2024年7月29日 15:33

Now that my folks are out of town, I'm a lot more relaxed. It's really quiet and it's just the way I like it. Basically just things are more or less neat. I'm not messing with anything that doesn't need to be messed with. No extraneous sounds or gizmos or people shuffling to and fro. I feel really nice. I feel warmth and sympathy towards everyone and everything. I don't have a whole lot of ill will or anything right now sitting inside of me. When that happens, sometimes I'm thinking, oh gosh, why couldn't I do this years ago and years and years ago? Not that you should think about it, but I can't help it. On the one hand, I don't know. It's kind of like this. I could just not do these recordings, but I feel like it's just something that needs to be done and I want to do it, so I do it. I feel like it's good. It's a good thing to do. If I didn't do it, it would be wrong. It's not really comfortable. Every time I make a recording, there's some kind of telepathy going on where it has an effect and then that effect, you can't feel or see it, but it's going on and you don't know exactly what's going on. You just kind of have to deal with it. It's really difficult to put yourself out there. It's really uncomfortable. It was kind of like that before. Whenever I started going against the grain, that's the way it felt like. It felt natural and normal and the right thing to do, but at the same time, just opening up a whole set of factors that then need to be dealt with. On the other hand, not doing that, I don't feel like I really got all that much done. I don't feel like I was doing things that I was supposed to be doing and I feel like I was just kind of floating by and just kind of basically letting life pass me by. I didn't realize it at the time, but gradually I came to believe that that was the case. I just think honesty is the best policy. I just can't get away from that, no matter how I look at it or from what angle. I can just feel like if something's in your heart, you should act on it. Not act on emotions or act on impulses, but something's really there and it's true and it's correct. It's not just a whim or whatever, but there's something behind it. I do believe it's right to pursue that and open it up and figure out what it's all about because I think everything else is pretty much just like being around the bush and just kind of spinning wheels, but it does lead to a good outcome. It does, over time, make you more grounded and open-minded and tolerant in being. I don't know. Everyone's different, I know. I mean, it all ends to the same result, whatever a person does, if they do it sincerely and and then waveringly, it does. All 10,000 ways lead to the origin. It's the principles that count, the heart that counts, how something is done, and everyone definitely has their own way of going about things, which is correct for them. We all end up at the same place. you