I Said What I Said… Addressing the Drama for the LAST Time 😮‍💨 | DITL Of A SAHM & Wife Vlog

They be judging people and you look over onto their lawn and they grassing you and cut. How does that make any sense? Well, I just feel like me as a mother. I wouldn't date a pedophile but here you are. Stuff y'all don't really want to come out. So I suggest that y'all leave me alone. I don't regret any of it, but I just want to apologize like her and I feel bad for the ones who are stuck in that rut. Who can never leave because they've made their whole channels around drama. Oh, that clout is a hell of a drug. Hey y'all, what's up? I literally just got out of the shower. Well, I just woke up. Then I got in the shower, washed my face and stuff, did my skincare and then I'm sitting here trying to figure out like what I'm about to do. So remember when I told y'all that my sister was coming to get my kids and they was going to be gone for like a week but I was going to keep them on. So we just decided because she's moving in with us in like literally like 10, 9 days, like a week and some change she'll be here that we'll just wait for her to get them when she comes here anyway. She starts her job, so she has to be here anyways. So I'm like, I just was looking at the calendar and stuff and I'm like you going back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth like it's just too much. Like Houston, San Antonio, back, back, back. Then we was going to be in Dallas and it was just too much going on on top of the fact that we're about to move. So it's like, I told you right, like we need to just stay here. We need to focus on, you know, packing and getting our stuff together. Tired of running, so that's the goal but we need to get everything into effect. You know what's going on over there? I thought this was closed when I put them away. But anyway, we need to get everything into effect and everything like that, right? So I just told her like when you get here, then if you're going to go back, take them with you when you go back. So she's going to come and then go back for her birthday. Her birthday is the beginning of August. So she'll just take them with her when she goes back and then she has to come back again because clearly she has to go back to work. So it works out. It's like it's not her going out of her way and that's what I didn't want her to have to go out of her way to come get them because I'm like I don't have a trip planned. I don't got nothing to do. I was telling y'all I'm going to be bored sitting here looking around like just it's going to be me and y'all. Like that's about it. Like I didn't have no plans, nothing. Like maybe we would go on a few dates or something. But like as for like, you know what I'm saying? Turn up like mommy break. It wasn't one of them. I was just literally going to be sitting here probably still cleaning and getting the house ready for us to move. But I do want to take them to do some stuff. I just don't know when, where or what. Because everything I think of is like outside and it's just been so hot like girl. So I need to actually like sit down and plan out some things, map out some stuff. Especially when Uriah is off and he's not, you know, at work and stuff. So then I can kind of like set everything up like that. I really wish I had more planned today. Like I really honestly when it comes to the kids, I hate sitting in the house because I want them to like go out and do stuff, you know? And so I really need to find some stuff. Like I wanted to go to the zoo, but every time I look at the zoo, it be just like scorching outside and I can't. That's one thing I cannot do. Like I cannot sit outside in the heat 24-7 like girl, no. But I think I'm about to text one of my homegirls and see what she got planned. Well the weekend, I was about to say for this weekend, but the weekend is almost over. But you know, it's summer, so whatever. I'm going to see what she got planned and then plan something for the girls because yeah. What I'm not going to do is sit up in her and stare at these children. Okay, so let me go ahead and get myself together, get dressed. Oh and welcome to the vlog, y'all. Welcome, welcome, welcome. Girl, y'all not new to this, okay? Y'all been here before. You know, like y'all might as well just walk on in. Like sit yourself down, get yourself something to drink. Y'all not guests for real. But for the ones in the back who are guests. Hey babes, welcome, welcome. I look a mess, y'all. But this is real life, real raw, real much. Okay, make sure you hit the doorbell on the way in. Click that like button, okay? Chill out with us. And I do have something I do want to talk to y'all about because girl, y'all was sending me some stuff last night. We'll talk about it. Do your husband open your mail? Like, he irritates me because like tell me that you're opening it so I know what's in it. So I know what's open. Because if I don't know what's open, I forgot what company sent me what or what's going on. I'll be in the dumps. Y'all niggas lame and y'all really kind of pumped. I be doing hard, yeah I'm all up in the trunk. Get my bass, yeah I'm beating, yeah that really feel skunk. Brand new hoe, that's a new stroke. That's a new bag, yeah give me more more. Brand new four, that's a gon' pour. Lean in my cup, yeah drink till it's gone. I got that brand new, I got that brand new. I got that brand new, brand new, brand new. I got a brand new fit, brand new ice. Brand new whip with my brand new Nikes. I got that brand new, I got that brand new. I got that brand new, brand new, brand new. I got that brand new ice, brand new fit. Brand new Nikes and my brand new whip. Brand new brick, that's a new lick. Brand new strap, might be a Celtic. Brand new thot, she just want me for the sex. Brand new hoe, she just want to give me neck. Brand new swag, that's a new bag. I been going hard, yeah she be getting cash. I been in the hood, yeah trying to get it loud. It's funny on the dresser, yeah I'm really. I was gonna talk to y'all, but y'all the kids is everywhere. Like I hear them everywhere. So once we get a quiet spot, we gonna do that okay. I was going to film this video with the girls, but I think I'm gonna do it another day. Because Mimi's in a mood girl. Just because you don't have a tablet, don't mean that you gotta mope around and do the most. My ancestors have spoken. Like girl what? I really don't want to leave the house today and spend money, but like my light. It's like a bunch of lights that I need. My light on my, y'all know like the little, what's it called, the little candle warmer. My light went out on both of my candle warmers. So I definitely need that, but I'm like, oh let me just order that from Amazon. Why do you spell edges? Edges is spelled E-D-G-E-S. I'm tired. I just prayed through it. But anyways, there's a bunch of stuff that I need. But I'm like, I could probably get it cheaper by just shopping online. I got some of their school outfits already from Shein. So that's gonna be coming in. But the thing is, I don't know what school they're gonna be going to. Because of all the stuff and the chaos that's about to happen. Like I told y'all the different options. And this light is getting to me. We just gonna have to send it to our child. But listen, I told y'all like the different options that we had. So it's just, I don't know, my head hurts. Right now we're trying to figure out like what her VA loan's gonna be and like all of that stuff. And it's just like, oh my gosh, y'all. It's so stressful. If y'all have any advice when it comes to buying a home. Like as a veteran, different benefits or things that y'all have used or heard about or whatever. Can y'all please, please, please comment down below. Because my head hurts. Like my head honestly hurts. But I'm like, you know what? We need to get this done. We need to get going, get to the next step. And like that's honestly our next step is buying a home. That's one thing that we have not done yet. And we need to get that done. Like I'm tired of renting. I'm tired of everything that y'all used to say. Like, oh, you're giving your money to, you know, it's not yours, you don't own. Like I'm with y'all. I'm with y'all now. Got into the big age that it's all making sense. Okay. I'm definitely with y'all. So trying to make that happen on top of school coming up. You know, like, oh gosh, the stress. The stress of being a mother on top of all of that. I'm like, my mind, my brain is on a mile a minute. I have so many different thoughts and things that I need to do. Mind you, I cleaned all last night. Y'all just seen me clean up, right? I just kind of like spot wiped down and stuff. But y'all seen me clean up. I mopped, I swept. I wiped down, suds up. Okay, did dishes. All of that. Wake up to a sink full of dishes. Okay. Cereal everywhere. Milk like dripping off the counters. Stuff on the floor. Broke cereals crunched up on the floor. Girl. Powdered donut hands all over my table. Okay. The chairs. We're not even going to get into the chairs. All right. Because the chairs have been a mess. And I've been stressed out because I can't find the little adapter. The little shampoo vacuum thing that Yara bought me from Shork. Yeah, I can't find the little top piece adapter to it so it won't suction up. Like, I just, I'm having, I'm having a meltdown. I'm having a meltdown. Okay, I can feel it. I feel it just, I'm trying to get pretty. Because then sometimes that gets me up out of that. But then I'm like, I don't even really feel like getting dressed for today. So, honestly, it's probably going to be a skin tinted moisturizer type of day. Because what? Maybe a little eyebrow. That's what I'm doing right now. Giving you a little brow. Okay. And I think I want to cut my hair to like frame my face. Because I never did that with this wig. So, I definitely need to just plop that girl on my head. Because it's so hot. Like, oh my goodness. On top of that, the heat. Oh, and let's not get into electric building for $100. Let's not get into that. I'll be in this bitch in the dark in a minute. Because I'm not, we're not spending $500 a month on electricity. Okay. Houston, really? Girl, she trying to run me up out of here. For real, for real. Like, I've been looking at houses in Dallas. Like, it's really looking that way. I'm about tired now. Okay. Old spirit, old soul coming out. I'm about tired. But yeah, girl. How's y'all weekend going? What y'all got planned? If y'all have small little ones, what do y'all do with them on a day-to-day? Because I think I done ran out of options and ideas, child. Woo, this summer has drained me. I absolutely love this skin tint. My only problem with this is I think that it was breaking me out. As you guys probably already know, I've been having a lot of issues around here. But I've been using a lot of, like, the ordinary products and things. I showed y'all, like, my skincare. I've added a lot of different things to it, honestly. I just kind of switch off different days because some stuff is, like, stronger than others. So, I don't use it, like, every day. I've been using a lot of different products that work for my skin. And I've been seeing a big difference. But I do want to get these toner pads. They're going crazy all over TikTok shop. But I just can't justify spending $50 for it, okay? So, I'm trying to wait for, like, a little sale right now. I think it's, like, 20% off. I could get it for, like, $36. But it's still technically, like, with sales tax and things like that, it still goes to $40. So, I'm trying to wait until it goes on sale. In the meantime, I've been watching what I put on my face also. So, this is one of my faves. Like I said, it breaks me out. But I do use it from time to time. It's Hit Pan Girl. I also use this, which has sunscreen in it. But I messed around and got my wrong shade. Because the one I had didn't have, like, the shade on the back. I had got it from Ulta. And it doesn't have the shade on it. But I ended up getting Tan Rich, which is not my shade. It's a little lighter. So, I kind of, like, mixed it. Mixed the two. But yeah, this is anti-aging hydrating serum. And it's supposed to be full coverage. But I don't really use it for full coverage. I just kind of, like, you know, just kind of smooth out my skin a little bit. So, that's what I'm using today. Can I tell you? This literally just gives you that glow. I love it. I wish I didn't break out, though. And I use it, like, every day. Like, I use this and then I hurry up and make sure I wash my face thoroughly at the end of the day. I just put it all over my hyperpigmentation area. Just wherever I feel a little, you know what I'm saying? A little shaping. I've noticed these little moles, or not freckles, because there's only, like, one. Like, well, there's a few right here and right here. I don't know if y'all can see that. But I've noticed that popping up as I've gotten older. My grandma has a lot of them. So, I'm wondering if I'm also going to have a lot of them as I get older. Giving face without makeup. Skincare. Like, glowing. You know what I'm saying? Glass skin. That's what I've been chasing lately. I really want my skin to be so even to where it looks like foundation. You know what's crazy? The other day, I was washing my face. Your eyes, our mouths. Because I had my lashes on still. Like, I'm still going to do my lashes. My lashes are going to be done. Okay? Permanently. I've already put that into rotation to make sure I keep them done. But, you guys, like, you have foundation on? And I'm like, no. And he's like, oh. I'm like, boy, don't try to hype me up. Don't try to hype me up. Don't do that. Okay? She already got a big head. I don't need a bigger one. Just putting a little concealer under my eye to kind of, like, wake up. You know? That's just a greeting. With you. Oh, child. It's been a long day, y'all. We haven't really done anything that I wanted to do today. But it is what it is, y'all. It's just a realistic day in the life. Okay? I made everybody hot dogs. Because last night, we had chili dogs. So, we just got some hot dogs going. And then, London wanted some oodles. So, I'm making her some oodles. Is it good? Yeah. I need to fix Milan's hair. So, ignore that. I did Mimi's hair last night. And, yeah. Man. I feel like every time I pick up the camera, I say I've had a day. But it's like, girl, I feel like I don't catch a break. Like, it's literally every day something's going down. Tomorrow, I'm taking these kids out the house. Like, I already prepped it. I already planned it. I already got it jotted down, honey. Got the time set and everything. I'm about to go over to my homegirl's house. They just moved. And they have like a, I think it was like a resort style pool. So, we're going to go see them and everything. Because they actually moved really close. So, that'll be good for the girls. Because all of her girls are the same age as my girls. And she has all girls. I have all girls. The only difference is she doesn't have like a baby. So, she has three that are like me, me, London's age. But doesn't have like a little baby. But Milan, she don't care. Like, she going to play with whomever. And especially if there's water, she going to have a time. Okay. So, we're going to chill out by the pool. Poolside, honey. Get some drinks. You know, get the kids situated. Have a little girls day. A little wind down day. I'm going to have a little drink. Okay. And I deserve it. Y'all hear that? They done found a guitar. We not even going to get into it. This is the only room in my house that I can barely hear my children in. And even then, they be on top of the door. Banging it down. Look, I just seen someone open the back door and slam it shut. Because they either let the dogs out or let them in. But girl, like, there's nowhere to hide. Probably in my closet is the only place I probably. No, scratch that. In my closet, in my safe. Girl, it's a mess. And then, like I said the other day, it's still just like you don't even want them to leave or go nowhere for real. But when they are here, man, oh man. It's in the night. Today, it was a productive day because, look, my bed's not even made. Girl, don't look at that. Don't judge me. I know you're not. I know you go through some days like this. So, we're not even going to get into that. Okay? You're not one of them. But I'm going to tell y'all who is one of them. Trolls, reactors, whatever you want to call them. Like, there's so many people out there that judge people. And it's crazy to me because they be judging people and you look over onto their lawn and they grass ain't even cut. How does that make any sense? How can someone be talking like reckless and they life in shambles? Like, and either it's either you know for sure that they life is a lot going on over there and that's why they miserable. Or they come on these fake pages and you don't even know. There's no face to a name. And that makes you even more of a miserable bitch. You know, like, girl, you can't win for losing on the internet. And that was one of the things that I loved about being offline was because I could protect my peace. And I could just be over here living my life. Like, I got a comment the other day that was like, lies. You just believe your lies. Like, I have no reason to get on here and lie. Like, I don't put on a facade. I don't, you know what I'm saying, make my life look luxurious and wonderful. Like, I really honestly give it to y'all so raw and so real. And I be feeling like half the time too raw, too real. You know, like I be watching all these other influencers and their vlogs and stuff. And they be sugarcoating a lot of ----, you know. Or they just don't be showing nothing. And it just be like all the good things, all the positive things. When you know, like, everybody is human. Everybody goes through stuff. And just because I choose to share, you know, like what real life is, I don't understand why that brings so much negativity and so much hate from people. And then people will turn around in the same breath and be like, Ooh, well, I'm not judging. I'm not judging. I just feel like for me, I wouldn't. Well, I just feel like me as a mother, I wouldn't date a pedophile. But here you are. I just don't be understanding people. I just don't be understanding. Like the most, the worst thing you could possibly say about me is the things that I give you to say about me. Like you can't go online and see nothing, nothing about my family. There's literally no paperwork that you could pull up and be like, Well, actually, we got, you know, like there's nothing. There's nothing. There's literally nothing. There's nothing that you could possibly pull out your bag of tricks and be like, Well, you didn't tell them this is happening because I am so real and so raw. And I know like people can't take that. But it's, that's just the way that I am. I'm not going to change the way that I am for nobody. Like I'm just not. Okay. And then another thing is people will, with the trolls, when the trolls be going at it and the trolls be talking and doing what they does, you know what I'm saying? Cause they only make a coin when they run their mouths about content creators who actually put out their lives because they can't put out their own lives because their own lives, what we didn't already discussed, their own lives. Okay. And what types of men they likes to troll around with. Okay. They're hiding their life from you. They're not on here like, Oh, well, I want to talk about such and such just because girl. No, they want to do that for the clout to make a coin off your name and to also hide the going on ones that happened behind closed doors in their domain. Bars girl, a little poetry session today, girl. I'm just saying, it's so crazy to me because I'm like, y'all, you really think that y'all are putting on this face when we know the real, like half the time creators like me, we don't feel like we need to come on here and tear down people. Like even when they were talking about us and our family and whatever, we still don't feel like we need to come on here and pick them apart each individual one. But it's just so funny to me how they are. Like, like I said, I don't hide nothing, but you do. So maybe you should just hush. Maybe you should just back up a little bit. You know what I'm saying? Because a lot of this stuff, y'all don't really want to come out. So I suggest that y'all leave me alone. Okay. That's what I suggest. Nothing you can say is going to stop me going to slow down this show over here. I'm going to affect anything in my life. Like I'm going to do what I want to do. And I made that very, very clear on multiple videos. I'm going to do what I want to do. Okay. Because, uh, do you pay any bills in this house? Oh, are we harming our children in any way? All right. They're very well taken care of. The way that our family dynamic is, is the traditional way of life. They have a mother and a father in the household. Girl, there's one rumbling right now at the door. My apple spilled. Oh, your apple spilled? Yeah. Okay. I'm coming in a minute. The only thing that my kids have to worry about is their apples spilling. You know what I'm saying? Girl. Boo. Oh my goodness. It's just sickening to me how these women operate. I really hate that for us. Because I feel like we go through enough black women. We are the most unprotected, like, you know, like, soul out here. Like, we get so much hate. We get stereotyped so bad. The fact that we can't ever come together collectively as a whole and be a community for each other. We have to have drama. Like, I don't care if people feel like I'm boring. I think I've already said this before, but the vlog that I said this in was like so long ago, so I'm going to say it again. The type of community that I'm trying to build on this platform has nothing to do with all my other platforms. Like, you may look over there and be like, girl, why are you posting over there? I said it in my question and answer. So, if you want to check out my question and answer, you can. So, you'll know why I post more over here than the Belt Plus 3. That is our brand. Our biggest brand. It makes the most money. But over here, I can do what I want to do. And that's what I use this as. Like, I don't see this as, like, I'm still branding my family. And I'm still, like, posting us. And it's still content. But I don't care if brands don't see this as, like, brand-worthy over here. As much as I do over on the Belt Plus 3, if that makes sense. But, yeah, the whole, I talked more about it, like I said in the question and answer. But the point is, the community on the Belt Plus 3 is a totally different community than the community that I want to build over here. Over here, I just kind of want it to be really realistic. I want to be the support for other mothers who go through the same things that I go through, you know, or worse. I mean, it is what it is. Like, I really want to be an outlet. I want to make people laugh. Like, you know, I want to have fun within our womanhood and our motherhood. Like, it doesn't always have to be so rough, even when it is rough. We can find a medium, happy place where we can laugh. And, you know, we can come collectively together at the end of the day and be like, Girl, this is what happened to me. You know, like, this is how my day went. Like, that's kind of where I see the reality of me. That's what I made this channel to be. I didn't make this channel to be filled with drama. To be, you know, oh, what such and such is doing. Oh, what did such and such say. Oh, like, you don't like me. Like, all that back and forth nit-picky, immature, baby-ass, troll-like, negative, nasty, just disgusting behaviors that y'all seen in the past. I apologize. Like, I can't even say it. Like, there's no words that I can form to formally apologize to y'all. Like, I feel so bad because y'all have watched me grow. I'm a 22-year-old little girl. I won't even say woman. Little girl. You know, find herself in motherhood. Find herself as a wife. I was a teen wife. You know what I'm saying? Like, I had to grow and learn a lot of things. And a lot of that played out online. And because of that, I've made mistakes. You know, I've fought different trials and tribulations, girl, online, publicly for everyone to see. I did that. Like, and I don't regret any of it. But I just want to apologize to all of my long, long OG bails that have been here from the start. Because I feel like I failed y'all. I went a little left. And I feel like God really wanted me to learn different things and lessons about myself. And I think I've learned them. Or at least I'm trying to. God still is working on me, girl. Hoo, y'all know. God is still working on me. But I'm finding myself really at peace. So, if that bothers people or they don't want to watch because of that or whatever, I'm okay with that. Like, I'm literally okay with that. This is not where I make my bread and butter. Like, this is not going to hurt my family in any way. You know? Like, I do this because I love what I do. And I make coin doing it. And it does pay the bills. But I'm saying, like, I don't do this because of that. And I feel like if you do YouTube just for the money, you're not going to go far. Like, you literally have to be able to get them hiccups and be able to pick yourself back up. You also have to be able to invest your money that you do make when you're viral to be able to sustain your family and to be able to have a future. Like, you don't want to spend up all the money and then be sitting here looking crazy when things go awry. Like, for instance, as an entrepreneur, there will be ups and downs. And as a good business person, you know that. This is not everything in life. Like, you make your money and you get up out of there. You do what you need to do with your money to make it last. You have to lengthen the longevity of your success. And you have to really honestly put it to the test and make it last. So I think in that aspect, we did well with. But when it comes to, like, everything I played out, I hate the way that I made money in the past. If that makes sense. And that will never happen again. Y'all will never see a lot of drama on this channel. I do not want any of that around me. I don't even like, I don't even like to watch it. Like, when people were sending me things the other day, I think it was yesterday. I'm like, ugh, I don't even want to watch it. You feel what I'm saying? Like, just hearing it makes my stomach hurt. And I feel bad for the ones who are stuck in that rut. Who can never leave. Because they've made their whole channels around drama. And that's all that they are. Like, if you start being positive and you start talking about positivity. People aren't going to watch you no more, boo-boo. And that's okay. See, I can grow a community of people who want to see positiveness. Listen, Belbae's, the ones who have been around for 12 years. Y'all know, we have a strong knit community. It's not going nowhere. Like, there's nothing you can do about it. But for the people who are just there for drama. And they build everything around drama. There's no hope for them. Because literally, that's all that people see them as. And that's all that they want to see them as. Like, they don't care about them as people. You know, like, they're not going to sit there and watch your day-to-day life. Because they just don't care, honey. They want you to come spill the tea and talk your ----. And that's it. Like, and I would hate to be one of them. So, because of that, I have backed back. I know what people want to see. I know what will drive the views up. I know what will make people come back day and day and day and day and day. And be like, what's going on? They be all in the blinds, honey. All up in through here. Girl, because what? Clout is a hell of a drug. I'm telling y'all right now. That clout is a hell of a drug. I talked to God. And I have made a plan. Figured out how to revert back to my true self. Like, my purest self. And that's where I want to be. And like, I know that I will attract the people who want to see that. So, I thank you guys so much for being here. Again, I apologize for the chaos and the mess that y'all had to endure. Some of y'all left and did not come back until it got okay. Until the bell signal went up. And I was like, girl, we good now. We good now. Y'all came back. So, I appreciate that. But just know that from the bottom of my heart, it's not about to be one of them. Okay? I do go through life. You know, like, things happen. But it's never going to be years and years and years of drama. Like, it's never going to be that. Okay? I love y'all so much. It's getting dark, y'all. I think it's like 7 something. So, Uriah's on the way home. And then we're going to figure out what we're eating for dinner. We're having a very late dinner. We need to go grocery shopping. So, when he gets here, he said he's tired. So, I don't know if I'm going to be filming him or whatever. Because he's had a long day at work. But we're going to settle down. Okay? And get this house under wraps. And tomorrow will be such a fun-filled, exciting day. So, I can't wait for that. The girls are so excited. But, yeah. So, yeah. Let's start shutting this house on down. Okay? Hands in back. Period.