NDE TV Presents Anthony Chene, including the trailer for his latest Production "RENAISSANCE".

hi welcome to Indie TV I'm Peggy Robinson today's guest is Anthony Sheen and he has the Anthony Sheen Productions that has a lot of really cool inde documentaries and interviews on there and his films they're amazing and he's from France and um he's gonna tell us about his new documentary hi Anthony hello thank you for having me again so this last one took you five months and I know you have the trailer for your documentary on your channel and um we're going to get it on here the doctors panicked the second that they realized that I had just died but I was out of my body watching what they were doing down below to resuscitate me and it's very weird because I can hear every thought in anyone's head that is near me but it didn't dawn on me that this dead body I was seeing was me I felt completely calm and I looked down and I said if I'm up here and my body is down there and that man is calling code blue then I think I just died the spirit comes from where one of the openings is and I knew immediately it was my grandmother my mom's mom and I looked up at her and I said oh my gosh I thought you died it's so hard to describe in words because it's a love that we don't have here here I had some Darkness inside of me and this love flushed it out sealed It Up made it whole everything came to light everything that had been shadowed was now revealed and then I was forced back the next thing I remember I woke up I woke up out of a 3-day coma being brain dead and I said into the oxygen mask what just happened I was up on the ceiling and I could see and hear everything I never had any thoughts about life after death but every place I ever went they were always the same things like Dr Moody I've never told anybody this but and doctors say it's just a hallucination it's a Dream It's side effect of drugs though they keep silent I have met people who have been silent for 50 years because they couldn't share with others you remember those events for decades and it's so Al for real it's such a different mode of knowing that often people come back and think well if I try and tell somebody that they'll think I'm crazy when you have a near-death experience it is more real than the current environment that you're in maybe we need some new way to investigate this kind of thing the problem with materialist science is their main approach to this has been to debunk and deny to dismiss so it's hard to disc with them because they're just full of their own Dogma they're frightened I am a skeptic by the way and I want to say that because unfortunately people who call themselves Skeptics about near-death experiences don't know what they're talking about death is like birth a Changing State of Consciousness but there will never be an end it's Eternal there's been many times in my life where I go into a deep state of hypnosis or a deep state of meditation and I can actually get myself there again at the same time it sort of focuses your attention on what it means to be alive now what is it about us that survives you can connect to God at every moment of your life God exists within the more one gets into meditation centering prayer into doing good work work to help change the world for the better the more they start to realize they're not that little ego self at all but something far grander than that the intention is that you would remember where you came from that you came from God so it's nothing more than individual sentient beings going through this process of learning who they are why they're here and where this is all going The Great I Am is in your core even when you perceive nothing still I am there as I tell you this here and now pressing my truth into your breast your very heart presses it further in okay so that was the trailer the documentary will last a little bit more than two hours and uh by the way sorry for my French accent like always I know I'm making mistakes English mistakes when I talk but that's that's the way it is I'm French I'll do never notice any mistakes when you talk so yes so that's the that's the documentary basically okay are you going to continue making these yes I don't know if I will make more of these big documentaries or more interviews like I did before but uh yes of course yes it's a it's it's always a not a struggle but always a quest I would say you know you never know what the future holds but uh we'll see well you know I would like to see you get into movies but I know that's not your thing no no that's my thing well that would be my thing I I just don't have a I I guess I'm not really looking for connection connections you know in the the business so maybe I should but it's it's uh I don't know making these videos takes me it takes me so much time that I don't really have the the the will to look for people in the movie business let's put it that way have you thought about hiring people to help you yes and well the uh you know the whole process of making movies you know you have to find uh uh fundings producers networks you know it's the it's a whole process and yes of course a team of uh people work with me so yeah it would be maybe the next step yes makes sense but I found all these connections for you if you ever feel yeah why not I I got everything set up if you want to venture I think it's the it's the same for everyone I think you know I just feel deep down it's a limiting belief like I maybe I I don't deserve this or I not good enough yet for this next step you know it's like a well obviously it's not for me I'm not ready I'm just making YouTube videos and this and that but it's just an excuse you know in the end it's not it's scary to step out of your comfort zone yes yes yes of course of course of course and to see yourself doing things that seem impossible yes and also to make them in English English because people often forget that I'm French since I I never appear in my own videos people tend to forget that but I'm French and living in France I'm in France like in southern France right now so there's always this mismatch between me and my audience also you know it's like I don't belong you know I'm somewhere else it's strange I see you overseeing projects and having people working for you doing all the leg work and all the the manual work that you put in you overseen that I see you in that role but yes what my dream would be to to hire people and to work with the very very talented people in every single field you know the musics the I don't know the after effects the actors whatever you know working with the best you know with people I I want to work with sharing a vision and basically doing really good stuff you know that's my goal and also for this this one this documentary that was my main main focus all this time you know to make something the best thing I could you did it's a mental it's a mental discipline you know like day after day it took me five months of editing this one so it's very long but it's I didn't want to quit you know I want I wanted to make something the best thing I could at this time maybe next year I'll say oh I could do this and that but I want to do every time I want to do my best it's very important for me because I I've learned everything I did uh sorry everything I do I I uh I didn't do any bus um sorry any movie school or anything like that you know I had to learn everything myself so every project I try to improve myself that's the goal so I don't know why I'm saying this I forgot your question but yeah well I had a lady on my show about a year ago and um we just remained friends and I didn't know at the time the connections she has and the background and TV movies that she has and she's ready to go forward and I'm like I don't know if he is so yeah I think I think I am okay honestly took me so much energy to finish just this one the the the one I just so that uh sometimes my dreams right now maybe I'm getting old but sometimes right now my dream is just to get some vacation finally to you're not even 40 yet right no I'm I'm 38 but it's like it's it's oh God it's so much work I want to I want to sleep oh I want to do right now but um and I I I know that people don't really realize the work behind the these videos you know because the the main goal of good editing is to forget that there is an editing you know it the video if the video is very fluid and smooth it means that I did a good job so people tend to forget that it's very it's a lot of work actually you're doing the work of a whole team of people yes because I had to I have to cut cost the best uh the best uh I have to find the best way I can to cut cost basically basically yes so I do a lot of things like almost everything myself because um because otherwise the budget would be way too big you know I could not fund this otherwise so but it's also good because it uh I have to to find ways to be more creative you know with the with the budget I have so it's a good thing so I mean where's the budget come in I mean because you don't pay any of these people to interview I mean you you're editing on your equipment I mean it's just your time and no yeah it's my time but it's my time I don't pay myself on on this one but it's also the uh I the there are six guests in this documentary so it means I had to do six different interviews in in different locations each time okay so and I'm in France so to make it more efficient cost efficient I hire a filmmaker in every location like Raymond Moody was in Florida and etc etc so I pay a filmmaker to film Raymond Moody for instance and I ask the questions like that with a zoom connection on the screen so Raymond buy is answering to my questions looking at me in a screen and I P pay everyone of the each uh each filmmaker for that also sometimes I have to pay fees to some guests if or I can propose fees sometimes because I think it's fair it depends on the project but for this documentary it's uh well it depends yes uh what yes about money so the what else um so yes and six different uh interview shootings it's already quite a lot for me you know it's it's not free so okay cost me a lot and also the yes the other big cost for me is to pay for the stock footage you know the the B- rolls you see the Drone footage the musics also the music footage okay yes I try to film some myself I have some of the footage is from me but I cannot do a 2hour documentary with only my footage so and the 3D brains the stuff like that I have to pay for it so it's uh okay yeah it's adding up pretty quickly so it's not a big big budget it's it's actually a very small budget for this kind of project but it's still uh like almost like 15 15 sorry th000 for this one oh oh okay to give you an idea you you know it's something like that and I don't pay myself you know it's work all the time for fre now I would assume I mean some of your videos get you know million views or more that you're you know supporting yourself through YouTube yes a little but it's not um it's not enough if you want to pay professional filmmakers and pay professional stock footage um it's um it's not enough to to pay for all this especi especially if it's this uh for this one you know this big one I'm talking about this this big one right now this the last one I did and it's uh it's it's way too much work and uh and interviews and everything to to rely on YouTube you and that's I I know it's a boring subject for most people you know it's boring at all I think it's fascinating yeah but I think that people they they want to hear about these uh the the ndes the these ideas and there is the behind the you know behind the scene you know the these uh these topics about uh budget and money and and stuff like that it's not I think maybe it's boring for me because it's a I I I did a business school but still I don't really how can I say it I just like to to create stuff basically I like to to make something good to create something really the best thing I could so that's the that's my focus every day I wake up every day and I go on go on and go on and when I have because I have to think about uh money obviously like everyone else and I still don't have any billion Aire funding me if people are ask like the rumor was yeah the rumor but it's just fund me and don't make rumors and so no I don't have a so so so it's a boring subject for me the the money side but it's at some point I just have to think about it if I want to to go higher and higher you know yeah so so so so I don't have any conclusion for this question I don't know what to answer did you take any film classes no no no never okay I wanted to like two years ago I had this great idea oh I'll go to LA or I don't know which uh State US state and I'll do a big film school and this and that and well I don't know but first it's a lot of money it's it's not it's not free this these Film School are very expensive and I thought is it worth it I don't know well you already made documentaries it just as good if not better as some of those that's put out in the movie theater on near-death experiences so I don't know I don't know I don't know about that classes I don't know I I really don't know it's not a um sometimes people think I I had a lot of comments on my last interview with you people saying oh Anthony so humble so humble but it's not a I don't feel I'm I'm humble it's just the truth you know I'm just kind of saying things as as they are you know I I cannot lie so so I just wish that this new this new documentary will be will help people uh and the I don't want to speak only and to to I don't want to speak only to people who already know everything about ND and mystical experiences you know I'd like this one and my other videos too to to to reach uh a broader audience you know even people who don't really know about all this to to to I want them to to know that there is nothing to fear about death and it's not just hallucinations and stuff like that we always hear in the mainstream media like it's trick of the mind and no it's real and um there are other dimensions Beyond this pretty world that we experience every day and we are not who we think we are you know it's the biger it's really important for me you know to convey this that's a shame that people don't realize that these things exist and they probably even have it in their own life but probably just pushed it off and thought that's impossible and didn't have one yes but so it's very stressful also if you don't realize this I think you know it's like this life is totally meaningless you know you just you live you die and then you're gone forever you don't exist anymore for forever for eternity and it's just for nothing there is no meaning to anything so you can do basically whatever you want because what's the point it's very depressing also but it's not the truth it's uh it's wrong it's um everything has a deep meaning and every life is important and we are here for a reason every single one of us and uh there are other dimensions above us and uh I think we have to build a connection with them you know we have to reconnect um it's funny because when I answered your questions I totally forget why I'm saying what I'm saying right now so I'm kind of lost every time at the end of my sentences I was following your train of thought because it just yeah it's important to to remember that yes to and uh and also about death yes it's very depressing also if if because we all we all lose people you know I told you in my email a few days ago that I lost a dear friend just when I was finishing the trailer like two weeks ago something it and it was the friend who helped me when I was 17 he was the one who was helping me with the his camcorder you know it was in 2002 with before the phones and everything and I didn't have any any anything to film to start and uh he he helped me with that and and that's how I knew the the first time I I I I've made a stupid teenager movie but it was I I just knew at 17 that I wanted to to do that for life even if I did a business school after it didn't change my uh my will and uh and so this friend mother told me like to weeks ago like he just died the day before so it's really strange very strange feeling like he's not here I cannot reach out to him and send him anything you know it's really strange death is really strange you know and I know because I just know it's not faith for me I just know it's he still here in another form and is out there and maybe another dimension I don't know but it's not the end of him but it's still there is the physical uh lack you know what's his name um Misha he was polish but he was living in France Misha yes Michelle and U and it was such a synchronicity you know for me know the the almost the very day I was finishing this this project this trailer and everything uh the guy who helped me first uh uh realize that I wanted to do this he just died almost the same day you know it's really strange but did he continue to always help you or be there for um yeah I think so yes yes I think so and and obviously was he had his own life but he was here also for that I just know from my viewpoint I know it was also here to help me you know maybe I maybe I would I don't know what would have been you know my life without uh his uh without him but still you know it was very important for me at the time so so yeah death is really I don't know it's just a silence you know you lose someone and just a silence but it's I think it's we are beyond that you know we are not just the little ego and the little story and the the body and the emotions and the limiting beliefs and everything I think we are beyond that and we continue to exist after this little story this experience was your friend your age yes it was exactly my age yes he had the health problems so anyway we all lose people so that's life you know we want to forget it I think we want to forget that we are we are going to die and we are going to experience grief we don't want to think about it but what did he think about the nde interviews you did he wasn't really interested about that because after like for the last few years he was living in Poland again Poland and not in France and so we had our own life and I don't want to it's the same with my family you know I don't talk about what I do with them with people around me because I people most people are not really and even in France they don't really con they don't really want to talk about this kind of you know so I learned not to push it so it's very strange because I have emails from people who say oh thank you your videos have helped me thank you thank you and I don't know these people but they know my videos but I talk to friends and family members who don't really who don't who don't even know what I do you know it's really a strange it's a strange life you know it's strange how it's still like not accepted in France no it's less accepted in France than uh in the US yes for sure but there is an there is an Awakening in France too right now it's happening quickly but it's not a good thing to talk about it still in the work place or in the you know so people want to look rational you know they want to look look like they're in control and they know what they're doing but they just don't you got to keep your common sense when it comes to this stuff because it can't get too woo woo and out there yes yes yes yes it it can be an escape pretty quickly I think yes yes people can say well I'm from this planet and uh or uh I'm Mary magdala or I'm Jesus or I've heard so many things from so many people it's scary sometimes but um it seems like you um like the um UFO ET staff is huge right now all the Indie ears are bringing that into their IND yeah it's the trend yeah it's the trend yeah I don't know The Reincarnation stuff like I was told this you know kind of push everybody's agenda yes yes yes and it's easy to lie because I can't tell you well I just remember I had end uh nde and and people would say yes that makes so much sense anony Chen had an nde and this and that and I would build up my own ND but it's uh um for what you know what my question is why would people lie about this you know people tend to lie about everything and even the spiritual stuff you know they so yeah I knew a famous in the ear that I caught her in so many lies and finally I confronted her and she says what does it matter I'm like you profess to be a Christian and you're asking me what does it matter to lie like and lie constantly knowing you're lying like what's it matter you're lying about your nde you're lying about God in heaven and Jesus and what you saw and you ask me what's it matter I didn't say all that but I thought yeah that's a yeah it's a very big question yes it matters but why why why would it matter like I know it matters but what what would be your answer to that you know if she when she told you this Indies tell us anything it tells us God Is Watching and we have these life reviews are like our Judgment Day and so many people are told you know to be kind or to be nice or that I didn't like that or um whatever our nde there's morality in it there's lessons to be learned in it yes yes yes you know if you see God and Jesus in your nde then you've got to believe in the Bible and what the Bible teaches is you know the Ten Commandments and you know not bear false Witnesses way up there and to the thought of bear and false witness about God Jesus about about God's kingdom I mean that's just I can't think of anything worse yeah it's it's not good but uh but yes but it's it can be depressing sometimes about the how can I say the state of the world because it's true that most people seem to get away with it with the lies you know can make a huge amount of money you can I don't know you can do whatever you want and it's like well if I win why does it matter you know I got what I wanted and it can be depressing also for me to say yeah well maybe it's right maybe I'm the naive person you know maybe I I don't know but I don't think so I think yes I think what matters in this life is to have a pure intention you know you may miss your target but if you have the pure intention and if you go through that's the highest value you know and then you can miss you can make mistakes you can you can uh fail but you still have the intention you know and if you're not authentic how are you going to know yourself you know I think most people in this world they don't really want to know their real SES they just want to shine you know impress yeah impress people shine and pretend it's so fun you know but I don't I really hate it I it's it's the main thing I've hated in the corporate world in finance and in Banks and you know companies with people it's the the play you know you have to pretend you know when you from the time you arrive in the morning to the time you leave your your office you have to pretend all the time and it's like I was like at some point people will just you know as you say in English break character you know say okay we stop pretending now it's it's enough it's enough but no the Everyone is always pretending it's like it's a it's a horror movie for me it's like you just know everyone else is pretending just like you everyone knows it so how come can you just pretend all the time and it's it's so much pressure for me you know to pretend pretend and it's it's so boring also so it makes me think of the people that are deep in debt you know they got the fancy car the fancy home fancy jewelry clothes everything and go out and show the whole world look at me how rich I am but actually they're so poor you know they yeah is do anything also I think also to be how can I say also it comes from the desire to be loved I think you know we want to be accepted and loved and it's true that in this world right now you have to pretend a lot and you have to fake a lot to be loved by people around you that's a fact so people just want to belong you know so how can you do it you know because you feel I I at least myself you often feel how can I say lost you know in this world you don't I don't fit in this world you know it's a it's crazy what people do to fit in is it yes but I think most people I think I do think most people are nice people you know in the end you know sometimes they get angry or this and that but in the end most people are nice but we are just all the same you we just don't know how to operate in this world and that's It's Perfectly Normal we don't know and it's normal because it's not supposed to be like that we're not supposed to act as if this 3D world is all there is we completely forgot why we came here and who we are and where we are we forgot everything so of course we lost you know it makes sense so we try some stuff in the end it doesn't work and we just leave this world and that's it we learn some we learn some stuff and we start again yeah it's a long process yeah I say at 25 when I was in the white light and I thought gosh okay I'm dead but I didn't make much of a mark on earth when I was there like I didn't talk I didn't let people know what I thought I just so quiet and I just thought you know even my kids were babies they're going to forget me in time it's just like I never even lived and so you know when I come back gradually and more and more I got older I like we just got to you know shake things up when we're here let people know we're here yeah I think we we we all think uh life is way longer than it is it's uh not that long this life experience is not very long but we all act as if we are going to stay here forever you know even myself you know even myself you know when you talk to me about not bu um business school not business school movie school or another project or movies or anything I always think well later yes of course of course later in my future you know later later when you know when maybe you know maybe I'll live this world soon and I don't know you know I we all have to do with what we have to do at some point especially we have a friend d your age you know makes you think yes yes yes it's really strange because I thought well that's it his life this life experience just ended for him he so quickly you know it's I don't know the feeling you know it's that's it wow it's it was so quick I just remember like it was for me it was like five minutes ago we were 17 and dreaming about some stuff you know and just like that it's over this life experience like that's all you get sorry like that's all you get that's all I got yes yes and for me if my life uh if if if it was to end right now I would be the same like no no no no no I'm just beginning you know and I think we all think that you know we have all the time in the world and we'll see and and even for the loved one you know our family or loved ones or sorry family members or friends you know we don't see them we we don't really care we say later later and then it's over it makes me think of Dr Jeff um adris who um was there at um Jeffrey Olsen's um accident or he was the one of the doctors there when Jeffrey ol had his accident and um Dr Jeffrey Driscoll later wrote a book called not yet because he's ER doctor and I guess that's what so many of them you know on their deathbed was saying like not yet like I'm not done not yet yeah I think it's a very scary feeling when you're about to die and you just didn't thought it was coming so quickly you know it's like not I don't want to to die yet but uh I think we all have um a time you know that is set up in advance you know I believe that so when it's the time it's the time and that's it but it doesn't mean it's the end of uh ourselves you know we still exist we still know we exist but not through the brain and not through this body it's just another dimension and yeah it's another experience but we still exist in another form another state of consciousness so there is nothing to be afraid of but in this life in this world it's uh pretty scary because uh because we cannot see the our loved ones when they are dead you know we cannot see them they can see us they always say in their this experience is like I was able to see them to know what they were thinking and everything but they couldn't see me so so we have to remember that that it's not the end of everything there's an old country that says um everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to go right now the silly country yes and and um I tried my best in every single video I've made and even in this last uh big one to not to make it sound like it's a nice you know to have nde or any mystical experience you know it's not an escape you know because otherwise it would be like okay I have so many problems I just want to check out and that's it not interested that's it bye it's not it doesn't work that way at all we we we are here for a reason and it's everything every single detail we experience has a deep meaning for the soul so we have to go through this experience we don't we it's not about an escape it's very important I think to to understand that because otherwise there is this dichotomy between this life and a nice heaven and everything is is cool you know and so obviously we all want to go to heaven if it's the case but it's it doesn't work this way at all um we are here to put the light in this world you know in this Darkness yeah that's what I think we are we're here to make the world a better place you know whether some do or not I don't know but yes I don't know if I don't know if what we can do with this world of honestly I really don't know but at least for me I'm talking about me I I just even if I don't make any difference I just don't care I will do it anyway that's my contract idea I sign a contract with myself let's put it that way I told you last night I'll do this until I until I'm no longer able to to do it until I Collapse basically that's the that's the deal so I'll I'll I'll keep going and uh and that's it that's all we can do do it anyway yes MH yes that's my that's my goal and uh and many many times it can be hopeless or exhausting let's put it that way but um I still find a way to to go on to to to to do it again and I feel uh especially when I'm in front of the sea you know I don't live very far from the Mediterranean Sea and when I see the Horizon at the sea I can feel the the the messages the how can I say I can see them talking I can hear the the ideas of guys or I don't know what I can hear this and it's always the same stuff like since last time it it's the same it's uh don't give up and make more videos for now make more videos in English don't give up just do more it's doesn't make any sense for me most of the time because I'm like well I mean I'm in France right now like what's the you know it's it's like it's it doesn't make any sense but I I just feel I have to do it you're chosen Anthony yeah ch wasn't to to to work I think you definitely have a purpose and you're doing it well yeah I don't know I don't know I wish I I would like to know more about uh about what I have to do but I really really really don't know and I think it's the same for everyone just not just me you know we so it's very hard to know where we headed but um what's really an knowing me is this difference between where I am right now friends I I just love FRS thousand and France Especial it's really I really like it here and it's my country but I don't understand why I'm here why I'm French and why I always have to go on with American English people and making videos with them I know it makes sense because I can feel it I just told you I I know it I want to go on but there is a a rational side of my brain I don't know that is like I'm I'm really really not happy about this situation it's like it doesn't make any sense why why why are you doing this to me give me a green card or give me a a ton of money so that I can go I don't know but this situation is like so weird I I am I the only one thinking this like if people is are people who are listening right now or even you I don't know like don't think it's weird like I have right now my French accent I'm in France and I do videos in English all the time we need to have patience it's hard yeah well anyway I'm not complaining it's not a complain you know I'm I'm happy to do it but it's like it's so weird and in intuition is often very weird when you have an intuition it's always like it's so weird but you have to to follow it because they know better I think they are guides or Spirit ancestors or I don't know Angels or the higher self whatever but I think they know the plan better than we do so we have to have faith uh even if we're French and we are doing videos in English or the time but what did you think of America the few times you came here to film well I I'm mostly went to the West Coast okay because I like the Sea and the ocean and the warmth weather you know I'm very simple guy so I like the beach and everything so I went to of course I went to California and I thought it was pretty nice other than that I don't know I think American people the same way than French people I think it's are very lost right now deeply deeply lost you know angry but it's not anger deep down it's not an anger it's just lost it's like you we have just no idea what we're doing yeah yes yes it's uh very it's a very interesting period of time we're about to leave I think it's going to be chaotic but also grand you know there's so much nastiness on our news the last several years that it just puts out a bad Vibe yeah I try not to watch the news even in France I I don't really I used to watch the news a lot when I was in uh Finance business school so more than 10 years ago I used but I was angry all the time at everything I remember basically and you cannot do anything about it so right was very depressing and it's also very boring eventually no it's always the same stuff the same opposition the same ideas it's blaming the same people yeah it's the same the same play over and over the same bad movie over over and over the news is for me that's what it is the same bad movie every year and it's just and when I that's that's why when I discovered these uh ND and all these all these uh topics I was so relieved I it made so much sense sense for me I I thought well of course of course this 3D world is not everything there is of course there's something else of course it makes sense otherwise it doesn't make any sense this world doesn't make any sense in itself it's obvious for me like it's but it's just a tiny part of the whole reality you know there is so much more and we are so much more and we have to access it to to learn to listen and to access who we are and it's uh it's it's not easy but as I said it's I think it's going to be also going to be a it's not a it's not just all dark it's going to be a chaotic but also such a relief I think that's what I feel about the future but uh I don't really know why I'm feeling this but I just kind of know it and I forgot your question I I really don't know why talking about I'm just talking like it's so weird to to do an interview I realize it's very weird to to be to be the one interviewed because it's like you're talking talking talking and at some point just don't really know what your why well I'm not worried about it because I know you're gonna edit it how you want it so no I if you want I can do some editing but I think it's your interviews are like the last one we did it's good to have this flow you know uh it's uh I used to edit my video a lot at first I I I had this choice to to do a lot of editing because I wanted to edit myself out of the video you know so if like for you if you don't want to be in your own video you have to do a lot of editing you know because you have to hide yourself so it's not that easy I don't add mine yes because you don't have any problem uh with yourself in the video and that's a that's a normal thing I'm the weird one because I don't know it's like I I just hate myself in like the video we did my interview the last one I never watched it again I just cannot stand myself it's yeah I have yeah I don't know it's a maybe it's a thing I don't know why I I hate watching myself even hearing my own voice if I hear my own voice in a you know in a video Family Reunion or something I just hate it I just cannot stand my own voice H yeah yeah it's weird I know but it's uh and so that's that's why I I really don't understand why so many people and especially in France they love to be on camera especially in friends they just love it they want to do video after video after video all all the time they want to show themselves all the time it's like why for me it's so weird you know like do you have so many things to say and why do you want to to to be all the time in a video like to say what and you don't have your own life or I don't know first time I was on camera we were staying at a campground my husband was working Wheeling West Virginia and um two guys one on each side of our camper um had killed someone and the camera Crews was out talking about this case and it was a big deal because the guy they got to fight with and killed was a a college student in that town and here we are we're like the bad people coming in to do these jobs and on the pipeline and they're trying to say we're all from down south and and so I was hearing all this on the news and then so one day they knocked on my door and I opened my camper door here's this whole camera crew this news station and I just stepped right out and I told him what for I said we're not from all down south where are you from I said look at all the license plates on these campers you can see every state where everybody's from and you're talking like we're all criminals I said I haven't even had a speeding ticket and I just and I said you don't know these boys are guilty I was innocent and pro until proven guilty I kept calling them boys and so this was in the on the news and people were talking about in the newspaper they didn't like it that I was referring to them as boys because you know they're young men and there're supposed to be these murderers and long story short they ended up um they weren't guilty because it was they one had fell and hit their head on concrete when his buddy propped him up to go knock on somebody's door to get help and that may have caused his death instead of the fight so but it was a whole big like months long thing and so that was the first time I just you know was on camera and I just like oh up my door and I just had something to say and I said yeah and you're very authentic so you don't have any you know not PR obviously not pretending to be anyone else you know so set the record straight there was so much false things and hate and and things being said that wasn't right and I I'm going to set the story straight and ever since then I've liked been on camera because I feel like it's an opportunity to have your voice heard yes it's the it was the same for me like with your interview like it was a I did it I forced myself to do it because I thought that I was missing something with my own audience you know you know there were uh people saying things about me or thinking some stuff about me like I was American or I was rich or I was I don't know but they said a billionaire hired you come do these videos you work for a billionaire in France right great I wish but so so it's yes so so that's why I wanted to to make the effort like now for this uh new project to make the effort to to be here sometimes to to say okay that's me I'm Anthony I'm French hello and people say oh that's Anthony I'm glad to discover and so people seem to be glad that I do it from time to time so I do it and I didn't realize it's pronounced Anthony because I say Anthony because that's how we say here Anthony yes yes of course s you said the French the French version anony yes because yes I also have an American name of course but I'm French so no in France they say anony they say okay anony but in amer it's Anthony I never say Anthony no I cannot say that too much for me I too much I rebel against that it's I'm French so no it's won't be Anthony so if I ever meet you in person I have to remember how to properly say your name Anthony yeah but it's a it's an American name so people in America they can't say an American because it's American so I don't know if I forgot something I wanted to say about anything I do right now but anyway is there anything more you want to say about the documentary not really I think people will will will with the trailer and with everything else they will have their own idea and okay you can check the you know my YouTube channel my website everything so there'll be more of anon's documentaries and interviews to come yes hopefully yes I will do more I don't know the pace or the you know how many and this and that but yes I'll do more and um and uh it's never ending I think uh it's really funny like it's there is a way you know but uh I just dis I discover the way step by step but I just know there is something you know ahead