Autistic Children Experience Pain Differently #autism #spiritualwhistleblower

I have a question to all of my adults who are late diagnosed with either ADHD, autism. Again, I'm newly diagnosed with autism. I have Asperger's. You know, what I'm learning as a late diagnosed individual with autism is that you have to grieve the old you, the old version of you, if that makes sense. um and it's like you have to relive your childhood or you have to revisit it and pick it apart dissect it and connect all the dots related to your autistic traits and make sense of everything that's what it's been for me but i i want to ask those of you those of you especially who are autistic when you found out you were autistic you're you know late diagnosed um something just freaked me out about my childhood when i was a little girl um i remember my pediatrician she was a tiny asian woman her name was Dr. Barry i believe she was uh her office was out in hamilton new jersey and my memories of Dr. Barry you know she was sweet you know very quiet you know tiny petite Asian woman but very nice you know I remember when my mother would take me and my siblings to get our immunization shots and um my reaction alone before they even would give me the shot it was my reaction to finding out not even finding out like when we went to go see Dr. Barry it was just a frightening experience for me as a child being in her office knowing I would have to get my booster or immunization shots it sent me spiraling okay I don't remember the ages uh when you your children supposed to get immunization shots I know I want to say five six years old even 10 but I do remember being under the age of 10 in her office and the idea that I was about to get a shot an injection sent me ******* spiraling let me tell you something I would scream punch kick when I say scream when I say scream everybody in the whole entire building could hear my mouth screaming like somebody was you know drawing blood but taking something and shanking me screaming like I was running from Jason or Michael Myers like the whole building heard me screaming screeching and one of my core memories as a child going to get my immunization shots at Dr. Barry's office was Dr. Barry my mother i don't remember i think my dad might have came to a couple of the visits i don't remember my dad being there he could have been but i also remember they had to go get total strangers i remember them having to get two adults or i do remember there was this very big man this very tall man big guy it might have been him and my dad or him in another person. It took a couple of adults to pin me down. I'm small child now, y'all. Little girl, little girl took a couple of adults to pin me down so that I could get my shot. I mean, it was the most terrifying, frightening experience. And I could see my mother was embarrassed because I'm the oldest out of my brother and sister. I'm the eldest. And you would think, you know, it's expected of me to handle the shot like a big girl compared to my siblings. they're younger than me no it sent me it was a horrifying experience now listen children cry okay it is not uncommon to take your child to to the pediatrician I have a child you know my daughter's grown now but all the times I took her to the pediatrician and she had to get a shot but she was very good about the shot you know she cried a little bit it was done boo boo over nothing like me when it came to me getting my shot as a little girl i did not act like the average child getting a shot my ---- was on another level dr abary my pediatrician hated to see me coming because me going to her office meant one thing we're gonna have to call a couple of adults to come pin this little girl down to get her shot she's not gonna she's not gonna let us take the shot grown man i remember this white man they had to go get this white man big old man like he like I remember him being a large build, big guy, having to pin me down to give me a shot. So this is where I'm going with this, y'all. The reason why I behaved the way that I did when it came to getting that shot is my autism. I've been doing so much since I've learned, you know, recently that I've been diagnosed clinically with autism. I it has it has put me in this space of oh my god now I understand why I behaved this way and that way and why I did this in my childhood and why I did that and why everything is connecting okay but it's ******* me up like it's a whole nother grieving process it's a whole nother Yo, I need therapy just off of learning about my newly diagnosed autism because so much is making sense now why I did and behaved and said and did certain things I could not tolerate. I, you know, when I did my research on children with autism, having sensory issues, you know, one of that being, you know, um, how autistic children respond to getting injections, their level of pain intensifies. It's different than that of a child who does not have autism. Autistic children experience pain differently because we don't, you know, of, of, of being touched the sensation of touching our skin, things touching us. And then that very said thing that touches us is causing us pain. And then that pain is magnified. It's a horrible experience for an autistic child. I'm just ******* blown away. I am blown away. The stuff that I keep discovering and learning about myself, but it also puts me in this space of sadness, y'all. I'm just going through it. I'm going through it. I was not the average child getting a shot. all children cry children are scared to get their shots like I said I have a child I've been there through everything with her she was you know she did all her shots really well but looking back at my childhood there was nothing ordinary about me when it came to me getting my immunizations I tore that doctor's office up I tore my pediatrician's office up she hated to see me coming because it meant we have to call in other nurses other other people from the waiting room to come and hold pin me down to get my shot because i'm fighting i'm i'm screaming i'm kicking and i have to be restrained by adults it's my autism y'all let me know what you think because it can't just be me i know i'm not sitting here tripping i'm just connecting the dots y'all i hope this video help somebody. If you have not been tested for autism and you suspect that you have, if you know your family, your mother and father have said things in your childhood to allude that you may have a learning disability or anything, but they didn't get you evaluated, go, go save up your money, go get tested. Okay. Because if your parents were narcissistic, like mine, they're very prideful. They want to have, you know, the perfect appearance of a family. They don't want nobody thinking there's something wrong with their children so they'll let their children suffer instead of getting their children evaluated because they don't want their child labeled what ends up happening you go through life suffering any goddamn way all the symptoms and ---- so much ---- lots of bullying people bully disabled children people bully autistic children you will go through a lot because your parents failed you go get tested for ADHD autism start being self-aware handle your business your parents failed you but you don't have to fail yourself Thank you.