Highs & Lows of the Holidays! | Vlogmas 2024

[Music] good morning we so happy that you're here we are doing vlogmas this year so if you like this video we hope you'll come back for a couple more days we're almost at Christmas um I'm actually I'm in celebration this morning just running a couple of erands I'll talk about my I like a followup um appointment after my emergency room visit today and now I'm going into the post office I'm a little bit nervous given it's the 23rd of December okay it doesn't like there's too many people but I'm just like picturing liveaction Grinch heck of a rush last year I spent a lot of time at this little Deli and then it closed like the deli that was there before closed and then this new one opened I didn't know it was there and so I was very pleasantly surprised to see some many yummy drinks get a little Christmas Eve Eve breakfast for the fan bring it home they had some bottled soda pops so I got those too um the post office was empty I guess no matter what nothing you send right now is going to get where it needs to go by Christmas so everyone's kind of like the the rush is kind of over um and the things that I need to send don't necessarily need to be there by Christmas so it was a stress free experience so that's good I am very hungry I'm going to try not to snack on this on the way home but I did get a box of Italian like Bakery cookies which like might be my favorite food like not even just like favorite dessert but like favorite food of all the foods um so I'll probably open that on the way home there's a little bit of landscaping going on all right I will check in at the car about my appointment all righty I had my follow-up appointment we are going to do a repeat ultrasound in 6 weeks I asked if we could do it sooner because I'm impatient and they said that like cysts are just sort of slow resolving and that we won't know for sure like like that's like that's why they say wait 6 weeks so then you know um enough time has passed for it to resolve um and to not be concerned for no reason um so that I actually established care there um and so yeah that's really the only update again it's so funny like not vlogging anymore that I will try to keep everybody updated on social media um when that happens just for peace of mind cuz I know that you guys are thinking of me um I'm grateful that I don't have any more pain um and they obviously like they told me all of the different things to work out for especially for an ovary torsion which was what we were worried about um like at the ER in the first place um so just keeping an eye out for things and monitor so so nice that none of this will turn Christmas upside down um and yeah that's all I can ask for just nice providers that listen to me take things seriously and um I feel good that when I leave um plan of action that's all that's that's what Peter and I always say like hey we have a plan and that's what we need to just keep moving forward all right I brought our little sandwiches home our little Ranchero situation it has egg and cream cheese and pepper jack and then a locks bagel with onions and capers all righty those sandwiches were huge I'm actually going to save my half for lunch and I'm I'm someone with a big appetite they're huge and so tasty I'm very happy with my first experience there and then even better news you can see you can see my laundry basket over there and Charlie got into the um records anyways the bakery cookies are legit you know sometimes a big grocery chain that's big in Florida has Bakery cookies and they just don't have that same like I want to say I don't know like what the word is their Bakery cookies are a little bit more like chewy and like they don't have that like buttery flake like bite you know that like it's like a more of a crisper crisp isn't the right word either I don't know that like maybe it's just like that shortbread goodness there's just a mass produced quality to theirs and this Bakery B they did their Bakery cookies right they're just probably like smaller batches of them but yeah very happy also any day I live in Florida and I get to wear a turtleneck I'm extra happy especially when it's covered in Crumbs from my baby [Music] all righty I snuck away during nap time to do our grocery shopping for Christmas dinner so we're making stuff shells we're keeping it pretty simple but we are doing like we're going to make breakfast and have dips you know like but just like okay we're like we're just doing our typical thing I feel like I'm like downplaying it our typical stuff shells the whole 9 yards we're not holding back but it's just us and the boys what I'm trying to say is like I'm still like the quantity is smaller anywh who I'm having a glitch in the aisle at Publix because if you have been around a long time you will know that we love cranberry cist we really love any cranberry pop combination and this is like what replaced cist with Pepsi and I found this cranberry bliss but it's zero sugar and I'm like I'm about to open this and taste it I'm definitely going to buy it so I'm either about to be really happy or slightly disappointed cuz I didn't think I was going to find it I thought it was gone so we're going to do a taste test when we get home open yeah you want some carrots bunny like a bunny yeah e that one's kind of creepy all right found this this is supposedly the like replacement of sist in the Pepsi company world it's zero sugar it's cranberry I think I don't think they changed anything I think they just changed the name because I know but I never see this like I never see the cranberry I've actually haven't seen like Mommy look oh I got some whipped cream on the bag um we're putting Peters in a shot glass um we and I haven't found any cranberry pop this season at all okay I don't know if we're running out of time Peter bunny you're a bunny egg so let's see it is zero sugar that's the only Mama it's eggs it's eggs that's it that's it EG mommy Christmas miracle Charlie makes the funniest faces I don't know what to do so I put in a little clip I had it vertical because I had to Snapchat my family about this discovery um so I just put some on Ice finished my lock Bagel Peter just took the big boys with him to Ikea we've been kind of needing a a toy storage solution so that's what they're doing and now I'm like what do I do I have a lot to do I think I'm going to edit the Vlog with Charlie I'm going to have Charlie eat I'm going to edit here and start there so got the Santa Claus on I made myself a little espresso peppermint chocolate drink and we're going to get stuff done 1 hour later the Vlog is done I just put on some Bluey cuz like I feel like we haven't watched no sometimes like I need Bluey um um but I'm doing like I'm I know that like tomorrow there will be play but like I want to get the house in a place where like nothing nothing that doesn't always live down here stays down here so that Christmas isn't just any normal Wednesday at home we're having a chill Christmas obviously we're staying home and I'm going to talk a little bit more about that later because I feel like it's kind of not been talked about and not been thought about is the fact that we aren't like this holiday season we have stayed here and although it's like Beyond fulfilling having our own family celebrating Traditions we're so so happy that like this sadness is coexisting but it's also kind of like been suppressed because of the chaos anyway I I think I'm going to talk a little bit more about that later cuz it was on my mind at the grocery store but any who we're just home we're just doing our own thing but I'm just like determin that the Christmas will feel different than just like a normal day at home so right now while Charlie is playing I'm going to bring anything that doesn't belong downstairs upstairs even if it doesn't get like a spot upstairs I think I just need to like start the migration a boys are home we got some trains to add to our collection some nice markers and paper so we drew we drew a a train and track signing off from tomorrow I have eie and Charlie in the car um for a vet appointment so if there's a little hustle and bustle that's what's going on um I was listening to Christmas music on the way here and I realized I did not sign off and the thing that I that I was reminded of was Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas came on sung by Judy Garland and Meet Me In St Louis I know we're going to go in very soon e e just laid down she's getting a little anxious to go in but we're a little early um and basically I mentioned like grief in the holidays yesterday and it's like so so wild how like multiple emotions can like exist at the same time and again I feel like we like a lot of us like talking on here is just like hey if somebody's listening to this and they understand like feeling less alone in like all aspects of life um Peter and I have been through a lot and I feel like we can then relate to a lot of people because we've had a lot of experiences um and we like talking and we're like open to share so anyways just showing it solidarity for like the roller coaster that are the holidays we are like so so grateful as we've said a gazillion times um to have found our way to our children and to have Eevee and like we just have like such fulfilling days and holidays and traditions and what's cool is for us and what I feel so fortunate about is that I feel like the magic is always there and that kind of always exists alongside in of of the anger and the sadness and all of those other things um and so I'm really grateful for that but I understand that like it really is it is difficult to find that magic I'm somebody who's always gone to sadness like in a fight I'm going to cry um not that I fight often but just like confrontation um even like an example is like when I was a kid on the last day of school I would cry like I'm I'm always just like gone to like that emotional place and especially since my mom passed away a lot of my grief has existed in anger and so I feel like there is this like you know the holidays like Nostalgia and like there's like the whole circle of life you're always sort of dealing with this love and loss and like I've felt that as a kid you know like having loved ones who've passed before I dealt with my own parents passing that like I've always resorted to sadness and now I'm in this like state of anger um and it's really bizarre for me because I am just not an angry person um but I've sort of become one and it's kind of like it's just something I have to have to deal with so um as so this will go live after Christmas you know the holidays like they continue through the new year and all of what I'm saying like Rings true through all of that that if you're like confused by how you're feeling um that I am too and that you're not alone in that um and that truly like even though like I'm sharing my story there's so many people that share their stories with us understanding and hopefully in me saying that to you even just like generically that you know that it's not just like Sarah and Peter on the internet you know like sharing their experiences and you know saying that they they understand like no like we hear from so many people that they also understand I don't know there's just like something comforting to me in shared life experiences I just had I had a lot of that well up yesterday yesterday um at the grocery store because like so many of our Traditions are rooted in food and then like my mom's favorite song came on in Publix and like she did like she liked Madonna um and she liked disco and so like a lot of those songs like are just on playlist but it was just like wow this like of all songs this song is playing right now um and those things have just like throughout the whole season but yesterday in particular I was like as act you know like as the true holiday and we see all our loved ones like even like seeing loved ones that I had always seen with my mom like that makes me emotional because like it's so like you know you go about your everyday life like the ins and outs of work and routine and all of that but then like you go like you remember your people in your own way but then like when you're with other people who like you've only really experienced life with them or like for example like a family member of mine like his hands look just like my dad's and it's like it just like takes your breath away and so like I just feel like those types of things are like brought up more like around like the true hi Eevee um like the actual holiday or the events um and just know I'm here with you and that you know if you need like to escape in the middle of a get together send me a message and say just like send me a Christmas tree emoji and I'll know that you need a virtual hug I know it's like a Cheesy ACS tagline um but like we're as stronger together like we truly are like coming full circle you know raising money for American Cancer Society um with the brook Hearts it's just true it's just we're stronger together so we love you guys and it's good to be home we know what our goals are we know what we hope to accomplish and believe me it's the most exciting and challenging assignment we've ever tackled at Walt Disney Productions [Music] [Applause] [Music]