WEEK IN MY LIFE: in a funk, host a dinner party with me, horse back riding & grwm for the PBR

I Hello everyone, welcome back to a week of my life vlog Wow What a day today has been but Macy just got back from New York It's because I mean I wear this all the time. We have a uniform for my house my free people shirt That's bleached or I spilled bleach on Obsessed obsessed guys. It's Tuesday. I did a blog yesterday and then I had the whole thing today But this morning I woke up and I went to a needlepoint class with my grandmother and let me show you what I'm working on Oh, I have a good tick-tock that I need to edit. It reminds me that It's gonna be like when I wanted chaos or no just kidding about wanting chaos. It's Tuesday at 10 a.m. You know No, it's just I want to see not it's just like We have this needlepoint. Look at how perfect I did that up there as you guys can see and I want this to be on A pillow and I understand that like the reality like this is a very easy needlepoint thing, right? Compared to like what the other woman we're doing. It was like a bunch of other people similar in age to my grandmother and I was talking and like normally I would just be like really talkative like that is my ideal demographic like a woman Over 60 like oh my god. I love that. I love hearing about their lives on everything about it There's like not having a good day So we didn't talk to that much but there's just one woman next to my grandma who was so Fabulous and like that is who I'm gonna be obsessed with and we're gonna regularly do these classes Anyways, all I have to say their needlepoint stuff was very advanced and I'm like I don't even know if I'm gonna finish this by Christmas because I'm gonna have to go back in and like get all the other Sort of colors, but I'm gonna try to do as much of the like actually did natural white not white See, this is what my youtube channels become like this is why people don't watch my youtube because like I'm sitting here for two minutes talking about needlepoint You know what I mean? I went to at home after needlepoint and I got the cutest trigger warning Christmas Christmas tabletop But I'm gonna go get more but like look at how cute it is I need so many more just to have forever It does give me a friend of mine vibe. It's just perfect Good morning y'all. Oh, it is Wednesday. I just made my coffee. I'm about to take Coco to her appointment It's now October and the weather is dropping a little bit and I just like I don't know. I just have been in a Like weird funk. I feel like I've just been kind of like a weird mood the past like month or two Just like wanting something new in my life. Like maybe being bored Like, you know what it's like in a weird phase and you kind of feel like numb to everything almost like it sounds really depressing I thought it was my PMDD which has really been acting up. I'm like going back on meds I'm figuring it all out, but I don't know I've just been in like a weird place lately and I'm starting to stress out because I'm like This is my favorite time of the year and I just thought it was gonna go away and I'd be happy and I feel like I'm getting in like a better spot. I was on phone talk for like two hours not really helped But yeah, I don't know if you guys are in a weird mood. I see you I get it. I just like there's something It's not good. It's not fun. Okay, I'm gonna talk more about this on the podcast and just like I don't know We'll go into it there, but I made coffee. I'm about to take Coco to an appointment I actually had therapy today, which I took a break from. I have a happy hour thing today for the family place which is the organization that I work with that Helps the victims of family violence or domestic violence and it's for like a bunch of Dallas people to like see how they can get Involved and whatnot. So hopefully a lot of people come to that. I keep ordering from friend of mine Well, I've done it. This is my second time I'm being dramatic but because I want to see what the customer experience is like So we're gonna do a little friend of mine on Boxing. Here we go. I don't know why I ordered just one recipe book and not cocktail napkins. Oh, I did that separately Look at how cute Here's the recipe journal I just keep giving these to people I Wish I was gonna have enough to give because I'm hosting a dinner party tomorrow night, which is gonna be so much fun I decided we're gonna do like quarter for vision boards. So that's gonna be good. I wish I had enough to give to everyone That's coming tomorrow, but I don't unless some of them already have them I'll figure that out But this is my recipe journal and the friend of mine cards and then this which I love these cards so fun and I'm shooting The product that we have. I don't know when I'm gonna say what it is I'm shooting that product Monday, and I'm very excited about it. I'm already working on with the second one Okay, I'm gonna have all of it done besides finalizing the design and then it'll go into sampling but I'm very excited if you guys don't know friend of mine is my Brand it is I don't know how to describe it It's just took a Nancy Meyers means Martha Stewart means like Gen Z Kenzie Elizabeth kind of vibe Like what's a lot of it is like hosting will expand into other categories this recipe journal Is the best gift for anyone especially if you want it to be like a family like heirloom type thing where you like pass it Down, but it's just such a good gift I would get them now because I don't even think I don't know if we're gonna even have any for sale by the time like December rolls around Just depending on our inventory We are like way more than halfway through inventory and I ordered a lot more than I thought I would need So I'm gonna get them now. How are you? Anyways, I have my coffee. I haven't even drinking my polypia farm There's no, you know, my anxiety isn't bad haven't even been having my police Califia farms Califia farms because I've been so anxious. I've been drinking coffee. Yeah Mm-hmm. Well guys as if this week couldn't get worse Let's see what Fitz got up to a little emergency room trip. This is his hot spot He already had last week that we've already taken care of This is charcoal because someone decided to get into chocolate chip cookies Isn't that's right? Isn't that right? So now he has to go to the happy hour with me and I'm late and we spent the whole afternoon at the ER poor Dude, he's totally fine though. So You know, he's he has you have better times. Oh, okay. Maybe maybe not on my white hoodie. Thank you Thank you. Happy Thursday. So today is dinner party day Yesterday ended up being a shit show Fitz is currently covered in charcoal and I've tried to get it out. Thank God He's getting groomed today. So it's worked out. He's fine I never leave things out on my counter, but also he never gets into anything He's such a good dog So I wouldn't even have thought if I left something out on the counter He would have gotten into it and Jess had made us cookies and it was like chocolate chip chocolate cookies or something Um, I don't even know how much he had we took him to the ER as you guys know and it was fine He was totally okay, but it was just something that the first half of this week Not my week second half of this week really gonna be my week because we have the dinner party today That's gonna take all day to prep for I've got a lot of stuff going and then tomorrow I'm going Riding with my manager and then we're supposed to go to the State Fair tomorrow night Saturday I have PBR which I am so excited about its professional bull riding if you guys didn't know I'm going with Kate Davis who I Love Kate Davis. I'm so excited to finally meet her her husband Cooper Davis is a bull rider And she has this brand first-class Cowboys that is so cute. So we're going with them They're doing a pop-up and then we have like a whole thing and I'm really excited Oh my god, I ordered outfits and they haven't come in. I don't know how to figure that one out It is just coming together. This is actually kind of like my ideal dream week. Everything's coming together. The weather's dropping It's only 68 degrees right now and it it rained like crazy last night So the dogs were like in my arms freaking out all night But anyways, I'm off to get my Thursday blowout and then I have a lot of errands to run this morning I need to go to the car wash and go to Trader Joe's which is where I shop for gender parties It's cheaper and I can get like I like the flowers there better I need to go to CVS for other stuff because we're gonna make quarter for vision boards and then I need to also go to at home because they need to get more bowls for pasta and then hopefully I can get More of those like Christmas tabletop things. Oh last night. I literally laid in bed and I watched a podcast and I needlepointed so Yeah, like I feel like this is a PSA I know I said I wanted a lot of chaos in my life in my 26th year It's already October and like I've had enough as is like I can't do it anymore Like something happened. I met chaos in my life not chaos in like my personal life like in that I need stability Okay, so I feel like I wasn't clear enough I wanted chaos and like my fun social life not serious not chaos and things that actually matter to me You know what? I mean? So we're done with chaos chaotic year canceled no longer. Actually, I don't know I kind of do want to come back to it. I'm thinking now that this has happened I'm like, maybe I'll just be like more chaotic than ever. I don't know We'll see Just got my car wash and my hair done. Now. We're off to Trader Joe's and to run a couple errands I'm trying to get the Sun as fast as possible. Here's my hair It's already falling. It's so humid if I wasn't already buying so much stuff. I would be getting pumpkins today Wow, this is so exciting. These are so creepy like But I feel like I need pumpkins. I just don't have time or I don't have room to them enough too much stuff so many Got so much stuff God So much food. Oh my god, and I had to make another door-to-door from sprouts for short rib and a couple other things Wow back at my favorite store These just to see All right, we're out last errand finally Getting stuff to make our vision boards All right, guys, so I've been in the kitchen all day I have Cooper here, which is Jess's dog right now. This is our little tablescape I need to this candle away for inside I need to get the utensils out and then we also have one for outside The thing is it's either nine people coming or 11, so I don't have my exact Correct like a mount yet, but I made these floral arrangements as you all saw they're super cozy Look at how cute it looks so cute. So simple amazing I Put a pasta in my mouth and it burned me you guys see I didn't know I Happy Friday, so the dinner party last night was great. We just hung out we sat outside of my pool right now Looks so gross. It's literally like green out of nowhere It was perfectly clean and then we had a really bad storm and I need to like get under and do the filter thing Anyways, I'm going to the ranch today to go riding my manager and I are going like I said This week isn't really weird I also have like such low energy levels if I've canceled two workouts and like I couldn't even tell you the last time I can't I I cancel like one workout a year like I never ever cancel so I just wanted to lay in bed in order to play and Watch the Kardashians, so that is what I did. I Loved the episode. I feel like I just been in a weird funk I don't know I can't remember what I said to the vlog and what I said to my friends and what I saw in the podcast and everything But I just feel like I've been in a weird funk and then I just had a really bad week like so many Everything that could go wrong basically so many different things have gone wrong even to the point where like my neighbors last night They're gonna parked on the street. We have people over everyone parks on the street It's like not that big of a deal and I wasn't out there when this happened but like one of them came out and started yelling at Jess and was like you guys are blocking which like my neighborhood the Streets are weird and like by the way Things are blocked on the streets all the time and I just drive to the next one and go around and it happens literally all The time and I when I went out there I don't know if I just like didn't see what they were talking about but like no one was even blocked I don't know. They were like screaming and then Just like they were just so rude and then they were like your neighbor who hasn't even introduced herself to anyone on the street I'm like first off like I have introduced myself to people on the street Like I also am like 26 everyone who lives my neighbor I don't know why I'm like telling you guys my neighbor don't but like everyone who lives in my neighborhood They're like their kids are like in college. Like there's no young kids. There's there's a very big age gap, right? Like I I just like already feel awkward and then when I don't know I just have like weird experiences. Okay. So anyways, I've always if I see a neighbor I'm always like hi introduce myself whatever about like three of them but a lot of them just like aren't out and then one of my neighbors told me that like Two of the people are like one of the houses someone they don't live there during the summer I don't know. I don't know and whatever. Maybe I should have been Trying harder, but also like I there they were outside I'm like, I just feel like are we still in an age where you look over and bring cookies and also mind you they haven't Introduced themselves to me either. So I'm like what? Anyways, he was so rude and yelling and I'm like see normally I'd be able to handle that and just be like hey look What's going on? Like I'm pretty good at like those kind of situations because I grew up in a very like a reactive Household. Anyways, I literally was like I'm gonna lose my mind like I I'm gonna lose my mind I do feel like I'm not getting coming back to you Like I was just saying I've been feeling very almost like I don't know if not myself is the right way I just feel like I've been in a weird kind of funk the past like couple of months But I had other things going on so it was distracting me and now I'm like wait No, I actually do kind of feel that way. So anyways with that being said I watched Kardashian this morning when Kim Kardashian goes to Harvard and something about that really inspired me and made me feel Better. I feel like every other vlog come on. I'm like, I make sure this is a lot I just feel like it's annoying to me. But the other thing is that like I Just feel like it's so normal in your 20s Like how these weeks where I've just been feeling like very lost and confused and like things are just like not going my way And like people are being mean and just like whatever and that happens and it's normal and I get it I really really really do get it Maybe I'll record a podcast episode like at this point. I really might so anyways, I'm getting dressed right now I'm gonna wear our coffee jeans this top. It's 70 so I can wear this is her Abercrombie Also, it's my favorite top, but I also have it in the bodysuit, which I like the bodysuit better I will link these they are Literally my favorite things ever. I also we were here to the fair tonight, but it's like Red River weekend I feel like that's just the worst time to go to the fair ever It's gonna be too crazy and I'm going to PBR tomorrow So I feel like I'm just gonna have some family over and we're gonna like cook or something. I don't know. We'll see And just chill and relax. So I'm gonna change and show you guys my outfit Okay, I'm gonna do my makeup, but I mean barely any makeup This is my look and my hat is from a friend of mine. These are dropping very soon, actually We're shooting some stuff on Monday, which I also really need to finalize today. Honestly, I just need to like stay in and work tonight I think that's what's gonna happen. But anyways, this is the look my Annie is my favorite cowboy boots ever You do an entire YouTube video on cowboy boots. I feel like that's not really like a YouTube vibe. Maybe to talk I don't know but I love it. I also have my fight me in Texas hat that I love This hat kind of looks better No, it's like too casual camo. This is merch of mine. Find me in Texas. It's really sick It's on the dear media shop merch page. It's linked below So anyways, I'm gonna go get ready Hi, can I just get a sausage cheddar and egg sandwich Sausage cheddar egg sandwich, of course anything else for you today? Yeah, and then a grande pumpkin cream cold brew, please And then a grande pumpkin cream cold brew, of course anything else for you today? That's it 1028. Thank you. Thank you. Good morning. Y'all. It's Saturday We're not gonna vlog the PBR for the vlog But we are gonna film and get ready with me and then we're gonna vlog the rest on tik-tok Macy's coming over in like an hour and we're gonna get ready. I'm very excited The PBR is professional bull riding if you didn't know so yesterday I went to the ranch We went riding and I had guys like just the irony of everything this week I had a horrible allergic reaction. It went down by like 5 p.m Probably but like this has been happening to me lately on the ranch That I just get like my face puffs up and like I had like a line here that was just like puffed so painful And then I worked and then it Macy and I watched the Beckham documentary The first like episode and a half really liked it and now we're going to the PBR and we've decided that today is gonna be Such a good day. Oh, that's Macy She's just crazy, okay, I'm getting my my coffee I don't know when I became like a Starbucks girl again. I just cuz I've had the weirdest week of my life. Hi Good, are you I have um points I think to Perfect. Thank you Thank you, can I get a straw as well Thank you. Have a good day. Okay, it's time to get ready Macy was supposed to come and get ready with me, but she just called me and she just got out of the shower And so anyways, we need to be on time and I'm getting ready right now. I'm wearing a very simple outfit You'll see honestly I don't even know just saying this get ready with me because I'm like was gonna talk to Macy but um, I Guess we'll talk about a couple things I want to do for friend of mine cuz I've just been thinking about like the staples of my life and things that I like Really need I've decided what we're talking about today disappointment in your 20s and Friend of mine so things that I want to do I've mentioned this before but I really really want to do like a dinner party tour Which is gonna take a lot of planning and a lot of work Around Texas or just like random cities to where I can host dinner parties for you all and you guys like buy a ticket And then it kind of serves like as a pop-up, but obviously it's a little bit different, you know So I'm excited about that stuff I really want to do robes I want to do more kitchen stuff the thing that I'm shooting next week and I'm sure I'll share with y'all soon is I'm like so confident in this and I just feel like it's like the best thing that I could do Like product wise and I'm really excited for it. It's something that I actually you guys have comment below it's something that I bring with me to dinners all the time and it's like something that I play with friends and My friends I have other Products of it for my other brands and my friends are always like, please bring that to dinner because we just love playing These like games if you will, um, we love them So I feel like after that you guys will understand but Anyways, I feel like I'm kind of coming out of this weird funk like yesterday when I went to the ranch with my manager I was talking and I was like, I just feel like like your 20s are obviously like so Turbulent and up-and-down and like there's not a lot of stability in it Which I feel like I used to hate and then I started to love and I was like, it's fun but I feel like when I start to hate it is when I like It really like let down in a certain area of my life like not even like let down but like Something hurts me and I'm like god like I just want the stability as if like I'll never be hurt again in life, but like someone just like I don't know if you you think something good is happening or you think like a job What's coming you think like whatever it is fill in the blank, you know um and sometimes I just like get really down which is so dumb and like I hate that I do that because it's like there's so Many other amazing things around my life and I'm like the most I'm at the luckiest girl ever so I feel annoying but then at the same time It's like you actually need to be able to like feel a certain way like I've been telling my friends I'm like, give me like three days and I won't care anymore and they're like it's okay though. Like if Like it's not three days and you still care like you're allowed to do that But I'm just so like I'm like an efficient person You know I'm saying it's like I want to like not be bothered by things and it's like why it's hard for me to let Like people in my life not like friends I feel like I like the best friends in the world But like it's hard for me to let go of my life because I don't like when people can like affect my emotions That makes any sense, which isn't great. And obviously I have to like work on that. But yeah, I don't know I've just been thinking a lot about like disappointment and how like every single time in the past I've been Disappointed or let down or like hurt by someone or whatever I always say this like there's not a relationship in my life in any Capacity that I no longer have that. I wish I did, you know, like I Always end up being like thank God like that was not it doesn't mean like that Person or that situation that work thing or like whatever opportunity was it doesn't even mean that like it was necessarily bad It's just like you look back what kind of 2020 and you always end up looking back and you're like, well, I thank God You know what? I mean, like I'm actually so glad that didn't happen because now I see why it didn't happen because this needed to happen like whatever You know what? I mean? So I'm just like thinking that way but also I'm like it is okay because I'm so like I don't know because I love like I think like self-development and like therapy and all these things I'm just like trying to make it really like as healthy as I can possibly be. I feel like sometimes I like Discredit my own emotions or I discredit like It's okay Sometimes to feel even though it looks like you have everything that you like to pay to just be down sometimes it is Okay, you know what? I mean? And I think sometimes I'll be feeling that way and also I have PUD and that's been like pretty bad lately But I'll be feeling that way and I don't like allow myself to feel that way that makes any sense. Also, I got this What is this? Who is it? Like I like prison ball. I don't even know what it's called But I don't know whatever on accident I think I like had it in my car and then I like forgot to take it out of my car and everyone's like Oh, everyone's like, okay, so I'm not supposed to apply it that way everyone was saying It's like the best powder ever and I really do like it But I'm just noticing that I have no idea what I'm doing. I might wear fake eyelashes today I might as well because like if I'm going to Kate's thing, you know, it's like her eyelashes. Anyways, I only wear rain lashes But I feel like lashes for 12 hours is a lot but it also makes you look like you got your makeup done, so Maybe I'll do that. The only ones that I can do the only issues that I have to cut them. I hate cutting lashes, so We'll see Hmm, but I was leaving yesterday And I was just like, I don't know. I just feel like I'm like this weird rut and like blah blah blah blah blah whatever and Obviously like it's pretty dramatic for no reason, you know, whatever And then I left and I got the coolest email ever and I was like see like good things are like always right around the Corner, you know what? I mean, but I don't I don't know I just feel like I always am like thinking of like Hopefully like when I'm like 30 31 and I feel like I have a more stability in my life I'll be like, oh my god, like that was like so dumb You know what? I mean? Like it's like any time you're upset over like an ex-boyfriend or something like later You're like, oh my god, that's embarrassing Like that kind of vibe and I try to channel that in every area of my life where I'm like disappointed I'm like no like trust me I'm gonna be happy about it one day and that day is probably gonna be sooner than not and I also feel like I've already at that point, but I don't know it just sucks like When you're like excited about something or when you like take a chance on something or whatever and then it's not bad So I'm gonna finish doing my makeup because I feel like I just keep rambling on But I'm excited for next week's vlog because I'm going to Memphis and I'm going through this thing called country cares Which if you guys follow me in this room at this point, I'm sure you've seen It was a really big honor. It's with st. Jude. So I'm really excited about that I don't know anyone who's going on the trip at all. So it'll be like a good Experience. I feel like a lot of the time when I do things like this and I like really Outside my comfort zone it ends up being like a really like Monumental week almost to where I feel like I just get like new like clarity or like direction or something And then maybe I can use I can just do better things in the world. My sister's calling me. I gotta go Bye, I finished getting ready I wanted to do my fake lashes, but couldn't find my lash glue. So this is the makeup look also Can someone explain to me why my left eye always looks worse like the mascara just like doesn't work as well And it drives me crazy. I'm sure it's like no one else notices, but I notice okay So I obviously use my setting spray. I feel like I just constantly spraying this thing Also, I've been wearing this st. Laurent perfume and I've got a lot of compliments on it. What even is it? I don't know like Libre I'm not sure but it smells Really good. I get a ton of compliments. You know, what else is amazing my second one I'm already down on anymore the capari golden or a body oil. This is amazing There's nothing I've ever put on my body that hasn't made it but it's actually even compared to this It's so glowy and it's so moisturizing by not being too oily and it doesn't make you look greasy Like it is just I don't know what they did here But it's amazing if you need any body oil or anything like this is my holy grail product the rest of my life I'm not kidding. So I'll link that below too. It's Unreal okay, so this is my outfit It's cute. I feel like the belt. I like the belt with it, but it kind of like messes up with the vest My boots are Lucchese. I need to put like my body oil on and then I'm pretty much good to go. I'm like out the door. I need to add My earrings that are in one of my purses. Why does it look like I'm crying? I feel like it always looks like that when I'm in this room but anyways, I just like can't decide because I feel like the belt it just like doesn't work, but then What if like throughout the day this gets loose, you know what I mean? I don't know. Maybe I can fit it in my purse if I really want to Hopefully that'll work Okay, we are off. I hope you guys enjoyed this vlog There's a lot more content on tik-tok and next week the vlog will be better and I'll be in a better mood I love y'all and I will talk to you soon. Bye I feel like people who came in during that time had a very different idea of who I was and it wasn't Necessarily that I was being fake online at all Actually, I just like I was actually sharing like what was going on my life at that point It was like a different period of time and I couldn't share a lot of other things Anyways with that being said I just wanted to share with you guys the story of how I got the nickname Delilah in Bible college