SELF CARE VLOG 001- DEALING WITH ANXIETY, AUDIBLE READS & JAMMING TO MY GOSPEL PLAYLIST!

Mrs. Jackson, as I called her, had an expensive suit. Hey guys, welcome back to my channel. So today I was like, I want to do something a little bit different and do like a vlog style-ish vlog. And we're going to see how this is going. However, I'm not holding a camera. I have it on a tripod, but I'm about to light some candles just because today is like a snow day in New York. So I was like, I'm going to do me and take care of me. Like I had really bad anxiety yesterday and I just couldn't deal. Like y'all, I could not deal yesterday. So I was like, today I'm going to take this time to, you know, do me in every way possible. So that's what this blog is really much about. I have my instrumentals. Yo, if you have Spotify, number one, you need this playlist, you need it. I'm going to put it in the description box so you guys can have it. So yeah, like I said yesterday, and I brought this combo to my Insta. So if you are on Instagram, definitely follow me. But yeah, yesterday guys, listen, my anxiety was like through the roof where it's like, I couldn't even get myself to calm down. And I had to do like breathing exercises and stuff. But then also I noticed that I was like, when I was talking to my boyfriend, I was like, you mind, you have to shut off the lights. You need to like do everything. But like, spend time with God. And I feel like in those moments, it's so important just because like discouragement and just everything that you would do when you're just like regular minded, it goes out the window. So I'm like, yo, you need to like, in those moments right away, like I want to train myself to like, no, this can't happen. Not to say like, you ignore like what's going on in reality or whatever, because I'm not one of those people either. But it's like, what's going to actually help you, right? You know? So yeah, that's what my day is all about. It's like self care, spend time with God. And doing things for me. So yeah, as like the tea is brewing or whatever, I'm just going to chit chat with you guys. So yeah, like anxiety is real. And I feel that sometimes as believers, it's like, it's such a hard thing to admit because it's like, oh my gosh, you have this creator and he's amazing. But like, we still go through anxiety. And it's like, yo, it's crazy, you know? Like, I'm just so grateful, number one, that who I'm with is someone who protects me, who's able to pray with me, who's able to, it's like a safe space, you know, when I speak to him and we don't have any secrets or anything like that. I can completely be whoever I want. Goofy, the quiet me, I can be the loud me and he doesn't judge me. So I'm just so grateful for that. But it's just like, we need that when it comes to just anxiety and just like what we go through. Like, community is so important. And I'm working on that. Not even with my girlfriends, but the thing is, me and my boyfriend are so, like, we have open communication. Like, we can say whatever and it's like, we're there for each other. And I wanna build the same relationship with, you know, girlfriends and like, I don't want it to be so based on like, okay, do I wanna tell it right now, do I not? Like, I wanna just be able to express those things freely without feeling like I have to stay, like admit those things to just one person. So I don't know, if you feel me, catch my drift or whatever, but that's how I'm feeling. But yeah, so I said that I wanna incorporate these like more realistic talks just because I feel like that will bring what I want to this channel, community. So it's like, we can talk. I wanna try to do some lives where we just talk as well. But like, anxiety is crazy. And just, this just tells me so much why it's so important and like, to not do it alone because it's just, it's so many things that you can go through and like, especially when you have anxiety, I feel like you're not even in your right mind half the time so a lot of the things that you're thinking can deter and hinder you from what God has for you. So yeah, yeah, let me know down below if you struggle with anxiety, what do you do? What do you like doing? Yeah, let me know. But I'm about to sip this tea and listen to some Audible because I've been loving Audible at the moment. Audible just has been doing it for me. Just anything Audible, and it's not that I'm lazy, but I feel like sometimes like, after teaching a full long day, like I don't wanna come home and like, read a book. I would rather open it. So like, when it comes to the Bible, there's an app called Streetlights where they have like, the scripture and they have instrumentals playing in the back. So I'll put that in the video just in case you guys are interested. And then also like, the Bible app has like, the audio feature as well. But I love Audible for just like, books. And one of the books that I'm reading is Becoming. Like, who's not reading that book though? Who's not reading that book? I don't know. But yeah, that's one of the books that I'm reading right now so I'm about to read that. Yeah, I just posted a blog post too about like, my reads and what I'm reading. So definitely check that out. But I'm about to sip my tea and sit on this couch and just chill. Charge of their own destiny. Nobody but nobody, he'd yell, is too poor to turn off the TV two hours a night. Hanging around Santita's house could be exciting. The place was roomy and a little chaotic. Home to the family's five children and stuffed with heavy Victorian furniture and antique glassware that Santita's mom, Jacqueline, liked to collect. Mrs. Jackson, as I call her. One of the things that I really like about that book is how real she keeps it. Just because she didn't come from money. Like, she came, she was born in Chicago. She had like, a really relatable like, past which then translated into this lifestyle of being like, a first lady. But she explains everything. And I really like, you know, books like that where it's like, okay, no part is left out. It's like, you know, the bad parts, the good parts and so on, so yeah. I'm about to jam out to some gospel. I've been, let me go get my speaker. So when I went to Bermuda, I got put on to some Afrobeat type gospel. And I love that. Because you know I love, if you know me, you know that I really like Afrobeat. So, and Sokka, like, God's still working on me when it comes to those genres. Cause listen, I love me some Sokka, I love me some Afrobeat. ♪ All my praise, any day, any time, all my praise ♪ ♪ I will give you, I will give you all my praise ♪ ♪ Any day, any time, all my praise ♪ ♪ I will give you, I will give you all my praise ♪ ♪ Let's get it like, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ Sokka has another one that I really like called I'm Afra, I'm a player. ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, hey, hey, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am ♪ ♪ Everything is turning around for me, ooh, ooh, ooh, hey, hey, hey, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am ♪ ♪ This is my testimony, I can see how I make it ♪ ♪ I'll just point and say it's you ♪ So this song has been my anchor song for the week, only because my career is crazy stressful. So to me, my goal every single week, every single day is don't shrink into your environment. When you go into a work environment, I'm not saying everybody has the best attitude, so it's like I don't want to shrink and just become a part of my environment. I want to be set apart regardless. I want to feel joyful regardless. And you're going to have those days where those kids, especially if you're a teacher, you're going to be stressed out. So I'm not saying it's a walk in the park, but I don't want to shrink down. I become this bitter, nasty person. This song definitely helps me throughout the week. May your struggles keep you near the cross, And may your troubles show that you need God, And may your battles end the way they should, And may your bad days prove that God is good, And may your whole life prove that God is good. I want to do more of these videos. I feel like they're just like a lapse and chill, and like you get to know a part of me. So more of these are definitely coming. I'll see you guys in my next self-care video, or just when I feel like vlogging or doing a chill video like this. Hope that you guys enjoyed, and I'll see you in my next one. Bye guys!