Your Mother Made a Choice to Abuse You, Now it’s Your Turn to Make a Choice… #narcissist

Your mother made a choice. Now it's time for you to make yours. What do I mean by choice? Well, let's go over your mother's choices before we discuss your choice, okay? Let me give you some examples of how your mama chose what she chose and how it affected your life negatively. Let's see, your mother never really wanted to be a mother, even though she chose to bring you into this world. She wanted to trap your daddy. She's super performative. She's a narcissist. So she wanted to have a family for image and reputation. But behind closed doors, she hated being a ******* mother. So that's the first choice. She chose to bring you into this world knowing she didn't have any love, no nurturing inside of her. You know, she had no business being a mother. See, empathy and love comes naturally when it's between a mother and child and she was not loving towards you. She just didn't have it in her, but she chose selfishly to bring a child into this world simply to, you know, put on an image. She wanted to look important to her community, to her family, keep up with appearances and the trends. But lowkey hated being a ******* mother. That's choice number one. Let's see, choice number two is choosing a nigga over her child. A very abusive, toxic nigga. Let's go there. Whether that toxic nigga is your actual daddy, whether it's a stepfather, whether it's a trifling boyfriend. Hell, it could be one of the men in the family, your uncles. Whoever that male was, he did something to you. And your mama knew about it, and she looked the other way. She didn't defend you from this nigga. She didn't protect you from this nigga. Matter of fact, she protected him. She protected him and defended him, knowing he abused you, knowing he molested you, whether he beat your ******* ass, whether he climbed into your bed at night and touched on you, took advantage of your innocence. She knows about it and she don't give a ****. She's more worried about holding on him, holding on to him and protecting him. That's because your mother is male centered. She's a male centered pick me ass bitch. She's a pick me. She worships dick. She puts dick on a pedestal and she will put it on a pedestal before she puts her own daughter on a pedestal. Understand? She idolizes penis, no matter how abusive, toxic it is. So she made a choice to choose a nigga over her own child. Oh, she chose drugs. That's choice number three. She chose to do drugs for whatever reason. She's in pain. She's got her She's got her own issues. Her being on drugs is abusive towards you. And yes, my mama was on drugs. I'm speaking from experience. My mama would wake us up in the middle of the night, me and my brother. We're 11, 12 years old. She would wake us up on a school night. And all I could remember was, you know, her nostrils were red and flary, red and flared up from snorting. Her eyes would be real glassy and wide. And she would talk like, This low, depressing monotone, she just looked ******* high. She would actually beat us out of our sleep, wake up 2, 3 o'clock in the morning, 4 o'clock in the morning on a school night and say, look at this bathroom. She'd be, you could tell her nostrils are so red and flared from snorting. We would find the coke around the house. She would leave little bags of coke laying around the house. She didn't give a ****. Make us go in the bathroom and scrub and clean the bathroom. Beat us on a school night in the middle of the night. Or we would have to go down in the basement where the laundry, you know, the washer, dryer, there's clothes everywhere. We would have to have us clean in the ******* basement in the middle of the night on a school night because she's ******* high out of her mind. So I know what it's like to deal with your mama when she's on drugs. I've seen it up close and it's horrible. We don't talk about this a lot, but. Another form of narcissistic abuse is sleep deprivation. So not only was she violent, she deprived me and my siblings of sleep on a ******* school night. Sleep deprivation is abuse, and my mama did it. So yes, add drugs. Your mama chose drugs. Okay, that's another choice she ******* made. Your mama chose to abuse you like my mama did. sent me to school with a scar on my face and my teachers called CPS on her and they they kept the case open for a whole year she don't want this information out there but she like to tell lies about me no baby don't lie on me when i know the whole truth about you and i got paperwork and receipts on your ass you ain't got no paperwork on me see had my mama been responsible when i was a little girl and got me evaluated assessed by actual therapist a doctor Got my diagnosis for autism. She would have some paperwork, but she was negligent. Because she was worried about her reputation, looked like the perfect mother. She didn't want people knowing she had a ******* retarded child with autism. So she never got me help. I never got diagnosed. I never got treatment. I didn't get the support or therapy that I should have as a child. But she did bully me and she allowed others in the family to bully me. So she has no paper trail, no evidence of nothing, no mental illness, no nothing that she went to the doctors and got her child support. She failed. But I have receipts of her abusing me. My high school records, my guidance counselor wrote up a report, and baby, the state of South Carolina, they got her on the registry. They got her and her husband on the registry. Receipts don't lie. That's archived from 30 years ago. She's on the registry for abusing me violently. So that's another choice our mothers make to violate us physically, not just emotionally, mentally, but physically. When they're violent, that's physical abuse. Oh, and we cannot forget, she made a choice to financially abuse you. We don't talk about financial abuse. Let's see, there are so many forms of financial abuse. How many of y'all worked in the house and your mama took your paychecks? How many of y'all get disability checks she took your disability? How many of y'all got tax refunds and your mama took your tax refund? Your mama stole your social security number. She's scamming with your ******* social security number. Open up credit cards in your ******* name or your child's name. All of that's financial abuse. Or she gets some money. She got money and she spends her money on your brother and sister. and buys them gifts and she don't buy you ---- to punish you or she buys her grandkids gifts and spoils them but she don't buy your child nothing that's financial abuse that's another choice your motherfucking mama made so where am i going with all this your mama made her choices now it's time for you to make your choice if you choose to cut her off because she has abused you your entire life You absolutely can cut her off. That is your choice. You are entitled to choose to do what the **** you want. And don't you let none of your family members get in your ear and say, well, you need to forgive your mom. You can forgive your mama and never deal with her ever again. See, this is where family will try to gaslight you and trick you. Your family wants you to believe that forgiveness means reconnect. Forgiveness means reconciliation. No, bitch. I can forgive my mother and never deal with her ever again. Don't let your family plan your ******* face like that. That's what they mean by you need to forgive your mama. What they really mean is you need to let your mama back into your life. Cause she won't stop talking about you to us. She won't stop obsessing about what you post on social media. Yeah, I know the bitch is obsessed. Cause I turned out to be a hundred times better than she could ever be. I look better, I'm more accomplished, more successful. I took something with my life and I did something with it. She hates her ******* life. She hates the choices she made. And she tried to abuse me and take her anger and frustrations out on me, the scapegoat child. And I cut her off and I leveled up. And now she has to sit and watch me rise in her ******* face. She has to watch God bless me in her ******* face. God could have did the same thing for her if she made wiser choices. But she chose what she chose. Now it's my time to choose. So you choose the way you ******* want to choose and don't you let nobody guilt trip you about what you choose to do about your mama. You choose to cut her off. You choose to not go to her funeral. You choose to not, you know, take care of her when she gets sick. That is, you are entitled to your choice. Don't you let nobody ******* play on your face and guilt trip you ever again. God bless you and I pray for the best for you. You understand? Stop feeling guilty.