. Oh, yeah. This is the fit. This is a fit. Guys, I think I found my favorite outfit. It's giving fairy princess. I don't know where I'm going to go in this outfit, but now I want to go somewhere because this outfit is so cute. I love, like, the length of it. It cuts off so perfectly. And the skirt! This is very much spring fairy princess vibes, and I love it. I love it. This outfit, like, I'm like, where's my castle? And my prince? Okay, I lied. This is my favorite outfit. This top is so cute, guys. It's so flattering. Like, it has this, like, little scarf thing. So classy. Your whole back is open, but the front? I feel like this would look really cute with a pair of jeans, too. And I did a little updo because I feel like it just makes the top stand out even more. What do you guys think? What do you guys think? Comment down below. I want to know what your favorite outfit is so far. I think this is my favorite. I'm wearing this shirt again because I love it so much, and then I paired it with these dress pants from White Fox that I actually already own these. Like, these are one of my favorite pants, and I just knew these pants would look so cute with this top. It goes right. This is definitely, like, a New York City look. A lot of girlies in New York City, when you go out, this is, like, a good fit for that. It looks business in the front, party in the back. I'm definitely more comfortable in pants. We're trying to work on that, though. Even, like, dresses, I'm more comfortable wearing than skirts. For some reason, something with skirts makes me feel a little weird. Okay, last outfit. We got a little, like, halter top. You guys know I love my halter tops. It has, like, this really pretty lace on it. Actually, not white. It's, like, a cream color. I feel like it's so pretty for spring. And it's, like, so stretchy and comfortable. Like, this thing, it snatches you in. And I thought it'd be really cute with this jacket. Because, look. Ready? How adorable is this fit? I love the fit of this jacket. Let's see it zipped up. Ooh. Yeah. This jacket, this is it. This is it. I think I got, like, a size bigger. Let me check. Oh, I got a size medium-large. I love the fit of it, because it's, like, a little bit oversized, but I just love when jackets are the perfect crop length, when they're not too cropped. She is perfect. Guys, what do you think? I think that we leveled up our fashion game, okay? Guys, I forgot to try on this sweater. This sweater I was looking forward to. This is actually the first thing I added to my cart, because this sweater, it gives spring. I love when sweaters don't have, like, actual real buttons, and it's, like, one of these, like, ones that you just clip on, because I cannot. I get frustrated with buttons, guys. Okay. Cute. I love this sweater. Okay, I know I say I love everything, but it's because I genuinely love everything. I love the fit of it. It's, like, snatches you in. I feel like this is a fit that I would wear to church. And I saw that they had this sweater in other colors, so I'm gonna go back and use my own code and get the sweater in every other color, because when I love something, I need it in every color. But yeah, that's everything I got from White Fox, my little White Fox try-on haul. If you guys wanna get any of the outfits that I showed you, I do have a code for you guys. It's AlinaYT. So you can go ahead and save your coins, save your money. This is a great start to reinventing ourselves together. I loved every single outfit. Guys, we just finished our hair, getting our hair done. Mom looks so cute. Straight hair back. Hello, vlog. So my mom and I just finished getting our hair done, and now we're headed to a ginseng store. A Korean ginseng store. So fun fact, I drink ginseng tea a lot, and I actually just ran out of ginseng, so we're gonna go grab some. Let's go! Guys, here is the ginseng, the root. They show from the baby, all the way to full-grown. Another one we have is this one. Hello, vlog! So my mom and I are headed to get our hair done. We're going to that same, like, hair scalp massage place that I went to in one of my last vlogs, but this time I'm taking mama lifts so we can enjoy it together. And my sister actually got this for us, so shout out to my sister. My unni, you're the best. Oh, you brought the gift card? Oh, yeah. Thank you! Thank you, unni! Wow, it feels like summer! So before I go to any of these appointments, I make it a point to not wash my hair, so this is, like, day three hair. So it feels even better. My mom's like, you shouldn't share that with them. No, I share everything with you guys. I'm so excited. This is about to feel amazing. How was it? It felt good, Oma? Yes! I look insane. Guys, my mom was living her best life. Guys, look at the hair! Yeah, my scalp feels amazing. Hey, vlog! So I'm here with my brother, Jun, and my Umma. We are about to make steak salad! I posted it on my story, my Instagram stories, the other day, which, by the way, if you're not following me on Instagram, go follow your girl. But yeah, I posted this story, and it just looked so good. I actually didn't make it that time, it was Lindsay. But we're gonna try to make it this time, and a bunch of you DM'd me and asked me for the recipe, so here we are, we're gonna show it to you. First things first, my brother is salting the steaks. You gotta make sure it's a perfect temperature. Fun fact about Jun, guys, he is actually really good at cooking. He's very precise. He's very precise. No, Jun is better than me at cooking, to be honest. That's a pretty low bar. Okay, you guys know where your girl started from with cooking. I will admit, I was really not great. But I've gotten so much better! But yeah, guys, this steak salad is so good. We literally had it two days ago, and we're making it again. We got our two steaks cooking. Guys, fun fact, Leo's favorite food is steak. So anytime we cook steak, he's on 100. Look at him washing the steak. Okay, so you need Persian cucumbers. Jun, I'm nervous. Yeah, so I would cut it like long ways, and then chop it. Half long ways, and then chop it. Guys, Jun is the head chef in the kitchen. Oh my gosh, you know what I'm thinking about? I'm thinking about Kendall Jenner with the cucumber. She doesn't know how to cut. That's me right now, guys. Alright, guys, I saved a little piece of steak for Leo. It's his favorite. Oh my gosh, I want you guys to look at the sunset right now, because it looks insane. Look how gorgeous. This view honestly never gets old. I still look at every single sunset, and I'm like, wow. Alrighty, you guys, I have my little tea. We're about to get ready. Your girl is actually going out tonight. I haven't decided yet if I want to go out with them, because low-key, guys, call me grandma. I don't want to ruin my sleep schedule. My friend called me auntie the other day, because I'm so serious about getting my eight hours of sleep every night. Listen, call me auntie, but I love being home at a reasonable hour. I love getting my eight hours. I love waking up, drinking my matcha, vibing, working out. Like, I am in that health and wellness era, guys, especially because the real ones know how difficult the last couple months have been for me. Because of all the stress that I was going through, guys, my health was so... It was cooked the last couple months. In January, I had two periods in one month, and my period just became regular the end of March. So I am not trying to mess that up, and I'm trying to keep my health in check, because especially after the difficult year that I had, my health was definitely not my priority. And when you're stressed out, it shows in your body. And I was literally in fight-or-flight mode. I have a health ring tracking thing. It said that my stress levels were always so high. You know, now that everything is calming down, I finally got my period back to normal, and I'm feeling better. By the way, update on my healing journey. I'm not completely healed yet at all, but so much better than the last times you guys saw me where I was sobbing to you guys. For the entire month of February, I was crying every single day. It's because in February, I went all in in my healing journey. And what I mean by that is that I was doing therapy every single week, and I was praying every single day. I still pray every single day. This past February, by far, hardest month of my life. Through therapy, through my relationship with God, I realized I had so many childhood wounds from my very traumatic childhood. Those of you who already know about my alcoholic dad and that whole situation and me getting out of a five-year relationship that was toxic and unhealthy for me. All of that stuff happened at once, and it forced me to face myself and look in the mirror and be like, okay, girl, you need to stop escaping. You need to stop avoiding your problems. You need to sit down, reflect with yourself, and heal for real. That is what I did in February. One of the big things I learned through therapy and also praying every single day is that I have wounds from my dad. Not getting love from my dad my whole life, and just never having a good relationship with him. I learned in therapy that it developed into low self-worth in me, and low confidence, low self-worth is something I struggled with my whole life. I thought that becoming a YouTuber, living in this nice apartment, achieving all my dreams, that would help my confidence, and I'd finally be this confident woman who knew her worth, but because I never healed the childhood wounds from my dad, it just continued up until my adult life, and in the relationship that I was in through therapy, I had to learn that I was just repeating my same childhood wounds that were unhealed from my dad. It just continued in this relationship, and that was a huge wake-up call for me because I was like, whoa. And for a while in my healing journey after that relationship and trying to heal from that trauma bond and learning to overcome trauma Hold on, this is my favorite part. It's so satisfying! Any of you who have gotten out of an unhealthy, toxic relationship and have traumatic experiences from childhood, you guys probably really relate to the things that I'm going through. Girl, it is not easy as an adult to try to heal. You are literally confronting things from your past that you had no idea affected you so much. In the beginning of my healing journey, especially after getting out of that relationship, I was mad, okay? Angry. Very, very angry. Now that I've progressed more along my healing journey, instead of focusing on the person, I just always look inward now, and instead of blaming the other person, like, how could they do this to me being angry at them and focusing on them, I've turned the finger this way at myself and asked myself the hard question. I ended up in this relationship, right, for five years of my life that was unhealthy for me, but I still stayed for five years. And I had to ask myself the deeper rooted question, not blaming the other person, how could they do this to me? How could they treat me like this? I had to ask myself, what wounds in me allowed me to be treated this way? What wounds in me are existing where I let myself stay in this situation for five years? You know, like, I had to ask myself those hard questions, and let me tell you guys it is not easy to ask yourself those hard questions, but I'm telling you, asking yourself those questions, self-reflecting, and pointing the finger to yourself, that is true growth. That is a true, strong person that has humility. I remember that one video that I posted, you know, spilling the tea. Majority of you guys were so, so positive in that video, but I got a couple comments saying, like, oh, I thought you were gonna spill all the tea about your relationship and this and that. This was such a clickbait video, this, this, and that. First of all, I go through all of my childhood painful trauma, traumatic memories, and it took a lot for me to open up about all of that. The fact that my dad cheated on my mom this past year, and how that's affected me, like, I was talking about all that, and that's what they got from the video. I was like, at first it pissed me off, I'm not gonna lie. But then I looked at those comments, and I was like, alright, those are people that I don't want on my channel anyway. Like, if you were trying to come on this channel for, like, a gossip situation, like, me talking down about another person that's not in my life anymore, that I do not want in my life anymore, like, if you were trying to come for some, like, gossiping, like, you're not getting that here. Because on this channel, in this community, we are here to uplift each other. We are here to be the best version of ourselves. We are not here to put other people down, talk bad about other people, participate in gossip and drama, like, that is such negative behavior, and if that's what you're looking for, babe, go on a celebrity gossip channel, not over here, okay? And, look, I understand, like, I have my favorite influencers, and, you know, if they broke up with their partner, I was always, like, so curious. One of the people I think of, actually, is The Wizard Liz, if you know her, she's, like, so gorgeous, and she went through a whole, you know, situation with her partner, and I was all ears for that. I wanted to know every detail, so I understand, like, how you guys feel, and, you know, it did make me a little sad, like, thinking that you guys are probably wondering, like, what had happened in my own relationship, and I never want you guys to feel like I'm trying to hide things from you, but for my own healing and peace of mind, all you need to know is that it was not healthy for me, and it was toxic, and it was repeating a lot of the same childhood patterns from my dad. Now, I only have time to move forward and heal. Like, I don't even want to give people from my past that much relevance in my life. What I want to focus on sharing with you guys is what I learned from that experience and that relationship, and share it with you guys. Like, all the lessons I learned, I'm not here to put anybody down. No matter how much pain or hurt I went through, like, I'm not here to put anybody down. And, yeah, one thing I regret, which I've commented before, is that I portrayed that relationship to you guys, like, it was perfect and amazing. I really regret that. That's one thing I really want to apologize to you guys for, because that was just not the case. That relationship was not healthy, and I tried to portray to you guys, like, it was so happy and perfect. But I learned from that experience, and now, moving forward, I'm not gonna just show highlights. I'm gonna try to show the realness, the rawness. I'm in the middle of my healing, and I'm trying to show that to you guys. But, yeah, all this to say, if you came out of a unhealthy, toxic relationship, and you're currently in your healing season right now, I feel you, I hear you, and you are not alone. The best thing I ever did was stop pointing the finger at the other person, at other people, and point it to myself, and ask myself the hard questions. Because there's this quote I heard that, like, completely changed my mindset, and I said it before, but I'm gonna say it again. The way someone treats you is how they see you, but the way you let someone treat you is how you see yourself. And so, when I heard that, I was thinking back to all the people that have mistreated me, and I'm like, oh. And so, the relationship I was in, and a lot of the patterns that I was doing in my adult life, I realized it went back to that low self-worth wound from my dad, and not having a stable father figure, and having an abusive, alcoholic father figure. So now, I'm in this journey, as a grown adult, building my self-worth from the ground up, rebuilding myself, reinventing myself. And so, part of the reason why February was such a difficult month for me, was because once I figured out that I had this validation wound, caused by my traumatic childhood, where I had low self-worth, even as an adult, girl, as soon as I figured that out, I said, boom, let's get rid of any sort of validation. So, the whole month of February, anything that could've numbed me, or distracted myself, I took all of it out of my life. So, I barely hung out with friends, I didn't go out at all. Every single day, I prayed, I read my Bible, was in therapy, unfollowed all guys on my Instagram that were giving me attention while I was single, because I had told you guys already that you know, after that breakup, my self-worth was even lower. And so, I was like, posting for attention, you know, on my Instagram and posting to get validation from these guys, because I had such low self-worth. And so, those guys that were giving me attention, I said, bye. I unfollowed them, made them unfollow me. I also archived a bunch of my Instagram photos where I was like, showing body-ody-ody. I also didn't really post much in the month of February, because I realized a lot of my validation was tied to the numbers. Like, a video doing well, or getting a certain amount of views, and stuff like that. So, I just wanted to get out of that. All the distractions, all the numbing, I wanted to get it out of my life, and I stripped myself. February was really my month of stripping myself, and when I did that, guys, I felt like, you know Mr. Krabs from Spongebob? You know when he's out of his shell? There's like that one episode where he's out of his shell. That's how I felt. I literally, every single day I woke up, I felt like raw. Like, literally like a raw chicken. I don't even know. And I was in so much pain, you guys, in February, because anything that could numb my pain, I got rid of it. And so, I let myself feel the pain every single day. And I was just focused on healing every single day. Honestly, it was one of the most painful experiences of my life, to this day. But, that was the best decision I ever made, because now, I have come out of that, and I feel like a new person. I literally feel like God made me new, and I'm not perfect, but a lot of these things I was tying my validation to, it does not serve me anymore, and it's so clear. And that's all part of like reinventing myself. I was like, I don't want these things. You know, followers, likes, getting attention from guys, having a nice body, like all this stuff that was filling my childhood wound of validation, and giving me fake self-worth. I didn't want any parts to do with it, and ever since stripping myself of that, now I am like rebuilding myself, rebuilding my identity, and it has been the most amazing experience ever. And don't get me wrong, like there are so many days where it's still so difficult, like I'm still very much in my healing journey, where I still get the days where I don't feel great. But, I'm so grateful I did that in February, because now I could really just focus on moving forward in healing. And so yeah, I feel like I rambled so much. And if you actually watched through that, comment down below this emoji, so I know you're a real one and actually watched through that whole thing. I feel like I talked so much. Yeah, I just wanted to give you guys an update of how my healing journey is going, and also explain, I'm not trying to hide my life from you guys. If anything, I'm really trying to do the opposite and be like raw and vulnerable and real. But I did want to address those comments like, you know, feeling like I wasn't addressing that relationship enough. And I hope you guys understand that it's because I'm focused on healing from it. I don't want to open that chapter of my life. Like, that is in the past, and I only have time to look up and move forward. Like, I don't have time to give any of that energy. I hope you guys feel inspired to also reinvent, rebuild yourself, especially if you're like in the middle of your healing season. Whether it's from like a relationship, a family member, a friendship. Okay, what do we think of the makeup? Tea. So I'm actually getting drinks with my friend, mocktails, because I actually don't drink. And then I'm going to meet some of my friends after that. So thank you guys for getting ready with me and chit-chatting with me. All right.