Not Invited to My Moms Funeral. Living Life as a Lone Wolf “ Sad Story”

Oh yeah she's chilly out there but beautiful though. Looks like we're gonna have another nice day. It's nine o'clock. I don't get out of bed at nine o'clock that's not that's not something I ever do. I've been out of bed at seven in the morning like if I really sleep in but today I just I woke up at four o'clock because that's normally what time I get up and edit and I'm like oh heck no went back to bed and then Emily texts me good morning and then I went back to bed and then 7 30 came around I tried to get up heck no curled back up now it's now it's after nine o'clock and I don't I think this morning's video is gonna be gonna be a very simple one. I have a few stories that I want to share with you guys some good and some bad um just some stuff that's been going on in my life right now that we haven't had the chance to sit down and talk about so this morning I'm going to keep it really simple maybe we'll go light a fire and share a few stories with you guys this morning but uh I need to I need to get up first give me a minute okay okay you ever get days like that where you should just stay in bed I forgot to clean this last time I used it oh gross I don't think about the french press man it's uh it's messy oh I spilled it all over here maybe I should have stayed in bed today and sometimes if I just need running water I just let it run out of the van it's like that and it runs oh you guys can't even see boy I'm on a roll today see when you're in that water it runs right off that lip and no it's not resting there yeah oh seriously let me make some warm I I want your life buddy yeah just to sleep all day just all day get up and then the then the servant this guy here makes you breakfast he picks up your poop for you come on y'all spoiled little bugger it's 20 degrees inside my van nice and warm I am thinking that I should have made this coffee at four o'clock maybe I would have gotten up and got a video edit this morning let's tell you guys some personal stories gossip and drama um if you've been around my channel since the very beginning and I know it's insane but there is some of you out there that have been watching me since day one and I haven't brought this subject up because it just hasn't been in my life but I have a son named Seth that me and him stopped seeing each other I think he was around nine years old because of a completely vile brutal mother of a situation so Seth got left behind in all of that ruckus and me and Seth had the chance to talk once I think he was 16 or 18 years old or something like that we had a chance to talk once and I told him straight up about that situation I never held back I never you know tried to band-aid it up for him I kind of told it to him honest and I don't think he liked what I said to him so we haven't spoken at all and I told him in that conversation that when he's ready he can call me you know what I mean when he's ready to understand and and uh well turns out he's been watching my channel Seth is in his 20s now and uh turns out he's been watching my channel his girlfriend reached out to me in an email and said hey I've been watching your channel every single upload for the past year with your son Seth I was like what I guess it's a ritual that they do they sat down and they just watched my videos together and um they sent me an email with a Timmy's a Timmy's gift card to buy me some coffees and uh she gave me Seth's cell phone number so I gave uh the kid a text and uh yeah all's behind us is behind us and uh we've been texting back and forth having some good conversations and I'm super stoked to have that kid uh back in my back in my world so um because I was a DJ my whole life most of the children that I have are one night stands it is to be truth it's a truthful um Seth's mom was like a one week stand um but um including my daughter Danica wasn't there when she was younger I met her when she was six and uh now with Seth the same thing too I think I met Seth when he was five me and Seth hung out between the ages of five and nine and then that was the end of that situation but I'm pretty stoked that the kids back uh back in my world and we're chatting back and forth together which is great and um we are uh we're gonna see each other uh he's coming out here next week um he lives uh in northern BC um he's gonna be down in the Vancouver area next week for one day so I'm gonna scoot out there next week and we're gonna go out for a bite to eat while he's got a little bit of time and uh just chat and catch up I'm just I'm just excited to shake the kid's hand give the kid a hug and and put all this stuff behind us behind us and um I love that so that's some really really really good news I've never hidden anything about me on YouTube never once I throw my entire life out there for you guys and that's what keeps me real here keeps me grounded within my channel because I have nothing to hide and I brought all of this stuff up in my early days of YouTube and I've honestly just never felt the need to keep reminding people um about my stuff in my world like that unless it was in my world now so that's why you guys see Danica all the time because she's in my world now and now you guys will get a chance to meet Seth pretty soon um because he's in my world now so which is which is quite beautiful and uh Cruzy gets to meet Seth for the first time buddy please please don't hump him bro Seth yeah Seth if you're watching this which you probably are uh he's probably gonna hump you just so you know that's Cruzy's little thing and for the longest time he never did like I chopped his you know what's away and he humped for a while and then he stopped and now he's back on it like every time someone roams in the shop hey man how you doing allows you to pet him for two or three minutes and then bada boom he's on that leg Cruzy little bugger but anyway my next story is not as not as positive it's uh it's just the next story is just sad is I just can't believe it happened to me it has happened yesterday and I was just like what the just stunned it's a family situation and I can't anyway let's uh let's tidy up in the van here a little bit go out and make a fire and let me share this other psychotic story just when you think my life is just simple and easy drama rolls in not you Seth just I can't believe it I was just stunned yesterday all you can do is laugh about it what are you gonna do about it you gonna be mad anyway you guys are like shut up Carl tell me give me a second okay I need to I need to be tactful on how I throw this out there in the internet um because there's a lot of fine words that I love to use when I tell you this next story I gotta be tactful let's for breakfast Cruzy install one of these what do we got turkey salmon and lamb for those of you wondering this ice go fridge has been awesome to me the replacement when I had one that broke that thing has been a total rock star all right that's all Cruzy's food you want to come he's like not really dad can you shut some of these doors he's like I was warm dad and then you opened up all the doors dad it's a great spot up here look how cold it is look at hey I love it when the earth does that it's pretty cool right it just pushes it up yeah that's awesome home sweet home there Starlink up there on the roof nobody around us except for the woodpecker down there I keep hearing I don't know if you guys can hear them but hearing all the birds out here man makes me excited for warmer weather coming soon all right get down without hurting your ankle buddy so update on my foot the one that I badly sprained that I was in one of those little cast boots for six weeks or so it's feeling better it's not healed I still know when I'm in those scenarios like when I'm pushing up on something like a step you can still feel it and that was what three more months ago and my foot's still not at a hundred percent yet good calls going so we can get a fire ripping this next story just kind of reminds me why I've been rolling solo my whole life you know why I've never never put my trust into into others and I've just always focused inwards and made sure that I was good all right you know instead of telling you the back story I'm just gonna rip the band-aid off and just drop the bomb are you guys ready my mom passed away two years ago and I did film some of that here on my channel but two years ago my family had a memorial and a funeral for my mom I am my mom's only son the only son and they didn't invite me they didn't even tell me that they were having a funeral and a memorial for my mom and I found out yesterday sure I may not have been the most son that was there like every week all the time having family dinners mind you me and my mom were never like that we've always been just time apart like it's been that's just the way we've always been since I was a little kid you know it's just I've been rolling solo since I was young and as I got older it wasn't that thing I did every week sure maybe I should have seen my mom more often but I don't think anything in this world that I could have done deserved me not being invited to my family putting together a funeral and a memorial who doesn't even tell the son my family didn't tell me at all this is insane right come on man it's my mom so here's the little bit of a back story how I got to this text message I got from from my aunt the other day after my mom passed I had all my mom's banking information my mom told me that she didn't have a will so I went down to the banks and hoping that you know because the dollar value wasn't like a hundred grand or anything like that that the banks would just end up releasing the money so I took my mom's death certificate and everything else down there because I did all that stuff during my mom's passing and yeah the best so long so short the couldn't get the money out of the bank so then I had to go to the courts to apply for whatever it was called I don't understand that stuff that stuff is really confusing for me so I hired a lawyer to help me out the lawyer found a will that was written by my mom back in the 80s and I know when my mom was passing she didn't remember that will because she told me she didn't have one but that was written a very long time ago I was just a little little kid and so on that will was one of my aunt's names so I messaged my aunt and like hey look can you fulfill my mom's will so this money can go to wherever she wanted it to go my aunt and and there was an my aunt mom's my mom had a boyfriend's name on the will as well so in order for my aunt to do her side we had to find that boyfriend from like the 80s so my aunt literally told me I don't got time for this ---- you do it you're not working she told me I wasn't working like all these videos just pop out of my butthole you know I mean like a lot not working is insane and uh so I did my side I I went and helped out with that with finding her ex-boyfriend and stuff like that which took me a ton of time and and uh then I messaged my aunt said hey here we go we found him and uh she has not done anything and then over a bit of a bitter conversation between me and her the other day my aunt says well you gonna pay back the other aunt that paid for your mom's funeral I'm like what you guys had a funeral for my mom and then she's like yeah you're gonna pay her back for the memorial what you guys had a memorial for her too nobody told me about any of this stuff how insane is that to be the only son of a mom and not be invited invited by the family to the damn funeral this my friends is why I have told you guys many many many many many times on this channel that focus on you first focus in here so this when you ride ride solo you ride strong you ride confident because at the end of every day this is what you have this nobody else you can't count on all of those people at the end of your time to be there for you at the end you need to know that this heart is taken care of this heart was loved by you and you only your whole entire life if anybody else wants to love it beautiful thing bring bring them on but you need to take care of this first like this just reminded me like no matter whether you're talk with family or not family's supposed to be family isn't that what the whole thing is you know family should have your back whether you're active in the family or not active you know that's what family is apparently not apparently my family doesn't even invite me to my mom's own funeral what the heck did I do in my life besides work my face off like there were times I was DJing four or five nights a week plus working full-time during the day I was busy and any extra time that I had I was sleeping to get ready to go back to work so sure I may not have been the most active person in the family I was actually a horrible family member but that doesn't mean that when you know your own mom dies that that her sisters don't invite me to the funeral like who does that who doesn't sit around and look around and go like so where's the son not anybody there go oh yeah we forgot to invite him oh my gosh can you believe that happened that's insane I don't know what to say to that like that makes me happy that I took care of me my whole life that I didn't lean on people that I took care of myself that my whole life I made sure that my own person was taken care of by myself that I was self-reliant within me I worked hard and I devoted my world to make sure that my heart was strong within me without needing others needing family needing friends needing any kind of support that I rode solo I rode life hard and I rode it solo I mean I made a ton of mistakes in my life you guys my past is riddled full of stupid mistakes like I did drugs hard for six years and partied a ton and made a ton of relationship mistakes that was a horrible douchebag during a big chunk of my life and yes I took a lot of people down with me during that time but at the end of it I became who I am today but I am who I am today because I rode solo because I devoted my life to me to make sure that I was taken care of and that's what brings me right here today in front of you guys now that I feel like I've been beaten up torn up and survived that crazy past of a life that I have built myself back up bigger better stronger I can stand here for once in my life and be able to give truthful advice be able to give advice from life experiences from me to you and I know there's a lot of people out there that struggle with family things and struggle with you know like oh my my my mom says I shouldn't start van life or my my family says I shouldn't do this do what you want to do at the end of the day take my experience families I'm not sure I honestly have no real opinion I just know that it's nuts that they didn't invite me to my own mom's own funeral you know I don't got any anger any hatred or anything like that towards towards this stuff because I got better things to do with my time but it's insane and just literally reassured me why I rode solo my whole life because even in a moment like this when I feel like family should have embraced everything for my mom that this was hugely disrespectful hugely and then now my aunt doesn't want to fulfill her side of my mom's will because she didn't have time I just want that money to go somewhere I don't care if in that will it says it goes to all my mom's sisters and nothing goes to me I don't care about that part of it I just want to see that the little bit of money that my mom had in the bank that made her happy at the end because she didn't have to worry about money worry about buying groceries because I lent my mom a ton a ton of money over the last 10 years because she didn't have money for either cigarettes or food because she spent the money on cigarettes or whatever the heck it was that I kind of just gave her money I don't care about the money part but at the end one of her ex-boyfriends that passed away set her up okay and then she didn't have to worry about groceries and stuff and I don't want to see that little piece of money that made the ending part of her life a little bit more calming a little bit more relaxing better for her I don't want to see that stuff go to waste and I have no control right now so right now my lawyers are pushing my aunt to fulfill her side and if my aunt doesn't fulfill her side the next step for me is to have my aunt served with papers and then she'll be forced to fulfill the will or sign off and let me fulfill my mom's wishes but yeah guys I just wanted to share this with you guys today because you know that keeps this thing real on my channel and if I don't share every part of my van life journey and whatever's going on with me with you guys then I stop becoming relatable you know if I'm just sharing all this backcountry beauty stuff with you and you guys think it's all like butterflies and rainbows it's not real at that point you know I stopped I start becoming like a little character on YouTube versus being a real human being you know and since the birth of my channel I have uh I have shared it all and uh guys I can't believe this is insane come on cruzie come on outside buddy come on come hang out with dad come on buddy will you come outside it's like no thanks dad it's cold out there I really appreciate you guys being here you know I always take moments like this and call this camera therapy it is amazing for me to be able to hold you guys right here in front of me in my hand and and share stories with you and just talk with you and I've worked out so many personal things on my channel by just talking with you guys and it is so beautiful to just kind of take what's in here and put it out there you guys are my crew I love you guys like crazy I think about you every single day I work hard out here to try to make some beautiful videos for you guys and uh yeah that's why I feel so comfortable with sharing the personal things that go on with me with you guys and I know a lot of people out there on YouTube they're just like they don't share that personal they keep it in the closet they hide it from YouTube that's not me this is my life channel it's a lifestyle channel I gotta share me with you sure if there was something that I didn't you know like personal like maybe I had a ward on my foot I wouldn't share that with you I don't know why that was my go-to but when it comes to stuff what's that I'm making sure we're not getting creeped on by a bear I heard something in the bush over there I don't see anything we're in cougar country too lots of cougars out here anyway guys thanks for watching today's video and hearing hearing my stories I really appreciate you guys riding along with me every single day but uh we're gonna let you guys go for right now thanks for watching you guys and thanks for being okay guys uh you guys and my fire well I've really not been around for it walking around camp talking with you guys this firewood's super dry put some sticks on there oh