Mikhail Bennett Rose Bennett Emotional Father Daughter Duet Did You Love My Brother More

Did you love him more? Or did it only feel that way? Was it harder to hold on to after? I used to watch you talk to Charlie Like the whole room disappeared You'd laugh at things I didn't understand While I sat quiet over here Maybe it was all in my head Maybe I was just too young But somehow I always felt like I came second to your son And I hate that I still wonder Even now that I'm grown Did you love him? Or did it only feel that way? Was it harder to hold on to After mama went away? I know he carried so much burden I know he needed you too But somewhere deep inside me I wanted that love too If only I had seen your silence The tears you learned to hide I would have held you just as tightly Instead of keeping it inside Oh my sweet little girl There's something you should know I never loved him more Not for one single day You were both a breath inside me Just in different kinds of pain He was drowning where I could see it Yours was hidden deep inside I reached for the child who was falling While never meaning to pass you by He became more than just my brother Trying to say what fell apart And maybe you saw yourself inside him While I was breaking in the dark I don't blame you for the hurting Or the man grief turned you into But little girls remember silence And I still remember you Maybe love just looked different Maybe pain made you blind Maybe fathers don't always notice The daughters left behind Did you love him? Or was I too scared to ask? Maybe both of us were broken Trying to outrun the past And I know now you loved us both Just the best way you knew how to But little girls still ache sometimes For the love they needed to And I forgive your father You were never second And I loved you both the same Your mama's picture's still on the wall Right where she used to pray The house went quiet when she was gone And I just drifted away Not out the door, not down the road But somewhere I couldn't see You were sitting right beside me But you weren't there for me I kept waiting for you to notice That I was breaking too You were there, but not for me You were crying, I never broke through You didn't need me perfect You just needed me to be true And your whole world fell apart Please, you were there, but not for me I did in your smile And I let that fool my eyes Every time you needed saving I just passed you by And I see you now in strangers' arms Looking for what I never gave But every time they walked away It felt like losing you And I kept hoping you would turn around And finally see me I was there, but not for me A ghost inside my memory I didn't need your money I just needed you to see That I was just a little girl Begging on her knees You were there, but not for me And I don't have, but never hold your hand Maybe you were broken Maybe you were lost too But I was just a child Still reaching for you You were there, but not for me And that's the hardest memory Not that you ever left me But you never chose to be And I'm still learning how to love Without that emptiness in me From the man who stayed But wasn't there for me You were there But I needed you And finally Don't leave us in silence Mama I still hear your footsteps in the hall at night Even though I know you're gone I still turn around when someone says my name Like somehow you'll call me home Your sweater still hangs beside the doorway Like you're coming back someday But the house feels colder without your voice And nothing feels the same They told me time will make it easier But time just makes me miss you more So I kept your voice alive Inside every song I sing Every note is just a piece of you Still holding on to me If I close my eyes I swear I hear you breathe So I'll never let you fade I kept your voice alive In me I tried to be stronger after you left Like somehow I had to survive Tried to protect what was left of this home When everything broke inside Sometimes I still hear you whisper softly Son, everything's alright So I keep your memory close to my heart Every single night People say the pain gets smaller with time But I still need you here So we kept your voice alive Inside every word Every broken melody Keeps you by our side If love don't end Then you're still in our lives So we'll never say goodbye We kept your voice alive I still see you dancing in the kitchen light Before the sickness stole your smile God knows I would've traded all I had Just to keep you here a while And watching our children cry without you Was the hardest thing to bear But I tell them your mama never left Her love is everywhere And heaven may have called your name before us But your love still fills this home If I stop singing If I stop remembering Do I let her know she lives inside us? In every prayer Every tear Every song So we kept your voice alive Inside every song we sing Every scar and every wound We need you still with me If love don't end Then you're still in our lives So we'll never say goodbye Mama I still need you Still hear your voice My love Until we meet again We kept your voice alive