The harsh reality of van life | Full time van life sucks sometimes

good morning welcome back to another van life video if you've not been here before my name is Sarah and I am currently living full-time in my converted Vox all vivaro if you have not subscribed already I would love if you would so go ahead click that subscription subscription button subscribe button whatever it's called and also give this video a thumbs up I would really appreciate it firstly if you're in the UK I hope that you are doing okay after the crazy crazy storms and winds that we've just been having it's Monday as I'm recording this I think the storms like Friday Saturday it was Bonkers I hope you all managed to stay safe and well unfortunately I think a couple of people did die with like trees falling on them um it was just absolutely crazy fortunately like it was Canada or like Wales and actually where I normally am based over in the Northwest was quite bad I was talking to my son and he was like there's trees falling down everywhere it's crazy they didn't have power for bit of time and but I have been on the kind of East Coast well not the East Coast I'm not on the coast but on the east side of the um of the country for the last sort of five or six days and so it wasn't as bad here but it was pretty windy I lay in the van a couple of nights and being like Oh my goodness just rocking and being a little bit nervous to be honest I kind of moved away from where there was any trees just in case um yeah it was crazy really really crazy and I hope that you know you managed to stay stay safe out there like I say I have been in the same place for the last couple of days I'll show you actually it's been quite nice I've been visiting um visiting a friend it was their birthday and so I came over here um it's been a really nice few days was a lovely Sunrise the other day it's been crazy though cuz they are they actually the person with is fishing as though they've been in like the tent so I've been sat in the tent with them and I'm like sat there sometimes I'm thinking why am I doing this this is absolutely ridiculous the wind like over the with the stor STS and everything oh crazy but it has been really good what I want to do now though is I don't know I'm I'm moving on today somewhere I don't know where I'm going but I do need to give the van a bit of a tidy up and a clean cuz it's rotten um I don't know whether to do that now or whether to just move on somewhere else I might do it now actually cuz I'm sort of in a good spot like in a little car park um I'll show you where I am it's like little car Park area that I can kind of like open the doors and get all sorted and things so yeah let's let's do that let's get this vanand tidied cuz look I don't know if you can see this but let me turn the light on does that help look at the floor it's just absolutely filthy last couple of videos I've really been complaining about how much uh Power um my fridge has been using and the other day I finally just thought you know what I'm just going to pull it out um so I've pulled out and I'm just using like a little like insulated bag down there which obviously isn't as good as a fridge but I'm definitely hardly using any power now and I've also been turning my inverter off at night or just like when I'm not using it I only just turn it on for if I need to use like the plugs if I'm using my laptop or if I'm cooking or anything so it's been much much better my whole power situation this is um parked up currently ni water there it's been quite nice you can't see them no you can't see them in far too far away but you can hear them the uh the Red Arrows fly over like every day like practicing or whatever they're doing look at the state of this absolutely filthy I changed my mind on cleaning and Tiding the van can't be bothered um I'm just out here trying to think of where to go and what to do today um I don't know to be honest I'm just looking at my map and I don't know I think I sort of want to start heading back towards home um I'm about 3 hours away from home but I don't think I want to do that drive today so I'm sort of maybe looking this the from where I am and then where home is is the Peak District is in the middle of it it's a lovely area of the country um if you're from England you'll know the peep District but if you're not from England yeah it's just um like a national park with um Hills and it's beautiful uh so I'm thinking I might sort of just drive into the Peak District and find somewhere to park up I do need like to charge up a little bit so it'll be good to have a bit of a drive yeah I was also contemplating um Nottingham and going to like the Christmas Market at Nottingham which I do quite fancy and another thought I had is which it is a bit too far potentially but I did think of like driving down to London and going to like Wonder I love visiting London at Christmas um I go and see my sister and have a little wander around but I'm just I'm feeling quite tired um so I can't bar be bothered to do much today if I'm honest okay I've decided that I am going to go hang on this map is upside down I got a minute there we go I'm going to go here it's in the Peak District just found a spot we'll head there I'm just driving through the Peak District the spot that I had picked to park I kind of just drove stra straight past it and didn't realize um so I'm just driving but I just had to stop because it's amazing here look look at these views it doesn't really show up that good on camera but it's amazing you can actually get through here and go on go on a little walk wo oh look at these cars that are coming over okay is pay and display oh I going to say like parking is a pound but it does say no camping or sleeping so best not look at this View okay well back to the drawing board of where I'm going to park up um it's not going well with I should have pulled into the b in first place that I had already air marked but never mind I missed it I've given up looking on Google Maps I think I'm just going to drive and hopefully they'll just be like a little layby or something we'll see we'll see what we discover all I don't know where I'm going I've decided to come down like that view that we just looked at I'm driving down into it we'll see oh my goodness it's steep this feels very Peak districy with the with the dry stone walls and everything oh my goodness these roads are crazy I hope I don't come across anyone cuz there doesn't seem to be very many passing points I have finally arrived at my destination let me show you where I am I've been here before if you're a regular viewer of the channel um I parked there last time down back that way is a town called Castleton and then up there is H when it's pass we'll drive up it tomorrow I'll show you it if you haven't seen the other video it's pretty amazing not going up this way you got to come back down this way for it to be amazing but yeah I'll show you tomorrow I got a problem there is zero signal here if I turn my Wi-Fi off my Wi-Fi isn't working anyway but yeah nothing I'm going to just go and drive I don't remember the signal being a problem last time and I was parked further up there so I'm just going to go and drive up there and see if it's better so I've moved further down here you can see when it pass a little bit here now um one bar of 5G this might not work I may have to go somewhere else oh my goodness I just want to get in the back and use some internet I sick of driving now really isn't going well I've hopped in the back tried to tried to get some internet and I just haven't got any so I don't remember it being like this last time maybe like I went like hiking so maybe I didn't really use the internet I can't remember anyway I'm going to have to leave I really just wanted to oh I'm really frustrated by this I don't want to do any more driving well I guess I'll show you when it's pass now then but I ain't turning around and driving down it it is more spectacular to drive down it than it is to drive up this way but no I am not doing that I'm already annoyed at having to drive off right here we go over the cattle grid getting the right gear all right Mr Tesco man that's a bit fast yeah I'm not it's not been shown off to its best doing it this way but you get the idea it's pretty cool maybe I got to get out of the Peak District it was a nice idea being somewhere um right being somewhere like this but it doesn't really work if I need the internet I wonder whether I could just like go here actually just I wonder if there's signal let's see if there's signal I don't know to be honest now I'm here and thinking about it I have got a bit of signal here but I don't really like it when I'm like the only one like there's just like Wilderness all around me and I kind of don't like the idea of just being here by myself in the van all night it doesn't really feel safe so I am going to move on all right I'm giving up this is my spot it's not wonderful it's just a little layby by quite a busy road to be honest sunset's nice over there though I have just been chilling for the last hour and a half or so doing a little bit of work on the laptop and watching some YouTube I've just put my um window covens in the front of the van and I was just thinking it's weird when cuz I've been with someone else for the last couple of days and we've been inside this kind of like place that gets gated at night locked at night um and when I come back to like just being by myself like I'm just like I I want to lay by I'm never normally bothered by it at all but when I've been with someone else for a little bit of time or um like been on my driveway at home or whatever for a little bit and then I come back out again I'm really nervous for the first night and I'm feel nervous this evening I don't like it um nothing to do with the spot particularly or anything um yeah I just don't like it when up with other people for a little bit of a time it'll be fine it's just I just got to get over it for tonight good morning I just had a really early night last night I was so tired it's about halfast 6 now I had a good sleep to Hest let me just turn this off I've been watching something on the T um yeah I had quite a good sleep wasn't really Disturbed At All by that kind of like Main Road that's out there so yeah it was a it was it's got a little bit chilly in the night but not too bad I'm thinking I'm just going to lie here for a little bit it doesn't get light till like 8:00 so I think I might wait until it gets light uh and then head over to the gym for a bit of a workout or do I fancy a workout maybe I don't fancy a workout maybe I'm feeling very lazy or just just have a shower whichever because that's what we were advised to do at the time she has a long history of going missing you see oh my goodness right I've been lying there a while I need to get up get to the gym get a fresh hour it is chilly this morning have not put my heater or anything on though but it's been all right I've been using my little purple have I shown you these before it's like kind of like an electric hot water bottle and you like you plug it in and it charges up and gets all nice and hot so I've been using that to keep warm this morning um yeah I'm going to head to the gym I am there's one about 10 minutes away oh I'm going to be full of condensation yeah think there's a car [Applause] there I I've been been to the gym for a shower I feel all nice and fresh I forgot to take my makeup in and my stenness so I'm looking a bit uh ragged but never mind that's okay I've just literally drove across the road you can see that um pure gym is there I've come across the road just to park in little car park cuz I really do need to sort this chaos and mess out that is this band I meant to do it yesterday I didn't I got lazy I definitely need to do it today I mean honestly it's gotten so bad I don't even know where to start there's just crap everywhere it's chaos I just I guess I just have to get started I start with the front before all right front tidy now to tackle the [Music] back okay with the case against him for Shan we have the DNA evidence her blood his car his D trial for murdering my daughter I'm sorry of killing sha as she walked home a little girl [Music] [Music] hell with say that you like to strangle women Mike fi suddenly announced oh that feel so much better to have a a tidy up and a clean up um it's all can you see back there it's all more or less sorted I've got my washing up there but I think actually I'm going to uh not right now but in a little bit I'm going to go back to my house to see Steve and my son and do some washing oh I've just been to sat here in the back of the van thinking this and I think I'm a little bit um miserable at the moment I wasn't going to share this but I figured why not I went shopping I needed a bit of food and I went shopping and normally I'm really good with like I buy like vegetables and cook everything from scratch and eat really kind of healthy and only things I wanted to buy was just like junk and I bought like I've bought like pizza and garlic bread and I've bought like some pies and I'm looking at them down there that's why I'm looking down down there what I've bought and I was thinking about it that's just that was really noisy wasn't it the inductions just gone off sorry about that and as I was one around the shop why am I like going towards the these types of foods I think what happens when I get a bit like miserable about things the first thing that tends to happen is I start buying junk food as some sort of coping my mechanism I don't know to make myself feel better I don't know um I don't think it probably works but it's just what I do um I so I just sit think like what is the matter and I think I'm just a bit of a full I've been living in this van full time for quite a few months now and as a Gess I love it but every so often just gets a little bit too much I think um I don't even know what about it bothers me I think it's just everything it's like like washing up everything is just a little bit more difficult especially at the moment You' got to think of power so much um washing up is difficult it's a small space and I just feel a bit just like about it all at the moment um which I shouldn't cuz I've just had a like a lovely couple of days away with a friend um I'm going to go back home and see Steven now for a bit um but I'm just feeling I don't know I think like I don't know I think I'm probably just like depressed a little bit with the house and how slow the house progress has been coming on if you don't know I'm renovating my house which is why I'm living in the van fulltime at the moment um I don't know whether I will return to the house once it's done I don't know what the situation what we're what I'm going to do with that I don't know whether full-time band life might be on the cards for me in the future what I'll do with the house but anyway that's a whole another story I'm just miserable about all of that um I think and yeah I don't know just just feeling a bit down if I'm honest which isn't like me at all especially on the lead up to Christmas I'm usually a really positive person on the r up to Christmas maybe I haven't done enough christmy things things I don't know I don't know I don't know I'm just feeling yeah just a little bit little bit miserable so I'm going to cook up a pie I think eat a pie see that makes me feel better oh and then I'm going to go home in fact I might drive home I just drive home now um I won't be able to get on the drive yet cuz stevenh won't be up because he goes to bed at stupid o'clock in the morning so he won't be up probably yet and his car will be on the drive and whatever um but I might get home and then cook apart I'm back home still feeling miserable get get get a pie in the um in the air fryer I think it's just every like even this is depressing me the actually I want it's not a pie is it it's a pasty but I've got a pasty and I'm going to have a waffle with it as well like you know like a potato waffle feel like a big kid eating waffles but I love a waffle anyway I can't cook my Pie and my Waffle at the same time cuz my air fry is too small and just sometimes little things like that just yeah I mean it's no big drama it's not the end of the world it's just I'll have to cook things separately but yeah that's annoyed me as well this is Jolly isn't it sorry here's my I'm depressed lunch I feel like it's like a kids a kids meal you got a waffle some little spaghetti hoops and a Pasty realistically I know that this is not going to make me feel better I'd be much better putting some healthy nutritious stuff into my body but I don't care I'm doing it I love spaghetti Hoops I haven't had them for ages yummy maybe it will make me feel better