From Depression To Paralympian

so I was raised by my second cousin's which I consider my mom she they raised me from pretty much day one I don't know my biology parents at all it kind of clicked when I transitioned into foster care being transitioned Oscar I wasn't you know a clueless child i will say i was aware that because it was my decision I have to say yay or nay to go to prosecute when you can speak and talk to understand what's going on you have to say your name I'm going to Oscar you know they actually you know do you understand what's going on yes I do next my mom what am I going to prosecute and that's when Boston why am I in focus I just learned to understand in my own mind I thank you there's a certain point will you learn to great who you are and you are going to be queen and I think for me I did it at a young age while some people might grasp that No teens there later teens so again i joined the Marine Corps 2007 reasoning is just experienced war just to get away from the city that lived in and just go find a sense of just who i am and I thought I felt I would learn all that marine court you know level Marines or ten Marines one in three afghan national army I had my joy marie at the door and I mean holds outer security because i don't want inside so have internal security and I don't like the setup that were in so I was like hey I moved them kind of more in the doorway to get more cover I'm that we can see everything put up without being vulnerable and I was like I'll be right back again this is a hallway narrow hallway and I took three sessions to this room the ID went off so when that happened you know it was kind of a quick alteration of hi beautiful life is just like it could in now it cannot in now but there was instant we're growing not necessarily read about we use a regret I wish I did these certain things in life and i wish i wasnt this time - I can I wish I did or said these things immediately as I'm laying there not knowing if I'm going to live or die yeah I tell my mom a lot more I feel like I could have told her I loved before because it wasn't necessarily just like I didn't hurt did it and then like that nothing in the negative sense just I felt like I could have said a lot more than what I did and then I think it's just so that was just you know I grew up very shot just very to myself very introverted and I kind of wish I did a lot more things and experienced a lot more you know it as I felt when I was like I was kind of felt like I turned down a lot more to be by myself rather than experienced a lot for life so those are the two things i right now that your bread in a sense yeah sort of those things no can I tell them on my lover every time I hit talk to her and then I mean I've done more in my life now that I would have ever done not being blown up so it's a very like it's a very life altering because this point i climbed the highest mountain in Antarctica and compete against the fastest people in the Paralympic on the track I ran a marathon I've done multiple runs of inspired many people I done a lot more in the last five years and i did my whole life combined