Fire by Bowdrill, Fried Eggs in the Woods, Growing up without a Father.

Well, good morning folks. Old Scooter and I are out in the woods today, just making our way over to the actual forest proper, just getting covered in burrs. Oh my goodness, covered in burrs. The dog's covered too. I can smell this bergamot right here. Very, oh, very pretty. It's a nice day. Go on big guy. It's a nice day. I'm glad to be out here. It's been a while since I've been to this spot specifically. Look at this stuff. I don't know what this is. is actually. What is that? It's a different kind of plant. I've been coming to this place for years. Spring, winter, fall, summer for, I don't know, 10 years. I've never seen that plant. I've literally walked by that spot 100 times. Crazy. Anyways, today I'm going to attempt to light a fire with a bow drill. I'm going to cook up some eggs. I'm going to sit and have a little chat with you guys. Unending. Don't go into the long grass. Not Into the long grass! Okay, this is a relief. We're not into the actual proper forest yet, but I need to get out of that grass, man. Do you see this? Do you see this? Look at this. Two seconds, probably literally five minutes walking in there, and I am just covered in burrs. I can't imagine the dog. Get over here, Scout. Come here, big guy. Come here, bud. Oh my goodness, your tail. Oh, look at this. Look at this. That's never gonna come out. Oh no. You're gonna be in for a good brushing when we get home there, big guy. Oh man, he can't handle it either, look at him. You'll be all right, on we go. I'm really hoping that the ticks have slowed down for the year, because if not, look what we're walking in. Watch where you're going, big guy. This is tick haven here, obviously, so yeah. Hoping that they're done for the year. Man, I'm covered in crap. I'm finally out of that nonsense and into the woods. My little oasis. Oh man, Wonderwall. All right, time to get rid of all this burrs and nonsense. I actually worked up a pretty good sweat walking through there. It's nice and chilly this morning. It feels like one of the actual first real mornings of fall, but the sun's beating down out in the open there. I'm trying to claw my way through the tall grass. Okay, poor old Scout's gonna spend the rest of the day picking burrs out of himself. Well, I'm happy to be using my DayRock from Malcolm today. I haven't been able to use this in quite a while. I've just been doing, like, bigger trips where I need a big backpack and stuff like that. But now that I'm doing fall and I'm able to come to the woods and spend days out with my buddy, I'll start to pack this again. So what I have in my bag today... What do I have in my bag, Skate? I've got a little eye gunk. He's got a little eye gunk. Go get that eye, eh? What kind of accent is that? It's like a bastardized accent. All right, so I got my dog with burrs got my heavy cover can't no heavy cover fry pan I just messed up the handle on there. We go. I have your titanium fry frying pan I'm gonna use that in conjunction with Some butter. I'm gonna fry up two eggs I just actually normally I wrap them up and put them inside my cook kit and all that But I just cut the the carton works fine. They didn't break. I didn't walk in far maybe 20 minutes tops Then I've got an English muffin, a whole grain English muffin. So butter up my pan, butter up the English muffins. I'll fry up the eggs, and then I'll toast the English muffins on a fire. I'm going to make a little sandwich. I've got my old camera with my 35mm lens on there, so I can take some nice bokeh shots. That's not a bad picture. Anyways, some nice F1.8 shots, just B-roll. and then i've got my small tripod that i'll use that on not much really i got my gonboy my silky gonboy a piece of paracord for my bow for the bow drill little lens cloth for my um camera sit pad original blue foam pad uh what else i got on the side here my heavy cover canteen with and my lid really like to use this when i can what up chris shout out chris heavy cover all right so that's that side and then on this side got my little well specialized pouch with extra batteries for my dslr and a pretty cool little bow drill um bearing block from the lone woodsman and it's it's leather and this guy's just got a little hole with a bearing and he's got his pretty cool uh lone woodsman logo on there but that bearing it's like a cheater thing right so it spins super quick there's gonna be no friction on the top when i'm when i'm bowing so yeah pretty cool if you are going to bring any parts of the bow drill with you might as well make it useful right like i can bring an antler but what's the difference than bringing this rather than finding something on the ground i can find something on the ground too and i've done that multiple times but i haven't used this thought i'd like to use this so Lone Woodsman bearing block socket dealy that's it i actually took the straps off the bottom because i don't want them flopping around i didn't want to roll them up either so they're removable i'll put those back on i plan on using this backpack with the wool blanket soon go to an overnighter or maybe a 48 hour bushcraft camp kind of thing but um yeah so that'll be the the bag at its most capacity this is probably at its least capacity i haven't put you need to bring this bag really i could have got away with a smaller backpack but here we are so what we need to do now what i want to go do is find some trembling aspen or find some cottonwood the trembling aspen is good to use because it's about wrist thick and it's straight and i can just saw it down real easy there's a lot of dead standing over here i know exactly where they are the cottonwood works better as a friction fire wood but it's denser and it's harder to find dead and it might not be a straight grain but none of that matters we'll go out we'll look for aspen or cottonwood whatever one looks better we'll get a bearing sorry we'll get a oh two blue jays um we'll get a uh tinder bundle we'll get some firewood bow all the fun stuff we'll get that bow drill fire going i'm not going to go too too uh deep into it you guys see me do that a hundred times but uh yeah we'll go do that seems like that kind of day i haven't done that in a long time so this goat's still picking the burrs out of himself and before i forget i do have my knife on me as well i always forget to say that because it's on my belt and um I do have fire steel but bow drill, bow drill time. This is good. This could potentially be part of my tinder bundle. The only downfall is it's on the ground but do you see how fluffy that is? How fibrous that is? So very very fibrous and that will go well in the tinder bundle. So that's going to go right in my pocket while we're walking around looking for good materials. That can even be added. That can't be a tinder bundle by itself but it can be added to things like fluffed up cedar bark or a phragmites head or something like that on we go here you can see the stand of trembling aspen i was talking about all very white all very straight grain and i see a dead one right in the middle there's that dead one i was talking about but i see a couple behind it that are even smaller i guess i'm taking this one anyway came down pretty easy that's just all those leaves up there is just a vine that's wrapped around it go back scout nice and solid anyway that should do pretty good. Watch out, buddy. I'm going to cut off a big chunk of it right now. Watch out, scout. Son of a gun. Get out of here, buddy. He picked up that stick. Something bumped me in the nose. Okay, yeah, I'm here. I'm here again. Here's my plane. My nose. My big old nose. You know, if it wasn't so big, I probably could have avoided that. Take another big length off of here, so I'll Take two big lengths back with me. This should be more than enough. This is actually hung up in the tree, too, which is better than laying on the ground, so I can come back for it if I need it. But these two chunks should be enough for my bow drill kit. Oh, my goodness, Scout. And my fuel. Dude, you want to take this one? Here. Good boy. Don't hit my camera. Oh, don't hit my camera. There you go. Crazy, crazy dog. Go on. Get your stick. I'm coming. No, get yours. Get yours. he knows exactly where to go and he's gone good boy he's all the way in the woods already oh what a good dog what are you doing where's your stick go go get it get your stick and bring it here go on can't be doing your job halfway there bud thank you drop it thank you good boy nope good dog and he's up okay you know how i've told you wood before gets this like decay on the outside sometimes but it still means it's good on the inside that's usually only with harder wood but this aspen seems to be no leave it Skye this one's mine seems to be very old and it's done that and on the inside back up back up thank you on the inside it's super dense and it's dry dry dry i can tell it's super dry so leave me buddy so i got my my workings for a bow you can't have that i got my pieces for my kit no but i still haven't got my tinder bundle man i can't keep them off this go get your own stick go get your stick go get your stick go get your stick he's all amped up good boy anyways i'm gonna cut this i'm gonna get my my spindle and my uh my hearth board out of this and we'll worry about the tinder bundle later this log is old and spongy not the greatest to baton on top of but it'll work fine very clean wood very white wood yeah this should work very well smells like a aspen all right so i need to keep one of these as my hearth one of these make into my spindle. I'm going to keep the thicker one. I'm going to keep this one for my hearth. Then I'll make this one into my spindle. I'm going to get rid of the rotty little decayed part on the outside. I don't want to carve down my spindle from this size. It's a very big size to carve from. So I'm going to take off. I'm going to leave the middle because it'll be the driest. I'm going to take off each side. There's the middle, that line going up in the middle of the dark that's the middle of the piece of wood so you can see it's kind of broken off not not very straight but that's fine so I'm gonna take off another side on this side of it keep that that'll be good kindling and then take off some of the back so the tops not the work not the biggest anymore it's pretty good but the bottom because I've been toning like this and it's not been splitting straight down has stayed fat so we're gonna take off some of the bottom and some of the back you don't want to get it too skinny now obviously because you once it's too skinny you're not putting wood back onto it to make your your spindle but we got lots of room to play with here yeah that's good and dry when you when you see me doing that putting the wood to my lips there i'm not really smelling it all the time i'm feeling for moisture so you just kind of touch it to your lip and when the wood is wet you'll feel it in your lip the moisture in your lip it'll kind of just stay with you a little bit but anyway so got a decent size piece of wood i have to shave down to my spindle now but before i do that i want to make this part into a hearth what i want to do to make this into a hearth is make or baseboard whatever you want to call it is make this about i don't know half an inch wide or thick so what i'm going to do is baton off some of that side again and that came up pretty decent i might even be able to leave it that thick there decent i'm gonna carve this into a spindle i'll be right back with you damn you hear my stomach super hungry i cook these eggs up okay what i ended up doing with my spindle is i kept it super fat but i carved down the ends really uh fine so you don't need to have your whole spindle skinny going all the way down if if the end of it is skinny man i really don't know how to work this thing i see people doing this all the time block my face so the other thing comes in focus just look like a fool going like this all the time now um anyways anyways the whole skin spindle is not skinny just the the tip is which is fine and then the top fits perfectly fits perfectly in the bearing so that's good i think this will work i have high hopes on this one oh man i'm starving it's always a gamble right especially i haven't done it forever last time i did try it i failed anyway so this baseboard is basically done my foot there yeah i don't have to worry about this baseboard too much just make a little divot what i do what i do need to do now is make my bow with my paracord and get a tinder bundle she's on there locked on there pretty good with the uh the burnt end of the paracord holding it on as the bow is a bit on the short side i normally like them to be to the end of my hand from my armpit but it's close enough so then this side's just got to be cut and spliced in there like that you want to line them up to i'm gonna make sure that the end like down here is lined up straight with how this would be i'll be right there so get a rough idea right there this is dangerous be careful doing this i've cut my my thumb very badly doing this before these silkies are you want to pull to cut on the pull so there's no sense in pushing especially doing this once it's in there you don't want to go too deep and you don't want to run off to the side either you want to try and keep relatively straight in the middle and deep enough that you can slide the paracord in twice once on top of each other you know it just comes to tightening it then i'm gonna go in that silky saw makes a small slit when i'm testing how wide it needs to be or how how taut it needs to be like to take the spindle set it in there for like a practice run and that's really tight that's too tight she's in there that thing is tensioned like crazy i'm gonna loosen it up a bit and call it good actually i might even leave it in there now like that i might even just leave it like that and get it in no problem so i just kind of wrap the extra around and then usually i tuck it back in the slit but i don't know if that's gonna be possible on this one yeah okay it's in there so there we're good to go we're almost uh ready you just need actually i can even burn in before i go get my tinder bundle that's what i'll do i'll burn in burn my hole in and go get my tinder bundle while i'm waiting i'll give my arm a break but bam son why do you want my stuff so bad bro here let me get let me hook you up let me hook you up with a little deburring action he hates me brushing his tail and his tail is like a rat tail right now do this hold on hold on burn in all right so again we're just burning in here not trying to go for the coal yet nice it's a perfect burning very charred not glazed just want to cut the notch now it's gonna be really easy it's kind of make a little pie looking thing and go to town you don't really want to ever do this on your lap slip through and cut yourself pretty good it's the first instinct to do it that way because you get so much leverage away from your body is definitely maybe the way to be doing it there you go alright so I just want to grab some dead grass pretty fine stuff pretty dead stuff we'll use that as the outer part of my bundle I'm going to use that stuff remember that stuff we grabbed earlier off the ground well you can tell it's pretty dry it's dusting from like in my pocket so now the fact that it's like giving off dust tells me it's pretty dry I'm gonna fluff that up as much as possible very very very fibrous and now that's gonna go inside the bundle there and I've got shavings from making the spindle and stuff those are gonna like hold on the outside so that when I blow put it down and start blowing on it if I am blowing on it still those are gonna catch so anyways that's that's a good bundle I have no no worries about this bundle not working so all we got to do now is produce a good coal actually and all we got to do now is produce a good coal and get some kindling ready because we don't want to have this fire going with nothing to put on it because once it starts going it's going right right even those super ugly big curls will help things like this will help batten down this piece and use this I wonder if I can just that's not bottom pieces of wood but working on it's too soft I don't know if I could split it with this wood wedge all right let's batten it like normal batten down the hatches Baton Rouge Louisiana so you can have that one okay we're going for the coal now I've got my leaf underneath my burn hole I think I'll be able to get it right on this try it's good it's real good see how it's still smoking it's a super good sign all the camera's still on nice okay notice how i'm not rushing i need to be able to breathe i need to be able to blow into the tinder bundle as well i'm going to transfer this into my tinder bundle carefully nice pretty good guys pretty happy with that one okay now i can breathe that was my first successful bow drill firing quite some time i might have to give this some air here she didn't look like she's going too good i really should have put a platform down first but i didn't i didn't this is this is gonna go i'm not worried about that well i'm gonna let that burn down to coals now i only have the trembling aspen on there and a little bit of some oak twigs but thin oak twigs they'll burn down pretty quick then i'm gonna cook up my eggs my eggs for mr scooter like i said so how'd you guys enjoy that canoe trip video i had a really good time doing it there's a a lot of fun i'm trying to uh trying to break up these these trips like next trip i go on this is just in in between like an in-between trip video here the next trip i go on i'm not going to do the whole canoe tripping thing even if i use my canoe to get into a certain spot like a wilderness area i'm not going to focus on canoeing and moving every day and stuff like that i'm going to focus on like a bushcraft style hangout in a specific spot for for a night or two or whatever and maybe even fish for my dinner or whatever but not make that a huge focus of the video excuse me just to kind of break it up like i said i've been doing canoe trip videos i only really did two real big ones this year but anyways that's my plan that's my plan for the next video will be like in a remote setting not around my house i'm going to drive like seven hours to get there um probably canoe in and then not even show the canoe really much the coals are are almost getting there i gotta prepare my stuff so i've got like i said i've gotta melt my butter can you back up i'll give you an egg i promise just back up for now let's go dude that's the problem with spoiling your dog man he never used to be like this he never even would care about food at all but now he does because he's spoiled spoiled little shepherdy guy holding up for my butter is actually hard it's been a while since that all right melt up this butter i gotta actually Before I even start doing that, I gotta try to toast this at the same time. I think those coals, like I said, aren't going to last for long. And it's very, very, very windy right now. They're going to burn out even quicker. Better to burn out than fade away, right? Foodstuffs. Don't want no leaf litter. No leaf litter. English muffin. I was watching Bushcraft Heroes live stream and he said leaf litter. It was just so funny to me. leaf litter not making fun of him at all i just i like i like the way he said it so i i even messaged him in the in the chat say leaf litter again he's like leaf litter those guys are cool guys i like them a lot bow and matt bow and matt i believe matt and bow and ruben ruben the canadian all right she's hot as you can see ridiculously hot Nope, Scout, you can have a broken yoke, broken yolk dog. Oh yeah, I definitely didn't bring a spatula to flip these with, so we're gonna try and do the old fliparoo, hopefully, the old precarious flip. There is a decent amount of butter in there. I don't think my English muffins are getting toasted up too good. Okay, we had some technical difficulties. I broke Scout's and then I broke mine. So Scout's is here on this plastic baggie, almost fully cooked, but he's fine with that, I'm sure. And I have waited too long to do this and messed my own up too now. So, yeah, just, you know, the follies of being Joe, but whatever. Got to get this flipped over, put together in some sort of thing, and put on my sandwich. I might make scrambled eggs now, I guess. Oh, Joe. Okay, anyways, let that solidify. Put that on my English muffin and color sandwich. That's for you. Good boy. Is that good? Here, get too hot. Oh the big boy here eat it eat it She's done. I got a little little char on my English muffin, too He's got a scoop this in somehow. It's not so bad Been using this knife for everything since I got it probably have to sharpen it up today after scraping on this titanium so much But whatever why not have why have tools if you're not gonna use them Why bring a spatula when you could use your knife in the woods, right? Okay, you don't have to bring a spatula, I could use a freaking piece of wood but there we go, little messy fried egg sandwich slide around in there buttery eggy goodness oh i forgot to have butter too extra butter for it, that right in there and on the back of it extra greasy perfect cheers guys very good very very good that's not for you buddy you already had yours go lay down buddy come on lay down good boy so i was just thinking normally i burn this burn my bow drill sets the ones i make out here but maybe somebody would like it you know what i'll even send them the bearing block too i think that if you are a person who who wants to learn the bow drill and you haven't been able to you haven't been able to get it you don't know what kind of wood to use or whatever maybe who cares whoever even if you do know how to do the bow drill but maybe maybe if you do know how already don't enter i'm not gonna tell you you can't no big deal um yeah maybe if you can't find the right wood or just almost there or whatever if you think that you can get it with just this a proven set then throw a little thing in the comments that i'm in for the bow drill kit and i'll pick a winner in in a week and i'll send it to you i'm not gonna make a full video or anything maybe i'll do an update on the next video maybe but i'm definitely not going to do a specific response video like Timmy from out west won the bow drill kit video you know what i'm saying so i'll send the hearth board with the notch and the hole already in with this already matched up you literally wouldn't have to do anything to the to anything except for put that in there and spin it and that hole will last another two or three burns maybe but you know this is a proven set you saw it collected you saw it work right anyways i'll send the hearth the spindle the bearing block i won't send the bow because you can make your own bow obviously but i'll send you the paracord i'll send you the paracord and uh to make the bow the way that i do it you can make the bow however you want but if again if this is for somebody who needs a little bit of help cut a stick with a Y branch you only have to tie a knot literally you can slide this loop over something that fits on it or something that fits over like a Y branch then you just cut the bottom of the bow do exactly what I showed you earlier on in the video, I would really like this to go to somebody who needs just a little push, who's almost there you know what I mean, who just needs that proven set or whatever, anyways so i'll send you a paracord the whole kit again just put like i'm in for the bow drill kit oh this is good good day a little chilly i've been getting lots of emails lately messages and stuff saying how my videos have helped people or brought people closer together helped them through a hard time and stuff and i just want to i don't want to single anyone out but i want to thank you all for those emails it's cool it's cool hearing that this has become more than just a hobby it's like a passion for people you know it's becoming more and more popular not just watching my videos but going i don't even mean watching my videos i mean going out and doing these things and people who can't physically go out and do these things who are watching yeah it's it's very cool it's very cool to hear so it's um it's uplifting it's it's giving me it's rejuvenating me as well you know i've been doing this for a long time a whole long time This is still but I'm super lucky you guys like it. I don't even realize it how lucky I am I don't have to go to work. I don't have to go to the nine-to-five job every day It's crazy, and I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful that people are taking this seriously now I used to be ashamed I used to be embarrassed when I'd say I had a YouTube channel I had a job you know I mean back in the day working nine-to-five every day But had a YouTube channel on the side and it was embarrassing. It was weird. What do you do? Oh, I'm a grown-ass man, and I run around in the woods. I film myself solve you know what I mean but now it's like it's a profession it's become it's become something so I wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't for you guys I wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't for YouTube this is this is something else but I am happy that it's changing people I'm happy that it's giving people a new perspective as well as as well as me getting a new perspective when people are emailing me and telling me these things very cool I keep saying so at the end of whatever whatever i'm saying so like doug so they rubbed off doug so i grew up without a dad my father's name is jerry my biological dad's name is jerry him and my mom were together when they were younger they used to party and whatnot my mom got pregnant and that was it she nipped it in the bud she became a christian she stopped partying i never heard my mom swear smoke drink none of that stuff my whole life but jerry my father he uh he couldn't quit drinking so that was it he uh he was out of my life. I never knew him. I think I got a couple presents from him when I was a kid, like young, two years old, but I never knew him. I never remembered him. I never knew him. I had one picture of me and him together when I was like maybe four or something like that, dressed up as cowboys, maybe three. But yeah, it sucked, man. I always felt like I was missing out on something big in my life. I really had like a void, like this emptiness I felt a lot. My mom would take me camping and things like that. She married a guy, a good guy Ron when I was six and Ron was became my dad I called him dad and I had a brother and sister after they got married so my brother and sister were Ron's and so we're only half brother and sister but we never say that or anything we're just brothers brothers and sisters it's what we are they're young my brother's ten years younger than me my sister's eight years younger than me so I never really was close to them growing up I was more you know how it is just put off annoyed by them i had to babysit all the time and stuff that's what it was but but ron was a good guy he uh he just wasn't very vocal he was very very quiet and my mom couldn't they didn't get along after a while so they split up maybe when my brother and sister were older i don't know how i was in high school so they must have been together for 10 years or something like that but getting into this you know a lot of the guys that i hang out with a lot of the guys that i watch whatever they think their dad taught them you know i mean they shoot they hunt they're men they know how to clean a deer i don't know how to do any of that stuff i was never shown i was never taught still uh and now yeah we're in this we're in this genre i'm in this genre i'm one of the top in this genre on youtube at least and um i never had a dad i never had anyone to show me this stuff so i always growing up i always like latched on to even when i was older even even when i was on bushcraft usa like maybe eight years ago six years ago i i just like thrived and craved the like adult male role model attention and like the attaboys you know what i mean like it's the truth i'm being completely honest with you guys when terry barney iowa woodsman on there would give me like a thumbs up or that strong work or whatever i was just like oh man this is great you know what I mean? Like I felt good. I met my biological father. Can you hear that? You understand why I need to get out of the city to shoot a wilderness video? I met my biological father when I had emeralds. Emeralds six-ish, so six-ish years ago. I moved into my house a while back and ended up meeting my cousins who lived around the corner, my biological cousins, and we got talking and stuff. They set up a meeting with my dad and he came over. no i went over to meet visit him at noon and he was already drunk and it was kind of still still an alcoholic it was just such a turn off such a such a put off i needed closure a like it i needed closure and i thought i thought i was i was ready to have this guy in my life i was ready to have have a dad you know what i mean um but yeah drunk right off the hop at 12 o'clock noon just man just a shell of a man honestly nothing that i i wanted to to be associated with really but then we had emerald and we invited him over for he's a grandpa you know i mean biologically but even just him holding her on the couch i was so scared man he's drunk you know i mean so it's just kind of got rid of that now too haven't haven't talked to him in five years maybe i don't have any desire to anymore it's just not something i'm looking for it's not something that i feel i need anymore but i do want to say to the people who who don't have fathers or to to the guys who are raising kids now who didn't have a father and stuff you know what it's like um i'm never gonna leave my kid ever even if i divorce my wife which i highly doubt that's gonna happen i got a freaking i got a good one but um i'll never be out of her life i'll never be out of emerald's life i'll fight for you know it wouldn't even come to that we would have we would have 50 50 you know i mean that's just how it would be i know it but man don't leave your kids don't leave your kids and on a plus side look at me look how good I turned out you can you can I felt like I needed a dad to be able to be an outdoors and I felt like I needed to be shown the way by that but I learned I learned a lot on my own I learned a lot through mentors like Terry Barney from Turley my buddy Ken Doug Sean later on even just not even about how to how to be in the woods about how to conduct yourself as a man that's the most important thing and my mom my mom was great my mom was just a saint and she still is and i love her to death and she's she's done everything for me and my brother my sister and she's got a new husband not a new husband they've been married 10 10 years at least now joe and he's a good guy and i'm glad they're together yeah i don't know why i started talking about that or where i went with that i hope somebody got something out of it though it's funny man you come to the woods for a little bit just to get a little a little little refresher you know what I mean and you get all these epiphanies and all these these things you should talk about or think about okay I think I'm done I think I'm done for today I think I'm gonna take Scout back home work on this video a bit and yeah it's Saturday so my wife is my wife and kid are at a birthday party they won't be there too long we have supper together tonight it's a good day I feel good planning and planning my next trip I expect to see that soon expect expect to see lots from me I'm on my grind back on my grind you know I I gotta get back on the ball. My last video, I put up that video last night, the second part to my canoe trip video, and it got 35,000 views overnight. And listen, don't tell me to relax about the views and that I should be happy with 35,000 views and all this nonsense. I'm not happy with 35,000 views overnight. I wanna be back to 100,000 views overnight. I wanna be back on top. I wanna be back making the greatest videos on YouTube in the outdoor community. want to have tons of subscriptions and tons of views and tons of likes so that's my goal i'm getting back on there it was a lot of the the season timing and the seasons and me losing a little bit of lackluster there but uh yeah real talk real talk all right i've said goodbye like five times 15 times goodbye thanks for watching i'll see you in the next one i appreciate it from my family to yours who's that who's that guy we haven't talked about that guy i've never talked about that guy that guy's not really much now is he anymore all right guys thanks