Finding Out I'm PREGNANT!! | And telling my husband!

Okay so it is the morning of September 27th 2020 and my heart feels like it's racing super fast but I'm going to take a pregnancy test. I ordered some of these on Amazon because they were way cheaper than buying them in the store here in Switzerland. Okay I think I need scissors I'll Okay I'm sorry this video is probably gonna be all over the place because I don't really know what to say except that I'm gonna take a pregnancy test and I felt like it's a big moment if I am pregnant so I thought I would just turn on the camera. I don't know. I don't know if this is weird. Do you guys want to be here for this? Maybe not but okay. I need to read the instructions because I've never used first response before. At least this one is in English. The one I took earlier in the month was all in German so I had to kind of decipher what it would say. Pretty straightforward. Dip it in the pee for five seconds and then wait three minutes. So um what should I say? I'm dipping it right now if you're wondering. One two three four five. Okay time reset for three minutes so I will check it after that. I have the like package over top of the test so I can't see it. Otherwise I will try to peek and I don't want to look until three minutes. Okay uh do I think I'm pregnant? Not really. I'm honestly kind of taking this test more for like a peace of mind to know like that I'm not. Not that we are, okay how do I say this right? Chris and I are wanting to have a baby. I guess you could say we are technically trying but at this point I haven't really had any symptoms or anything crazy that would like lead me to believe that I am pregnant. It's funny because when you're trying to get pregnant it's like every little symptom like a tiny cramp or a headache or feeling tired it feels like it could be a pregnancy symptom and so you can start pregnancy spotting and so I've really tried not to do that because I know it's really easy to be like oh this could mean I'm pregnant this could mean I'm pregnant but in the end I'm not. So there's that and then I thought I would also just explain that I only recently had my IUD removed like a month ago so I haven't actually had a cycle yet but it's past the point to when I technically should have gotten my period but I kind of have no way of knowing because I didn't have a period when I had my IUD if that makes sense. So it's kind of hard for me to know anything but that's okay so that's why I'm just kind of taking a test because I have no idea and I'm expecting that this will be negative so I don't have my hopes up. Obviously I would love it to be positive that would be amazing but I don't want to set myself up for disappointment if it's not and like I said it's just like kind of the first month of us like trying-ish. Okay my timer's going off um anyways so you guys don't really probably don't care but I'm gonna check it now. We're gonna see. Okay I swear holy... The line is so faint but there is a line. There is and okay I'm shaking. Oh my gosh okay wow okay oh my gosh oh my gosh okay like I said holy cow yeah okay um what was I saying? I'm just gonna collect my thoughts and I'll be back. I feel like what can I say? I don't fully believe it because the line is pretty faint. I could be testing just really early um but it's a line there's for sure a line there. My gosh um so I feel like I'm kind of in disbelief like I don't really believe it um so yeah I can go away to test again in a couple days. Oh my gosh oh my gosh so I have I ordered three boxes of two so I have six pregnancy tests. I have five left that I can take. I don't know I have zero zero clue how far along I am but obviously because of the faint line pretty um early. So okay I'll see you guys again in a couple days. Oh okay I should also mention that the reason why I decided to take a test today like I knew that I wanted to take one in the next week or so and I thought I'll wait a little bit but the reason why I actually took one today is because I had a dream last night that I walked into the bathroom and there was a positive pregnancy test in the bathroom and I remember in my dream thinking oh Chris put this here I'm pregnant which is like so strange but it was one of those pregnancy tests and it said on it pregnant and so I woke up this morning just being like okay and so that's what kind of pushed me to take one today so wild wild crazy okay okay so it is actually the next morning I don't know why I'm whispering Chris just left for work it is Monday September 28th and I've decided that I'm going to take another test this morning because I can't I just can't wait um I really really really want to tell Chris it doesn't feel real I literally checked the other test yesterday so many times yep it is definitely definitely a second line yeah for sure pregnant I think if I would have I'm 100% pregnant wow turn the exposure down and here we go yeah you guys can see it right it's super faint so I must be really early but there's definitely definitely a second line wow oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh I don't even know I think it feels more real now it definitely feels more real it's weird I thought I would cry like I am genuinely so excited and I've wanted to be a mom for so long that is crazy oh my gosh wow so it just feels really surreal okay now I have to figure out how I'm gonna tell Chris okay you guys I just got a text from Chris saying that he where am I going um that he will be home earlier than I thought so he should be home in probably I don't know an hour and a half maybe earlier I didn't think he would be home till seven or later so yeah I have not prepared anything how to tell him I've been thinking about it and I think I have figured out how I'm going to tell him um but today I've just been trying to keep myself busy so I like cleaned our whole apartment I've been doing laundry I edited a whole video so I've been trying to keep myself busy so I wouldn't be so anxious and I don't know just thinking about telling him all day trying to keep myself preoccupied and busy oh my gosh and now I'm actually gonna tell him soon he's gonna know when we decided that we were gonna start trying to have kids um I decided to get probably like a month ago these little onesies let's see they're so cute and tiny I think that they're newborn yeah zero to one month and it came in instead of two there's like a striped one and then a gray one they're so itty bitty and cute and I thought that I could use those to tell him so what I think I'm going to do is I'm going to clear out our cutlery drawer I'm going to take this whole thing out and hide this somewhere and then I'm gonna put the onesie and the pregnancy test and maybe like a little note that says something like surprise or I don't know but I'm gonna put that in there so when he comes home from work I'll just be hanging out in the kitchen cooking dinner which is not unusual that's usually where I am when he comes home from work and then he'll come right into the kitchen say hi to me and I'll say oh can you get me a knife or spoon or something so he'll open up the cutlery drawer and then he'll see the onesie but I wanted to do it right as soon as he gets home because I cannot keep it a secret that long and I think that's the only way that I can like set up the camera and have it recording is if I do it as soon as he gets home and the good thing is that we have a window here and I can see when he comes home so I can like hit record try to act normal and um yeah okay so let's get this all set up hi honey what do you have what is this so let's paint the walls with laughter until not a spot is missed to earn your treasures on the shelf but can you just help me Mikey could you grab me a spoon thank you you just give me a hug I just gave you a hug it's usually you come right in and hug I just felt it was so light what is going on why is it right when I open it okay so I took a test yesterday actually and it was yeah listen and it was super light like you could see it but it was really faint so I was like okay I'll wait and I'll take another one today and it's darker today but still I must be like super early because but any line is a positive yes a long time ago like when we first oh my god I still feel like it's not real oh hold on sigh