The Emotional Ups And Downs Of Real Love... | Riding In Cars With Boys | Love Love

How am I going to tell my parents about this? I can't even talk to them about the weather. How am I supposed to tell them that I committed a mortal sin? A mortal sin! Okay, okay. I know, I know, I understand. Okay, calm down. We'll practice. Pretend that I'm your parents. Okay, you'll just say what you're going to say. You'll get through it. Okay, just tell it to me like you would tell it to them. Mom. Pop. Yeah? I don't know how to tell you this. What? I'm pregnant. My daughter's a tramp? You're 15 years old. How can you do this to me? You make me sick to my stomach. Why don't you just take my gun? Take my gun and shoot me in the head with the tramp. I wish that you were never born. Okay, go. Maybe you should tell Ray first. Okay, okay. They say in Puerto Rico you can get rid of it, but I don't have any money. Do you have any money? That's it then. I just have to throw myself at my parents' mercy. Okay. If they could help me take care of the baby, then I could get a job. And save some money. And then I could move to New York and get a job at a newspaper. Something, you know, nothing big, something small, you know? Wait, New York? Bev, what about me? What about you? Well, uh... I love you. A lot. What, Bev? What are you talking about? Uh, what? Why is this happening to me? Bev, I'm sorry, come on. What am I gonna do? Oh, my life is over! I might as well jump! What are you doing? Come on. We've been going out. I mean, do you love me? It was summer. Yeah, but do... You are not the guy that I'm supposed to end up with. It would derail my life. Bev, look at me. Bev. Bev, look. Okay, look, maybe... Maybe you're not supposed to end up with me, but I'll make you happy, I swear to God. If you married me, I would cherish you for the... for all the time, till death, till I die, for the... Look, I may not be the perfect guy in a lot of ways, but I'm the right guy because nobody will love you like me, Bev. Please marry me. Because I'm ---- without you. How romantic. A marriage proposal that contains the word ----. Why do I look like this today? Why do I look nice today? Most important day of my life? Yeah. Oh, Bev, I'm sorry. No, not sorry. Where were you? I was... No, where were you? No, I was... No. Where were you? I... Come here. Say something. You can't hide behind Jason. Yes, he can. I am invisible. Help me up, boy. Come on. Hiding behind Jason's not gonna work this time. Answer me. I forgot. You forgot. You forgot! Do you know what it's like to have a dream? Yeah. Shut up, lizard! What? I woke up this morning truly believing that by this afternoon my life would be different. Not only because it was my dream, but because I earned it. And now look at me. Four o'clock in the afternoon and I'm just another angry housewife yelling at her husband on the lawn in front of the entire neighborhood! You look smart, Mom. You do. You look really smart. Come on, Bev. It's a whole college thing. It'll work out. No, it won't. And I'll adjust. Bev. Okay. Hey, Bev, how's it going? Okay. I gotta... I can't do it without a thing. Dear Bev, please don't go crazy when you hear this, but I regret to inform you that I am a junkie. I spent all of our money on heroin. I spent everything. I even spent the money for Jason's aspirin on a fix. It was just a tiny fix, but I... I spent that too. Heroin? I knew you drank a lot, but heroin? Jesus, Ray! For how long? I don't know. For how long? Two years, October 31st. Halloween night. Remember when Jason was a monkey? Could you stop? I'm not... Stop it. I feel so stupid for not knowing. Sorry, Bev. I'm really sorry. Oh, shut up. Don't say sorry. Of all the things you could say, sorry doesn't mean anything. No. You've done this to me for the last time. You're not helping because you don't pay attention. Normal. Did you know Amelia came to New York two weeks ago? It's Amelia who wants me to transfer. She wants me to go back and enroll in her school, but I can't go. I can't leave you because if something bad happens to you, it's my fault. I'm what went wrong in your life. I'm what you struggled to survive. You have to know that you wrote a book about it. I swore I wouldn't... Did you know I'm in love with Amelia? Don't worry. She's left already. And here's the funny thing. She thinks I can't love her because she can't make me happy, and damn it, she's the only good thing in my life. I'm just incredibly screwed up. Just so real clear about this, I blame you. When does this job ever end? You call it a job. What do you think it is, a calling? I screwed up. Come on, Mom. Don't cry. Don't. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Look. Ray signed. Ray signed. Huh? I don't care. Just go. Just leave me here. Mom, I need your help.