YOUR FATHER IS POSSESSED BY THE AHAB SPIRIT (MY FATHERS DAY MESSAGE) #narcissist #covertnarcissist

Hey, hey, y'all. Spiritual Whistleblower here. Lord, I almost forgot to post my Father's Day video, okay? It would be very biased of me to only post a Mother's Day. You know, every year I do Mother's Day, but I got to post my Father's Day video too. So I'm going to just tell y'all what's been on my mind and my heart lately when it comes to my father, and I'm sure a lot of y'all will be able to relate. Um, I saw this video and, um, shoot, I wish I could, um, I don't remember, uh, the young lady that was talking about it, um, what, what her name was, but in the video, she talks about the Jezebel Ahab spirit and how that spirit, uh, is inside of people. Actually, I, you know, for so long, many years, y'all know, I will talk about the Jezebel spirit. But because it's Father's Day and anyone that follows my platform more than likely has a narcissistic mother and father, I want to focus on the Ahab spirit and why I feel that my father and probably yours, they have the Ahab spirit. You know, I thought about this the other day there was a moment in time that I reflected back on with my daddy I was a little girl this is when you know I have been very transparent with y'all I told y'all um probably the first I want to say the first eight years of my life my parents were very unstable living from low budget motels all over Jersey. Honey, when I say low budget rundown, trashy motels, we lived in several of them up and down New Jersey, Hamilton, Ewing, um, Cherry Hill, Pensacola, Mount Holly, Bordentown, Willingboro, all up and down route one. Um, I don't remember which motel we were in, but um you know as usual my my my parents they all they did was fist fight I've shared all this with y'all they were very violent in front of me my brother and sister my little sister doesn't remember this she was very young too little to remember but my my brother is the middle child I'm the oldest my brother remembers everything just like I do our memories of our parents always being violent in front of us. It's, it's forever. Like it's, it's a deep scar. Um, there was one time, um, as a little girl, my mom was, um, this motel that we were staying in, it had like a kitchen. It had a kitchen in it, like a mini kitchenette with, uh, you know, a little stove top, miniature stove top. And my mother was in there cooking. And then my father was sitting at the dinner table right and um they had just got through arguing like it's I swear to god it's like every day with them every day you know we had to sit on pins and needles and walk on eggshells because we just never know when our parents would start swinging and fighting they just didn't give a **** they fought at the drop of the dime whenever whatever in front of me and my siblings so my dad was sitting at the dinner table while my mom my mom was um cooking her back was turned I remember so I walked up to my dad I probably was six or seven years old and I asked my dad I said daddy why do you and mommy fight so much I honestly wanted to know I honestly wanted to know I said, why do you and mommy fight so much? You know, my father said this look, I will never forget this look that came over his face. And he probably would never remember this because they fought so many times. But like I said, I'm a child and I remember everything that our parents did in front of us, everything, all the horrible, there were more horrible, bad memories than they were good with my parents. I remember this look of I don't know I want to say disgust that came over my father's face and he looked at me like how dare you ask me that so my father switched up so fast he was mad that I asked him that question so what he did because my mother was standing right there cooking he said does your mother know that you you were uh talking about her he turned my mother against me right there in that moment she stopped what she doing and she beat me on the spot in front of my father He was so mad that I had the audacity to ask, why do you and mommy fight so much that he lied on me. Even if I were talking about my mother, like that's just ******* hateful. That's ******* hateful. And that's how dysfunctional my mother and father was as much as they fist fought and went at each other. They enabled each other to abuse their children. and that's how i want to tie the Ahab spirit in with all of this being that it's Father's Day i truly honestly believe my father is possessed with the Ahab spirit if you don't know who Ahab was Ahab was the husband of Jezebel if you read the book of Kings in the bible the Old Testament Jezebel slaughtered um so many people all of god's children she was a murderer she was just beyond wicked. She was the dominant one, right? She, there, there was no absolute, no question about it. She was the more dominant one out the couple. She did all, you know, she called all the shots. Um, and Ahab had a very passive personality. He was very laid back and passive and he allowed her to do what she did. He allowed her to be evil. He didn't stop her. He actually encouraged her and assisted her, but he was more laid back. He was passive. Now in modern times, if you have your mom and dad, if you grew up with your mom and dad in a household and you notice that your mama was more dominant than your father but they both were equally abusive your mama is the overt narcissist overt means out there with it not ashamed you know I'm out here telling everybody yeah bitch I'm violent yeah I'm this I'm that what you want to do bitch the overt malignant narcissist has no shame they're going to tell you they're going to **** you up they're going to tell you what time it is You'll know who they are because they won't let you know who they are. Now, the other partner is the covert narcissist. And the covert is the sneaky, silent one. The covert is the dangerous one. The covert is the one that usually is holding a Bible and saying Bible scripture and praising the Lord and always has a sweet smile on the face. You would never suspect them of being abusive because they cover it up so well. they're very laid back and they're very passive you understand passive aggressive so they usually the way that the dynamic of the relationship is set up the more dominant narcissist if it's your mom in my situation my mother was the dominant narcissist she was the malignant overt loud mouth wild um reckless all over the place bully mean cuss carry on she she was wild um i would definitely say she was the more powerful more dominant narcissist out of the out of the two my father was the covert narcissist he's the praise the lord hallelujah reading all types of bible scriptures jesus this jesus that praise the lord this praise the lord that but behind closed doors my my father is a ************ my father can be so catty and nasty behind closed doors i've seen how he talked to my mother i've seen him get in arguments you know uh at his mother's house in front of you know the kids my grandmother yeah my father is misogynistic and he one thing he's very good at he can argue with a woman it's almost like he's a woman, he morphs into a woman to argue with a woman and he loves it, very nasty, very catty, okay and that's why me and him are not close today because I clocked his behavior a long time ago and I caught his manipulation, you know, disguised as being a loving father, there's nothing loving about being a manipulator and then playing victim, my father is also a professional ******* victim, he is a total covert narcissist, so if you have a situation where your mom and dad together they grew up in the same household and your mama was the more dominant one, she's the overt, your father is the covert, he's laid back, he allows your mama to abuse you, he doesn't stop your mama from abusing you because he wants to look like the good guy, he wants to keep his hands clean so if you run to him and complain about your mama, he could say, "come here baby, I know mommy's not right, mommy's not right" but then what he's gonna do, he's gonna go behind your back and tell your mama what you said about her, so your mama can beat on you some more and abuse you, so your daddy's a sneaky two-faced liar and that's how he controls your mama and stays on her good side by flip-flopping and playing both sides, my father did the same thing, so in that moment when I was simply asking my daddy a simple question, "daddy, why do you and mom fight so much?" he chose to turn my mother against me and she beat me right there on the spot in front of him, yeah, my my daddy uh enabled my mom to bully and abuse me, my mother married a pedophile my father never confronted that man my father not you know my father didn't beat his ass them my father is scared of men my father will not my father will never fight a man one-on-one I've never seen my father whoop another nigga's ass ever but a woman oh my father will get with a woman he know how to cuss a bitch out he know how to put hands on my mother my daddy in his mind I think he's a girl I think he thinks he's a woman he's very feminine I don't give a **** would nobody say so it took me all these years to realize that although my father looked like the good guy I always thought my daddy was the good guy because my mother was violent she did she was very abusive towards me and me and my father would have these discussions about her but it took me a long time to figure out that wait a minute I've been molested by my mother's second husband and My daddy did nothing about it. I've been beaten, bullied, gone through hell in high school. My father never fought for custody. My father never even sent for us for visitation so that we could get away from my mother. My father enabled that woman to harm his children because he just did not give a ****. He can make all the excuses in the world. My father did not give a **** about his children. we were nothing more than just tools we were pawn pieces to to you know every time I get on the phone with my daddy the conversation is about my mother he wants to stay in her business they live miles apart two different states he stay in her ******* business he stay talk he hates her but he can't keep her ******* name out her mouth and he used me and my brother to keep tabs to report all the information back to him everything that's going on in my mother's life and when I realized that I was being used I thought I was a daddy's girl we were bonding through gossip but I woke up one day and I said wait a minute my father don't give a **** about me my father is just using me I'm just a pawn piece in his sick mental chess game pawn piece when has my father ever defended or protected me I done been molested he didn't do nothing to the man that molested me nothing most men would have knocked the nigga out. My father did nothing. All the, the, the toxic men that I've dated those, I chose those men because those men have the same personality and character as my daddy. See ladies, we got to understand that when you grow up around your father, the first 20 years of your life, first 10, 15, 20 years of your life, your father's behaviors, his personalities, how he treats your mama that's programmed in your head so when you become a grown woman all your father's behaviors you're going to identify them in other men that you date and get in romantic relationships with and if you have a pattern of getting with one abusive man after the next it is a high probability that your daddy is a narcissistic abuser so I'm dating men not realizing I'm picking these abusive men because the nigga that raised me was ******* abusive the nigga that raised me enabled my mother to get away with abusing me the man that half-ass raised me allowed a pedophile to get away with taking my innocence from me yeah my father is consumed with the Ahab spirit he probably would disagree with this video and I don't give a **** he would down play he probably would say I'm crazy I don't give a **** because he has ruined his relationship with me I don't want a relationship with him because I realize now the real reason why my parents brought me into this world number one they were pressured by my grandmother to have a grandbaby they were too ******* young too ******* dumb they both was broke they had no business having ******* kids or getting married, but they were pressured to do that. And number two, you know, when, when, when I was born, I think that's when they started to realize that raising a child is a lot of work. It's expensive. You both have to be responsible. You both have to work. And I, somehow I feel like I'm the blame. I get blamed for their problems, the issues they had with each other. That's just how I feel like I suffered then to learn that I'm just now learning that I had autism all this time as a little girl I had a developmental disability I am ******* autistic and my parents never got me help and I got beat for all the awkward things I did as an autistic child and having to witness them being violent in front of me an autistic child has sensory issues can you imagine so my daddy enabled my mother to further abuse me everything now makes sense to me everything I don't want to talk to my father I don't want to see him ever again I just don't feel like his love is genuine it never was you know a real father protects his daughter from predators he He teaches his daughter about predators. He teaches his daughter how not to pick abusive men, which my daddy never sat me down and taught me anything. He was, you know, he was there up until my mother remarried and we moved to another state. He moved to another state. But what was stopping him for filing for joint custody? what was stopping him from filing for visitation and sending for his children so that we could be with him and and and not with my mother all the time he knew that by leaving us with my mother full time we were going to get abused he knew it he knew it and every time we get on the phone he just needed something to gossip about he needed a reason to talk ---- about my mother but he didn't step up to the plate and be the father figure that we needed of him he was a terrible leader terrible provider just everything was just centered centered around my mother he had an obsession with my mother they're both fucked up in the head so you know ladies on this father's day I don't know if you've chosen to cut your daddy off I cut my father off many years ago I have no regrets um I realize a lot of my own toxic behaviors I used to gossip I used to you know be in a lot a mess I picked up a lot of that toxicity from my father I learned it from my father and his side of the family because my nana his mother is ******* messy they're all messy and I just woke up one day and I said I don't want to live like this anymore that's why everybody got cut off because I don't want my name dragged in no mess I don't want nobody blaming me for gossip I don't want I just I'm tired of it the dysfunction the generational trauma I'm tired of all of it count me out I don't need to go to the family reunions I don't want to go to no ******* cookouts no weddings no baby showers count me out I've had enough I am embarrassed of both my parents but my daddy failed me my daddy failed me big time because I went through a string of bad relationships that I didn't have to go through my father should have sat me down and taught me how to identify a narcissist instead of me having to go through it the hard way and learning on my own the Ahab spirit read the book of kings in the old testament and you will learn who Ahab was he was the husband to Jezebel and she was a tyrant and he was her enabler he was just laid back and he let her do her thing he assisted her um and he paid for it in the end but you know she suffered she got trampled to death they threw they tossed her out of the window out of a tower and let the horses trampled trample her to death she died a very violent death but just know next to every violent abusive woman there is an enabling man and now I look at all the men and women in my family my father's parents it's the same repetitive behavior that's how my father got with my mother because he was just repeating what he was taught my grandparents I'm talking about my father's parents my nana was a tyrant loud mouth malignant narcissist cussed everybody out you could hear her mouth down the block she ran that house and my granddaddy her husband was a laid-back covert narcissist he fought her but she was the more dominant one she was the fire starter the ---- starter she was more dominant than my granddaddy and that's where my father learned how to choose his wife all my father did was choose to marry a woman just like his ******* mother he repeated ******* history Jezebel Ahab spirit and I'm ashamed of my father I don't even want an apology I don't want to talk to him I don't want to look at him I want my parents gone I know that sounds cruel, but they have brought so much destruction and trauma to my life. And I've spent a lot of years unpacking it. I've spent a lot of years in therapy. I'm just learning now that I'm autistic. They've done damage and the lack of accountability, the fact that they haven't worked on themselves in therapy to undo all the ----, unlearn everything. They don't care that my parents are baby boomers. they don't give a **** but they will expect you to keep kissing their ass and and uh just forget about all the ---- they did and just start over new it doesn't work like that you can't erase trauma ptsd overnight it doesn't work like that i'm still fucked up that i was recently diagnosed with autism i'm so fucked up that i learned that that i'm autistic y'all y'all don't understand how much i've had to unpack from my childhood learning that i had a developmental disability as a little girl and i got beat bullied i witnessed so much violence like they both should be ashamed of themselves but my daddy he failed me i can forgive him but i don't want nothing to do with him and i do believe he he is consumed with the ahab spirit that's the problem you know uh ladies If you haven't cut your daddy off and you're working towards that, um, take it day by day. It's not easy. It's not easy, but just know a lot of us, our fathers used us as pawn pieces to control our mama, play us against your mama. You know, your mama may not like you cause your daddy got you in this secret competition with your mama playing y'all against each other. Your father is wicked. He's just laid back about it cause he doesn't want to look like the bad guy. but be sure to clock him, clock him, hold him accountable. Um, and try not to grieve on this father's day. Okay. And to all my single moms, happy father's day. Real talk. I love you guys. It's the spiritual whistleblower.