Mary Louise Tries to Process Losing Her Son | Big Little Lies | HBO

This looks so delicious. Thank you, Mary Louise. But we're having KFC. Well, one cannot survive on fast food every night. We don't have it every night. You know that they ban these insidious fast food institutions from some parts of San Francisco. You remember when we walked across this Golden Gate Bridge? It's red. Yeah, you're right. It is red. Oh, and Dad said he was going to swim to Alcatraz? Oh, yeah. Sharks would have eaten him, stupid. No, they wouldn't, idiot. Hey, hey, you could hurt him. What's wrong with you? I really touched him. You stuck him with a fork, Josh. That is unacceptable. For God's sake. I miss Dad. I know, baby. I know you do. We all do. We still have some recovery ahead of us. Well, they're grieving, Celeste. Their father's death is not something to be recovered from like a cold. You know, your daddy was the most amazing man. And you were so lucky to have him. And it's very unfair and wrong that he died. And you still feel angry about it, don't you? You feel angry that the other kids have their dads. You don't. You know, the other day, I was with some friends. And their sons were not a patch on your dad. Not a patch. Just, I felt so angry. Angry. You know, that they're mediocre, secondary, pudgy, balding, middle management sons. And my Perry. My Perry. I just wanted to scream. So you know what I did? What? I did scream. You want to hear? Okay. Please. What? My grief is too loud for you. Oh, Celeste. I should be more of a screamer. We should scream. We should scream and beat our breasts and tear our hair. Don't you feel angry? You don't?