BRUTAL Return To Tournament Golf In Knoxville | Tournament Vlog

tournament golf is back i'm in knoxville tennessee for swing thought event number five may 30th 31st feels really good to travel again um but i'm also pretty rusty because yesterday's drive up stopped in aitkin south carolina to film with george bryan forgot my tripod forgot my ipad forgot my dongle to get my sd cards onto the computer and then after the round i forgot my extra battery in the golf cart so clearly having not traveled and filmed in like four ish months there's some there's some kinks so hopefully uh that that's behind me and there's gonna be no kinks in the golf game i'm headed out to three ridges now to get a little practice round and see the golf course before saturday's first round but first getting the coffee because nine hours in the car yesterday i'm i'm dragging i'm dragging [Music] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Music] that would be good 600 yard par 5 up the hill and this green has doesn't look like a lot of slope but a ton of slope there's not a lot of places they can put these pins so what are you guys doing right now uh hole locations and changing flags our new gradient logo it's pretty sick it's pretty dope yeah so yeah just getting ready for you guys tomorrow i wasn't the only one to spin out in a cart right you you were not i uh got fishtailed it the other day and uh i backed it into a tree and actually that's the exact same card i had yesterday is this part number eight yeah yeah that's the exact same cart this is the uh the bark where i hit the tree right there exact same part from yesterday walking up to the eighth hole and this par three 205 lots of elevation there so this is one where you just kind of hit a club and see what it does because i don't have slope on my range finder so i just hit a six iron back pin and uh hit like four feet so this is just i know now you know no wind i mean six iron won't go over the green seven irons gonna be front third of the green so that's kind of my reference point for what club to hit on this hole because of the elevation green was a little more shallow than i thought so six irons pretty well the club for this hole again if it's into the wind probably gonna be a five iron if it's down one it's gonna be a seven trees in the distance zap those they're 340. so i know i mean you can't hit it through you can see the 150 stakes holds 420 so that's basically the line i want not knowing anything that's up there but i want to get up there i'll have a better idea don't draw again upon getting up here i remember thinking maybe take it over that bunker and turn it that would have been jail i lost these things a little right and they both kind of kicked up here much narrower up here than than you think down there can't really i mean this might be a three wood like you don't man you can't really hit it past this 150 because it is quite narrow and if you lose it right you've got carpath and then long grass so this is a really really good challenging tee shot got another interesting one here this is the 17th hole and it's 600 yards on the card i just dropped the ball at about 300 off the tee pretty wide open but it's quite a bit downhill like i just hit rescue to like there those back trees were 300 so 600 on the car but playing a lot shorter again another another hole where you can make a late birdie for sure [Music] the greens are so good like they're a little firm to the bounce but they're still receptive but there is not a blemish on any of them and they're quick and true this is gonna be fun for sure okay that's it for my uh like pre course scouting coming up to 18 here but i'm gonna wrap it up for y'all i'm gonna go back to the hotel grab some groceries kind of load up the snacks i need to drink a lot of water because i'm stupid dehydrated and then come back here and like that's my time to put in some work on the greens and on the range i'm not going to film any of that now it's business time but i'll check in with y'all um later tonight or tomorrow morning i'll tell you what this is a very different experience traveling in the covit era you gotta go get your dinner bring it back to the hotel and keep that door open i don't want this hotel room to stink too much um yeah that's that's it for my day i've just been editing and to be honest editing today has been like a nice release from my mind because i'm feeling it i'm feeling like serious doubt and some nerves and some pressure because i mean i haven't played tournament golf since a local one in january and i played terrible in that one so i i spent two weeks like really practicing and really taking my mind off youtube and really focusing on being a golfer and my confidence is high and i like i'm swinging it really well and i'm thinking really well but it's unbelievable how these doubts can creep in and as i was scouting the golf course it's like i'm seeing where i can screw up and i mean i'm sure a lot of people can relate but there's just a lot of demons when you play the game of golf so just need to have a relaxing evening and clear my head and go out tomorrow and just enjoy it and trust myself and enjoy it and results i want to play well but i can't be focused on them because that's when you start to control hold on so tight and or you're afraid to make mistakes and then it's just you make mistakes so big difference um how this is all looking though we're flipping the nines so that ninth hole that i talked you through that's actually going to be the 18th hole so really great finishing hole and we're walking no carts scorecards like we're not exchanging score cards because obviously we're just trying to protect germs flags it's up to the player if you want to touch it and take it out it's up to you and then bunkers i don't believe there's going to be rakes in them yet so probably prefer lies in the bunkers so yeah pretty different what it looks like to play golf in the covid era but hey so friggin lucky nonetheless to be traveling and competing and even if i have to wear a mask and spray everything down in the hotel and eat my dinner in the hotel i'm still very very blessed and yeah maybe that's just what's going to keep me pressing through just that that optimism and that gratitude don't know if you're gonna see this don't know if i'm gonna upload this don't know if i'm gonna film anything more this weekend but yeah 8 42 tomorrow let's go play well [Applause] yeah round one you saw the score card and it uh wasn't very good 10 over par 81 pretty i mean disappointing yeah it doesn't feel good i mean being out there wasn't awesome i mean i enjoyed myself relative to everything that was going on like it was a beautiful day guys were great greens were awesome i putted really great that was the only thing that did well but like you saw in that scorecard i mean great birdie on the first hole hit it to like this from with a sandwich and then on the second hole kind of a weird stance lie shank it with my second shot into the hazard make double bogey and from there it was just really hard to kind of feel the club face i was just it wasn't a mess but it was like i just didn't know what what was up or what was down and then i um hit a good shot of the next hole made bogey though because it air mailed to green and then on the ninth hole at number nine i had 158 from the middle of the fairway hosel the nade iron into the fescue looked for a minute went back huzzled an eight iron into the fescue yeah so that's how i made a nine so i turned it eight over par which i mean in that moment i was like man i just don't want to be out here like who am i kidding tournament golf is just not for me like it wasn't that demoralizing or like that much negative chatter but anyone that plays golf under pressure the chatter is there i just kind of shook it off and didn't quit didn't withdraw even though i wanted to like i really really wanted to and then play the back nine and finally like felt like a golfer by the 17th hole i had a great shot in that part three made birdie two great shots on 18 had 25 feet just left it a bit short but those are the only two holes where it felt like i had control of my mind my body and the club face so i mean i'm gonna be near last place i'll be off really early tomorrow morning and all i can really do is just do what i do when i film like i'm so comfortable and i'm so relaxed when i film and i get it i'm not a full-time tournament player anymore so the the transition is going to be very stark but i love competing i love the feel of this i love the preparation so i'd have to go out tomorrow and play better really and just find something good so that i can kind of build on that for the next event i'm going to play in a few weeks time and then go from there just trying to build some momentum if i want to keep competing part-time wow making videos but yeah it sucks 81 like brutal it's so bad um but check in tomorrow and we're gonna have a better one that much i'm sure [Applause] round two marginally better than round one felt a little bit more confident out there for the most part but not having any kind of sustainable confidence it was kind of like al's of cards i played pretty well for about the first eight holes i just got on the wrong side of the hole twice and those were two bogeys and then on nine i mean i shanked it twice yesterday from that fairway so i just like pulled smothered it left to the green and had an impossible thing now to make bogey and turn it three over then hit a couple good shots on uh 10 11 12 made a birdie 13 good shot like just missed a couple birdies and then uh i don't know i feel like maybe i just got tired or no excuse but i just kind of limped i didn't even finish the last five holes five over going bogie and then shanked one made a double par bogie bogey i mean it sucks it's it's discouraging it's demoralizing and all of that but i'm really trying to not let it determine my my worth or my like thoughts about oh do i even want to waste my time trying to play again or and all those things because it's just very normal any golfer out there when you when you play poorly you like you you feel like you gotta go back to the drawing board and everything but that's not what that's not what i should do right now i mean i'm playing fine i'm gonna go film 59 watch in a couple days and it's either going to be a microcosm of how i just played and i'm going to struggle or it's just going to show that when i'm going through my routine i'm relaxed and enjoying it i can play really good golf but it just just was uncomfortable at times than when i'm uncomfortable i guess i rush myself and i mean when you hit a couple shanks you just feel like you have no control of the club face you don't know where it is and if my mind isn't 100 focused on just like rhythm or the target it's it's a little bit focused on my swing or where the club is and i don't know then it's just like it's tough and thankfully that putted it awesome the course was playing a lot harder today like really firm fast greens but for all intents and purposes was a fun week it was great beautiful drive going back through the mountains here like through asheville and eight hours a long drive home it was good it was a good week but like the results sucked played bad broke my camera so there's just a lot to be discouraged about but i have to remind myself not to be discouraged and i just listened to the first bit of my drive home um this morning's message from craig groschel at life church that's who kelly and i have been kind of church attending wow quarantine i'm going to link it below because it's just an awesome message that i needed to hear to to stay positive and to not be discouraged and just not lose confidence and there's so many things to be encouraged about and just a bad golf tournament a broken camera isn't uh the end of the world and it's not cause for like oh gosh you suck you're gonna get bad comments or oh gosh like you're you're washed up what are you gonna ever do no one's gonna like it this i'm not letting my mind go there i obviously have work to do at a practice and uh get comfortable in tournament golf again so i hope you enjoyed this look into the week in knoxville tennessee give it a thumbs up subscribe if you're not subscribed and uh yeah comments i appreciate all the positive ones i'm sure there's gonna be some negative ones but hey it is what it is but i just hope this is something that can encourage you and uh you can find something to relate to in it as you uh deal with your golf game the ups and downs and all that so yeah we will see you in the next video