Man Turned His Back with Jesus & Returns With A SHOCKING Truth About HIM! (NDE)

15 years, I had a lot of resentment towards God and I just turned my back on him and you know My faith tank was about 5% and that's how I lived life for many years and then eventually March 23rd of 2020 everything changed for me. Good morning. Good afternoon. Good evening. My name is Bobby Saroza and I was born in New Jersey. I became a police officer at a very young age and I lost my faith in Christ many years ago at the age of 21 and today I'm gonna share with you my testimony that I'm really excited about how I regained a relationship with our Lord and Savior and When I was about 21 years old I will tell you that it was Very heartbreaking for me because I lost my grandmother. My grandmother raised me she was everything to me and she was one out of nine sisters and I was I was very angry and I You know, I I cursed at God and I said to him How dare you take her away from me because my grandmother was one out of nine sisters and she was the poorest and the hard-working and And I just felt like why her and I didn't understand why and I and I just had a lot of resentment towards God and at this point I would say I officially turned my back on God and It was like that for many years. And of course as a police officer eventually, I became a detective You know, you start to see Satan's work all the time and you question a lot, you know, if God is real Why is this happening? Right and I'm and I'm talking about, you know, I've seen people robbed You know, you name it. I probably saw it and I just questioned a lot of God is real. Why is this happening and eventually In 2008 I got involved in finance and by 2010. I left the police department And I started doing business in finance and then eventually I met my wife in about 2011 and The struggle was still there my wife became a born-again Christian a couple of years later after 2011 and I Wasn't with it. I went through the process to support her as a husband but there were times where she would play Christian music in our in our business presentations and and She would talk about God and I just I put an axe down I just didn't want to hear it because I had so much anger built inside for so many years Because I lost my grandmother and she was everything to me You know after I lost my grandmother at 21, my grandfather passed about two years later I believe when I I just turned 24 actually, I turned 24 because he passed away on my birthday and That one went a lot smoother than the first one Because I knew he was gonna be in my opinion reunited with my grandmother. So that brought me peace But for many years, I would say over 15 years I had a lot of resentment towards God and I just turned my back on him and you know my faith tank was about 5% and that's how I lived life for many years and then eventually March 23rd of 2020 everything changed for me and What happened was I went to bed perfectly normal. I remember watching Netflix Tiger Joe and I went to bed perfectly normal and I woke up gasping for air and It felt like when you breathe out someone's kicking you in the chest It's like you're not able to breathe out it's like you're suffocating while you're while you're trying to breathe it's it's awkward and I remember the EMS showing up and the police department showing up and then Remember the officer saying to me if you don't get to flip up You're gonna die here and I knew it was serious. And so what I did was I put my hand out. He pulled me up I'm not an easy guy to just pull up. I'm six three about 250 pounds and The last thing I remember is just standing up and that was it and what I Realized was that I wasn't here and it was for me the first time that I died My wife fills in a lot of the gaps of my testimony She says that I continue talking and I was talking to her and I was talking to the the workers while I was gasping for Air, they were answering questions I was answering questions and the first time I officially died on this earth was going down the stairs With the EMS workers. They were carrying me down through a stair chair and she says that I Looked at her and I said to her that I was sorry and that I was tired And that's the first time my eyes rolled back About 15 minutes later. They they brought me back to life. They you know, they rushed me outside at this point There was no need to be easy with me and they started working on me They brought me back to life and then as they were about to take off to the hospital I died again my second time and when I say I say die because some people ask what do you mean? Coded flatline, right? Like I need oxygen from CPR to continue and The second time I was out for about 40 minutes and It was horrible, I mean for my wife and my children, you know being on earth but at the same time I Was not here. I was in what I call the spiritual realm and Here I am I'm floating in black space It's like just just picture this imagine you're on your back and I take the bed out of you and you're just floating there You're levitating and I'm floating in black space. I you know, I did not see the white light and all of a sudden a figure starts to fade in from the bottom right of my my foot from that angle and As it gets clear it's Jesus and I remember just thinking, you know, and again, I'm speaking as a human on earth today But I remember saying to myself like oh my god, he's real And I felt even right now just talking Just talking to you about it. You know, I I feel shame you know, it's one of those moments like I told you so and I'm so thankful that he's that forgiving and I'm still here today and You know, I am embarrassed that I didn't believe to be honest at the time and he floats around my legs and then he comes to the left side of me and then he puts his arms under me like the wedding carry and now we're Both, you know, we're levitating and I remember looking at him and Again my experience is whatever what I saw. He's about six foot one. He's not black He's not white. He's about olive Color Mediterranean And he's got a sharp pointy nose. He has a hair down to his shoulders and He's got thin lips and he's got the sharpest jawline that I've ever seen on anybody and He just looked at me and when I looked at him I just I felt this overwhelming sense of peace I felt like I'm gonna be okay and I felt love and and I'll get into more that a little bit later, but I felt love and once I felt that and he knew that I felt that he kind of gave me like like one of those like okay, I got you like and he let go and then he turned around and he went in to the darkness and It was just incredible You know, I I dream and I pray to have that moment again in my dreams and it doesn't happen but when I close my eyes that can always go back to that moment and I remember at this point then I get brought upon my feet and Now I'm floating like a ghost and I see this gentleman From you know from from far away and we started getting closer to each other and I'm like mark And he's like Bobby and you know mark had a raspy voice Mark was a friend of mine that we both became police officers through the same Academy. Eventually. I became his finance professional and Mark just always wanted to make sure that his wife and son were taken care of when if he were passed away too early And mark, unfortunately, he did pass away in 2017 from a horrific car accident and I always had a reassure mark that his family would be taken care of I would do the best I could and so when I see mark and We're talking about earth But we both know we're not on earth. All right, but we're not talking about being dead and We didn't say oh my god. What he never said to me. What are you doing here? You're not supposed to be here and I didn't never mentioned to him mark. You're dead. What am I doing here? It was just like you and I are talking right now at the supermarket. It's like life continue just somewhere else and I remember telling mark mark, you know, did you see what we did for you? And he was like, yeah, I saw everything and he was just so grateful and I said mark I told you I was gonna take care of you. I remember hitting him on the chest I was like, I told you I was gonna take care of you I promised you I was gonna do the right thing and It's just to show you you never know who you're gonna see on the other side right and It was great seeing mark and spending time with him and we just embraced each other oh, you know, we hugged each other because we haven't seen each other in a long time and Eventually what happened was he faded away. I faded away and then I woke up in an ICU my trip for me Felt like 10 minutes on Earth it was actually nine days. I actually woke up on my oldest daughter's birthday And it was just when I woke up It wasn't great. It wasn't a great experience. I woke up in ICU and the first person I see is this gentleman He's all geared up because at that time was gold Kovac. I remember he was Asian and He comes in the room and he's like, hey Robert, how you doing like nothing and At no point did I ever receive any information? Robert You know you died Your family knows everything's okay So I I'm like, where am I? You know, I start questioning. I just I remember I started doing a self-assessment of you know, and what I realized is I can't bend my left leg at the time and It was scary it was very scary and So now thoughts start going through my head like is this a reality show? Is this really happening? And I remember Coming to a point. Well, I think they're trying to kill me to take my organs, you know I think I'm on the market somewhere for my organs because and the reason why I say that is because before dying The only condition I have is multiple sclerosis and two weeks before Passing I did blood work and there was nothing found. I Went into organ kidney and or ups are organ. I went into lung failure kidney failure and heart failure and What they found was blood clots in my legs and blood clots in my heart and it turns out to be that I was born With without the factor 5 Gene, so I suffer from factor 5 lead to finish the deficiency I said that right which means I don't have the gene that keeps your blood thin and for 41 years I never had a problem and then Lord of a sudden and that morning it kicked in and So no one in the hospital ever told me it was like the I know this is Broadcasted on the other side of the world But if you ever watched The Walking Dead season 1 episode 1, that's what I felt like it was like half I remember seeing patients running in the hallways Doctors and nurses chasing after them to put him back in the room still not knowing why? until I started watching TV and then I remember seeing Colbert on the news and I was like, oh I remember Colbert and So when I did the self-assessment The only thing I know was that I had a tube in my throat and I said, okay I have a weapon of choice. The cop comes out of me. The Jersey comes out of me now in fight mode With the staff I was fighting them for about two days. I was sleep deprived I was food deprived because I would you know, here I am thinking they're trying to kill me I haven't spoken to anybody who I know. I haven't spoken to my wife yet and then finally I get to speak with my wife they put her on the phone and She's like hi, how are you, you know, hi, baby how are you and the first thing I said to her in a raspy voice because I was intubated was this is BS get me the F out of here right now and She's like no you need to stay there they have to take care of you there you died I'm like I died I'm like, oh man. She's probably in on it too. She wants the life insurance money. I'm joking, but I thought she was really in on it because No one told me what happened to me No one gave me clarity and that was the first time I hear the shocking news that actually died not only once but five times in the same day and I Remember I Continue to fight the staff and I don't mean physically get up and fight them but just like don't touch me you know, I was being nasty the whole time and After about two days this gentleman walks in and He's wearing lime-green scrubs and you know, I've done podcasts before and I've learned what lime-green means it and he comes in with these scrubs and He walks over to me and he goes to touch me And he actually does touch my left wrist my left. Yeah my left wrist and he goes. Hello my son and I was like, who are you? Like get off of me Because I didn't let anybody touch me because I again this is the process of thinking when I was in the hospital and he go and he said Your wife sent me And I said why and he told me your wife sent me I've been praying for you and I said well, why are you praying for me? Because here I am seeing a stranger. I'm like, why are you praying for me? Not knowing that my wife every day at 7 in the evening Eastern Time is outside with on social media live Praying with people all over the world for me. I didn't know that and he said I'm a prayer warrior and your wife sent to pray for you and I never heard that before the only person I've ever heard say that Is my wife the word prayer warrior warrior prayer where what are you going? Right and it just I I felt that sense of peace again like I felt when I was with Jesus once those words came out and at this point I Just I gave in I surrendered I said fine you know and remember him saying there but the reason why I'm there was to pray for him, but also that I would accept medical treatment and I Surrendered to it. I said fine, you know, I took a gasp of air It's one of those moments and and that's when I gave in and I surrendered to being treated by the staff and not be combative and argumentative and He touched me again and just as I'm saying sharing this with you, I'm just reliving the moment and he said I'll see you again my son and he turned away and he walked out and At that time then I accepted treatment. I was willing to be treated and I started getting better started eating, you know, I started sleeping the whole night and So now about two weeks later, I'm coherent on what happened to me I Understand that I did flatline five times That's why I was in the hospital. I understand the whole thing and and I tell my wife the story of this gentleman who comes in his name by the way was Kendrick and She's like, okay. All right, you know and she kind of just okay's it But then she not knowing she does research to find out who is Kendrick she calls the hospital staff She became friends with them It turns out also. I was the only person on the entire floor without Covid and so she was always checking in and she would buy the staff food, you know You take care of those who take care of you, right? we live to serve and I remember the HR person Responded to her and There was no Kendrick it doesn't exist and For those of you that been in ICU, you know there's a sign in and a sign out and everything's documented in these sections and so long story short, you know, I believe Kendrick was Jesus in the flesh or my angel either or it doesn't matter Thanks to Kendrick and the power of Christ and Intervention I was willing to be treated and taken care of and that's why I can have this share the story with you No, I will share with you when I did arrive to the hospital and this is what my wife What's what tells me? I arrived at the hospital dead and I knew that because I Visited the first responders who saved me and because I had current questions and as a first responder myself, you never get closure So I made sure that I visited the first responders just to thank them and it's like why why why didn't you give up? I Heard you were working at me for 40 minutes one time. They're like because you were just talking to us. You were perfectly fine So I at the hospital They would let my wife in like for five minutes every hour Because it was Colvin and in New Jersey you couldn't visit anybody But because she's has an EMS background and she was friends with some of the staff members They did the courtesy and let her in for five minutes like every hour. So she comes in the room I remember and she's she gets in my ears. She says and she's like, you know, don't you and she's cursing Don't you dare die on me? I'm not gonna be a young widow You know you got a fight and and what happens is and I always say this as a joke and by the way, I bring humor to My testimony because it keeps me sane So don't get offended if I if I do and she kills me she kills and I flatline again, and Then now after that They started working on me she's outside on the phone with her our spiritual mentor And The nurse comes out And the nurse says to her We don't know what's wrong with him. We're trying everything we can We're gonna let you go in We're gonna let you go in one more time so you can say your buys and Then so the spiritual mentor. His name is Greg cap He says to her don't you dare listen to her? He's yelling this. I'm just being calm about it Don't you dare listen to her? That is the adversary? trying to get You go in there and you speak life into him so she comes in and she starts praying and She starts praying yelling in her prayer And she's there next to me with her eyes closed And when she opens up her eyes the staff can hear you is around my bed in prayer with her So it turns out to be I came back to life My wife is exiting the room They put her somewhere else they put me to ICU and I Think that prayer is the reason why I'm still here. I think that message from from from Papa cap Helping my wife is why I'm still here, you know people say that I'm a miracle I Don't think so. I was With Jesus I was in a place which I'm gonna describe here in a few The miracle is is the people who brought me back to life The miracle is my wife being able to know what to do at the right time at the right place in order to Still have me here today the miracle are my kids who didn't know what dad was coming home you know their strength their their Resentment perseverance of I'm sorry not resentment their perseverance of fighting That entire time while I was in the hospital not knowing Because again, it was it was Colbert and you couldn't visit And I think those people are the miracle not me Yeah, I always say that my wife doesn't like hearing that but it's I believe it's the truth. So What I want to do is I want to describe to you What it is? To be on the other side number one again disclaimer. This is my experience my belief number one. I don't think we die I think we pass and There is another life after the other life However, it's in a different realm and that's what I call the spiritual realm having things like that I never reached heaven. I was between here and heaven and When we go to this place when we pass We lose five emotions. We lose worry We lose doubt we lose fear. We lose pain and we lose suffering However, we do gain some other emotions that are to another level We gain tranquility We gain peace and most importantly We gain love I'm not talking about the love you feel on earth I'm not talking about the love when you have your first child or when you get married I cannot describe to you the love you feel in this place There's no getting away from it. It's in you. It's through you. It's through your veins There is you can't get away from this love. It's non it's non-stop and it's like love times quadrillion and it's Overwhelming and it just feels so Beautiful and it's so peaceful and it's like you want more of it that I remember telling my wife After I woke up two three weeks later that hey, I don't mind dying again because that love that I felt that peace that I felt I Don't feel it on earth but I know that it's over there and that's why I wanted to go back and I've done research and I've learned that people that Had nothing to live for Kind of come back from their near-death experience and are miserable you know in my case, I did have something to live for I had a wife and have three children and I had to be back for them. And but I understand one what those individuals mean. Well, they're miserable because That love and that peace we feel is unbelievable Unbelievable so we lose those five emotions we gain others and Here's my advice how I live life today I'm still human. I just want to be very clear But number one don't sweat the small stuff it's not worth it don't put your energy in it It's not worth it number two If there's someone in your life That you have not amended That relationship with Go forgive them And the reason why I share that with you is because you don't know when the clock is over That's number one and number two. I had the ability to come back and amend relationships the first Relationships. I meant it was my mother my father and my my stepfather. I never I didn't have a great relationship It doesn't mean that they're gonna change but I want to make sure that the next time I go My closet it is clean. There's no hanging clothes, you know, and and I can go and there's no regret on my side and on theirs Right. So if you haven't amended a relationship just just go forgive them forgiveness is not for them It's really for you. So you feel the weight being lifted off your shoulders Number three, I will tell you that when your loved ones if you're a parent your children your spouse You know when your loved ones whoever that loved one is for you when they want to spend time with you Drop whatever you're doing Your job is not that important There's nothing more important than having time with your loved ones. I used to be a workaholic before No, not now. Daddy's busy. Daddy's doing this dad. No, no, not right That was me now if I'm on a zoom meeting and my kids want to interrupt me Interrupt me because again You just don't know when the clock is over and you don't you know, if I would have never came back My son would have known me for who I was but my son was five years old What's he gonna say about dad? Oh He was tall and he was funny, right? He's five years old So you wanted to make sure you had those experiences with the people you love because again you did you just don't know when it's your time to go so then that's why I say nothing's more important than that and The last thing I will share with you is life gets a lot easier When you understand that you're not in control when you give up and you surrender to Jesus and you understand that God is in control and Things don't happen for you. They weren't supposed to You know, I personally believe you can control your effort but you can't control the outcome and Once the quicker you learn that and again, I know it's hard. It's difficult Because we're humans right and we have the will to choose right? But the quicker we understand that and embrace that the easier life gets Doors have been closed for me and others have been open if you seek the door right Life is not gonna go everything plan as we plan But there's always another opportunity as long as you seek it Right, and that's how life works when one door closes, I'm like Alright that didn't work out you know like I'll give you an example right now. I do a lot of prayer on wisdom teach me to be patient Right. I was very impatient before so I always pray for wisdom and one of the things I pray for is You know being a better husband being a better father to my children, but patience right and holding my tongue Right not saying the wrong thing You know, you better be careful what you pray for because it's every day I'm always being tested, but every day I overcome that test. I'm growing Right, so it's the same thing when one door closes if you seek another one. There's an opportunity there That's part of your growth That's understanding that you're not in control that God's in control and you're looking for another better Opportunity because you weren't supposed to open the first door and the last thing I'll share with you of God is real Today You can't question it Mike would how stubborn I was how Resentful I wasn't angry After just being there and seeing Jesus and feeling that love and feeling that peace You cannot tell me he's not You could that's your belief and I respect that But for me, you will never be able to change my mind Because I know he's real Seeing is believing it. Well, it was for me, right? So that was that's my story and You know, I do hope that after listening to my testimony here that you go back into the Bible you go rescripture and You follow Jesus not Jesus wants a relationship with you and You know every day is not easy and I know that But every day I turn to prayer when it's not easy every day I turn to scripture when it's not easy and every day I seek and ask and sometimes knock For what I need and Jesus delivers. He may not deliver on your time, but he will deliver