Belly & Conrad - I Will Never Not Love You (TSITP 3x08)

****, I still love you! Can we just forget that it ever happened? I was drunk off my ass. I don't think I'll ever get you out of my system. I'm really sorry. You will always be there, here. You weren't drunk. Yeah, I was. I fucked up four years ago. You haven't changed at all. You bring all this up the weekend of my wedding. Remember that night in the motel? When I told you that I still wanted you? I couldn't sleep that night. And now you just want me to forget it? What are you saying, that you don't want to forget? I loved you. I know, I did. Don't you understand that you can't play with people like that? Belly, wait. Don't, don't say my name. Don't even think it. But I knew that if I kept you with me... I would hurt you, and so... Don't ever speak to me again. Come on, Belly, that's gonna be a little hard considering you're marrying my brother. I couldn't have that. I knew it. I'm marrying your ******* brother and what am I supposed to say to him now? I tried to let you go. I want you to leave. I want you to make up one of your bullshit excuses. And I want you to go. But then this summer... Being around you again... Just get out of here. I'm not leaving, Belly. Go. Talking the way that we used to and you looking at me the way that you used to. Just go, go. What did you expect me to say, Belly? I just, I see you again and all my plans go to ----. Stop saying my name. What do you want from me? When I see the two guys together, I ******* hate him. I laid myself ******* bare last night. I put it all out there and you shut me down. Don't be with him. Don't marry him. Be with me. And now here I am, trying to let you off the hook, trying to come out of this with a little piece of pride and you won't let me have that. You broke my heart last night, Belly. Is that what you want to hear? You really are heartless. I think it's you who's heartless. What is that supposed to mean? Tell me what you mean by that. You know what I mean by that. I love you. I will never not love you. I think you know that. I think you've known all along. And Conrad, you're loyal as hell. That's not true. Yes, it is. We dated for a couple months when I was in high school. I really respect that. Brothers to the end. And I'm somehow supposed to know that you're still not over that after all these years? It hasn't been years since Christmas. Christmas? What about it? What about the day we went to Michael's? And when I cut my leg surfing? Nothing. How are you doing with all of this? It's killing me. Have it your way. I'm not pretending for you anymore. I know you love her a lot. This must be really hard. My heart's pounding a million trillion times a minute. I've never felt more alive. You'll get through it, I promise. And I'm here for you. Anger, sadness, joy. He makes me feel all of it. But I am always, always here for you. No one else has that effect on me. No one. Last night, Conrad told me he still has feelings for me. That he still loves me. He did what? Suddenly, I have this feeling. This absolute certainty. That I will never be able to completely let him go. I know he's been in love with you this whole summer, even longer. When Conrad Fisher told a girl he loved her, he meant it. Belly's waiting for you. Don't keep her waiting on her wedding. Shut the **** up and don't talk to me about her. A girl could believe in that. A girl could maybe bet her whole life on it. So maybe I should be the one asking you if you love her or not. That's what I'd be doing. I'd be betting my whole life on him. What happened to your face? Nothing I didn't deserve. You can't be in here. I know. I need to say something to you. Just go. I'm sorry for screwing everything up. I hurt you. And for that, I'm so sorry. Even now, you can't stop thinking about him, can you? I need you to know that whatever happens, it was worth it to me. I need you to look at me. Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't still love him. Being with you, loving you, it was all worth it. Jeremiah, I love you. That's not what I asked. A part of me always believed that we would find our way back to each other. That no matter what, we would be connected by our history, by the summer house. But this time, it felt final. Like I would never see him again. It was Conrad. Shut up. I've always prided myself on how I remember every little detail. So it scares me to think I got this one wrong. Your life could go in one of two directions. Do or die. They don't get much bigger than this. Yes. Can I please have, um, a ticket for the 1020 to Paris? Yes, of course. Or that when I did, it would be different. There would be a mountain between us. So, bye-bye, birdie. When I was little, I used to think that Conrad would appear out of thin air if I was thinking about him. I didn't know if it was fate or a coincidence. I just knew he was always there when I needed him. Conrad was always looking out for me. Maybe after all this time, he still is. I loved him in a way that you can only really do the first time around. Completely. With every bit of your being. Without even leaving anything for yourself. You should have everything that you've ever pictured. I only ever pictured Conrad.