Rachel's Monologue from The White Lotus Season 1

I think I made a mistake. The mistake is getting married to you. You know Shane, when I first met you, I was in a weird place. I had my bad breakup. Work was so frustrating. You came along and you're handsome. I was so attracted to you. You had so much going on. Going around the city with you was like a fantasy. All the doors opened and you asked me to marry you. I admit, when I was little, I had princess dolls. I was a girly girl. I dreamt of my wedding and Prince Charming and all that shit. Then I just got so caught up in the wedding. That was the last five months, basically. Everyone, you know, I could tell. They thought I was so lucky. That made me feel good. In the dumbest way. Because now I'm here. I realize I don't want to be a plus one my whole life.