we loved like we had forever [indie playlist]

We drew our dreams in pencil lines, across a kitchen table Swore every mark we made in time would prove that we were able To chase the roads we talked about The places we would go But life has ways of changing plans We didn't even know Some directions fade away Before they're ever tried Maps we never follow Still hanging in my mind Every road we planned together Left somewhere behind Maps we never follow But I still see the lines Like a world we almost lived in Lost in, in different times Past those intersections We once swore we'd meet But every road feels different When it walks on empty streets I don't blame the distance Or the turns we didn't take Some journeys only matter And the plans we made Not every road we dreamed Was meant to be real Maps we never follow Still hanging in my mind Every road we planned together Left somewhere behind Maps we never follow But I still see the lines Like a world we almost lived in Lost in, in different times Maybe love was in the planning Not just where we arrived Maps we never follow But they shaped who we became Even roads we never walked Still somehow know our name Maps we never follow But I still remember them I spent too many evenings Waiting for the dark to fade Holding on to broken promises And dreams we never saved I thought love meant staying Even when it hurt inside Till I found the strength to turn And leave the tears behind Every ending opened A window to the light I chose the sunrise Over one more sleepless night I chose hope instead of heartache I chose mourning over goodbye I chose the sunrise And let the shadows fall Sometimes loving yourself Is the bravest choice of all Now the sky feels wider Every breath feels new I'm learning that tomorrow Can arrive without you The road keeps moving forward And so do I somehow I'm not who I was yesterday I'm stronger now The dawn was always waiting I just had to look I chose the sunrise Over one more sleepless night I chose hope instead of heartache I chose mourning over goodbye I chose the sunrise And let the shadows fall Sometimes loving yourself Is the bravest choice of all The sun didn't find me I finally walked into its light I chose the sunrise And everything became clear The life I thought I'd lost forever Was waiting for me here I chose the sunrise And I chose me Mmm We started out as something small A glance, a laugh, a quiet call Nothing certain, nothing planned Just two strangers, unmade plans But somewhere in the passing days The shape of things began to change And every word you didn't say Still found a way to stay We didn't need a name for this Just something we could not dismiss Like gravity we couldn't trust But still we learned to call it us We didn't need a perfect line To know that something felt just right No need to rush, no need to prove It only had to feel like you Mmm You'd show up in the smallest ways A habit forming in my days A message left to look upon It's like you were changing all the laws The world kept moving out of frame But nothing ever felt the same And slowly I began to see You weren't just someone like me There's a kind of love that doesn't shout It doesn't try to figure out It simply grows without a sound Until it's all that's standing now We didn't need a name for this It lived inside the quietness Like gravity we could both adjust Until we learned to call it us We didn't need a perfect sign It only needed time to find A space where everything aligns And I could finally call you mine Mmm No grand beginning, no goodbye Just something steady over time And somewhere in the middle of it all We learned to call it us You used to sound like mornings Like laughter in the rain Every word you said to me Made sense in every way But time has a way of changing What we thought would always stay Now even when you speak to me It doesn't feel the same I don't know when it happened But I can hear it now You became a different song The one I don't recognize Same old melody and name How it sounds inside You became a different song And I'm still stuck on the first The version that I loved the most Before we fell apart in words We don't sing the same rhythm We don't land on the same lines It's like we're playing memories That lost their place in time I keep trying to remember What we used to be But every note in us now Feels like a missing key Some harmonies don't break They just drift apart You became a different song The one I don't recognize Same old melody and name But not in how it sounds inside You became a different song And I'm still stuck on the first The version that I loved the most Before we fell apart in words Maybe we didn't end We're just tuned differently You became a different song And I'm learning how to hear That not every love stays music When the sound disappears You became a different song And I still play you in my head You knew me in the shadows When I hid behind my fears You never saw the strength I'd find Through all these lonely years I waited for your footsteps For a change of heart somehow But I'm not who I used to be And you don't see it now Some hearts grow quietly After goodbye I'm the light you don't see now Shining where you left the dark I found pieces of myself Inside my broken heart I'm the light you don't see now Brighter than before You walked away from who I was Not who I am anymore I stopped chasing old echoes Stopped reaching for your hand The girl who begged you not to leave Finally learned to stand These tears became a river That carried me somehow I crossed it on my own And you don't see me now Some endings close a door So another one can open I'm the light you don't see now Shining where you left the dark I found pieces of myself Inside my broken heart I'm the light you don't see now Brighter than before You walked away from who I was Not who I am anymore You didn't steal my sunrise You only missed the dawn I'm the light you don't see now No longer scared to shine The love I searched for in your eyes Was waiting here in mine I'm the light you don't see now And I'll keep shining For the record, I was fine Keeping busy, keeping time Thought I had it figured out Knew what life was all about Then you came without a plan Never trying to understand Why simple have you been Stayed with me long after then For the record, you changed more than you know All at once, not overnight Just little by little, slow For the record, if anyone should ask The best thing that ever happened to me Never happened all that fast For the record, nothing big Mark the day it all began No perfect speech, no grand goodbye No headline, no grand design Just longer walks and later calls Finding reasons not to leave Until somewhere along the way You became my certainty For the record, you're still my favorite place to be The first good news I want to share The last thought before I sleep For the record, I choose this every time Because the best parts of my story Only started after you walked by People ask when I first knew I wish I had a date The truth is love arrives so quietly I noticed it too late For the record, I'm grateful things worked out this way The life I thought I wanted Would have only led me halfway For the record, write it down The luckiest line I'll ever have Is that you came around For the record, I'd do it all again You can tell before I speak If something's weighing on my mind You read the silence in between Better than I do sometimes You'll ask if everything's alright Before I wear my worried face Like you've learned every little clue I never meant to place You know me too well You finish thoughts I never start Hear the words I leave behind And find the quiet in my heart You know me too well In all the sweetest ways You see the parts I try to hide Before they slip away You know when I need walking time When laughter's all I'll settle for When I'll say I'm doing fine And mean the opposite, of course You never make a big display You never rush to make things right You simply stay until the pieces Fall together by themselves tonight You know me too well The little habits I don't see The stories I keep meaning to tell The better side of me You know me too well More than anyone before Somehow every passing season Leaves me loving you even more I used to think that being numb Would leave me nowhere left to hide Now it feels like coming home Every single time You know me too well And I wouldn't change a thing Because the more you come to know me The easier my heart can sing You know me too well That's why I know it's true The safest place I've ever found Is being fully known by you I still wake up reaching For a voice that's not there Like my hands remember something That used to fill the air Every room feels different Since you walked out that door Like you left without a warning But took something more I didn't see it leaving Until it was gone You took the part of me I don't give back The way I used to trust The way I used to love Now I'm tracing empty spaces Where your memory cuts through There's a part of me I'm missing That I only had with you I try to act like healing Means I don't feel it still But silence says your name And nothing else will I learned how to keep moving But not how to replace The version of myself That only you could shape Some losses don't look broken They just look like change You took the part of me I don't give back The way I used to trust The way I used to love Now I'm tracing empty spaces Where your memory cuts through There's a part of me I'm missing That I only had with you Maybe love doesn't end It just rewrites who we are You took the part of me I don't give back But I still carry what we had Even if it hurts to hold it It's still a part of that You took the part of me But not the truth of us