2024年7月29日 15:44

And another question is money. So, you know, I just learned to just take the positive spin on everything because it really, you know, most of it was just not based in anything. So, the way that I grew up particularly, you know, it's kind of like my dad was really just like hands-on in terms of material things like, you know, everything you need here is, you know, questions asked, just ask for it and, you know, college, car, whatever you need. And, you know, yeah, I mean, it might, maybe if I have children, I'm not, I don't know, I'd probably do the same thing, but just make them understand that, kind of give them a little bit more insight into the situation as opposed to just, here it is, no questions asked, no information given. Because, you know, I was also raised very conscious of, you know, the fact that, you know, resources are very limited and, you know, we don't have a lot of money, even though we're willing to spend whatever it takes for whatever you wish to pursue, which I was very conscious of, you know, and aware of and, you know, kind of it also made me responsible to go ahead and do my best and pursue those things and, but it put a big burden on me, you know, because, you know, I had no way to repay and I wasn't encouraged to go and make money, you know, whatever little jobs I had were a pittance compared to what was spent on various things that I was involved in. And, you know, you can't really help it when you're just growing up and you don't know what else to do and just kind of go with what's given. But then, when I was an adult, you know, and I kind of came to see things differently, I felt that I should, you And at first, I just, like, I had no interest in it because they weren't interested in any money for me. They didn't care. They care a lot about money and they obsess over it, like, to the extreme, when there's absolutely no need to obsess over it, when it's just pennies and cents and it's just like, if you're just wise with your money, you'll gain a lot more than obsessing over nonsense. But you can't, you can't really convince people who are set in their ways, which is most people. You know, logic doesn't work. And so, you know, not being able to change the situation, I'm like, well, you know, fine, you know, I'll just, you know, make use of it. You know, I'll do the right thing with what's given to me and I'm not going to reject anything unless I don't need it. And if I need it, I'll accept it and I'll be responsible for it and then do the right thing with it as I see fit. And then, you know, whoever doesn't agree, they don't, you know, they don't have to do anything. I'm not asking for anything or forcing anyone to do anything. And, you know, and then when I did come into money and I offered, you know, hey, let me pay this back or whatever, it was always like nonchalance, like you don't need your money, but money, money, money, money. So it's like, what am I going to do? Force it, you know, force it in your bank account? I mean, it's not a bad idea. If I didn't need the money myself, which so far I have, you know, like, again, it's the whole thing of not doing anything on purpose and emphasizing just kind of going with nature, I guess. But yeah, like, for instance, like this house was put in my name, my name was added to the deed due to some circumstance, but that's kind of what happened. And so when I came back to stay for some time and I didn't like the shape that it was in, I'm like, well, this is legally, this is equally my house. I know you think you're my parents and, you get to do whatever you want, but the law is the law. And that's the, that's the view that I take, you know, not because it's convenient to me, but because that's how I see things. And, you know, I proceeded to make a lot of improvements and it was very difficult and painful and, you know, but, but, but it worked, it worked. The house looks more normal than it did before, even though it's not really appreciated or considered, but I feel better about it. I feel more responsible for my property, right? And then there's the way that other people look at you. Oh, you live with your mommy and daddy, you're four years old, you don't have any money. It's like, I have plenty of money. I have, I own part of a property that's, that's very valuable and I come into money in all kinds of different ways and it's there and I don't need to worry about it. You can worry about my money, my assets, my social status, all you want. Just go ahead. I can't do anything about it. And, yeah, but that's a really big thing and it really keeps people down. Their perceived social status and if others, you know, perceive them to be at a lower social status, you know, and then they really are or whatever and then treat them like losers or whatever. It really gets people down, it really gets people wrapped up. And, but it's like you're spending a lot of effort for what you're, you know, you're selling yourself to somebody who doesn't really care about you, to do a job that doesn't really matter or doesn't really have any positive impact. You might even have a net really negative impact. When you could be doing something that's, that you actually enjoy, that you actually feel like you're contributing to yourself and to others, it's kind of like what we're here to do. And the only thing you have to sacrifice is just how others perceive you because you're probably not going to be grateful or appreciate the good things you do. But, you know, these fake notions, that's kind of what's at the forefront of people's minds when it comes down to it. They don't really see the essence of what someone is doing when they're being true to themselves and they're being honest and sincere. They just see how it looks, you know, how it looks, how other people look at it, how the television media portrays it, you know, in their own mind they run these like things, you know, you know, right? Because it's uncomfortable to go against the grain because society is the way it is. It's set by the mass media and whatever that complex is and, you know, it's all designed to, you know, make people bolts and a machine so that it can keep running as fast as it can and make people as rich as they can who are at the very top of this pyramid scheme. And then it sets up at each level these fake criteria that people to try to like attract and seduce people to live for nothing for these fake illusions. And then if you try to, if you step outside of that, then, oh my god, kaboom, you know, people can't handle it, right? Because then what are they doing with their lives? It's basically what it comes down to. It's like almost like a totally subconscious level. Like it makes people really uncomfortable. You're doing things different. Why am I doing what I'm doing? No, no, we can't, can't, can't start going down that. You're wrong. You're bad. You know, how would other people see you? As opposed to just if you get behind that guy that's doing the right thing, like, no, this is right. I mean, this is the right thing to do for sure. And he's on point, you know, it'll just all go away. Like the naysayers will like, as soon as there's two's a crowd, right? We'll just be like, oh, well, yeah, I guess, I guess I got nothing to say. That's, that's not, that's not what I've experienced. You know, just, it just takes one other person. And then people are, people are able to open their minds and are willing to entertain new ideas and be like, yeah, let me think about that, you know, willing to talk, because they see that there's another human being that's in the same boat. And it's like, it's not just like one against everyone. Well, you know, but if I joined that one, I'm going to be against everyone too. And oh, yeah, that's like heart attack. But no, just, just use your common use your own senses. Like, yeah, that's right. That's right. You know, you know, yeah, and I support that fella, you know, and all of a sudden people like, oh, you know, okay. You know, that's what it is. I don't know. And, you know,