2024年7月29日 11:27

It's a good day. So the folks are off in Romania for two weeks. I drove them to the airport this morning. Peace and quiet. Thank you. And so for the first time in a little bit I really got down to studying our book Drangfallen or what we call Dafa, the Fa or the La. And really peaceful, really good. I made some tea, washed the dishes, straightened up here and there. Everything's going okay. I'm a bit of a spook. So in times past, you know, I'd really use the social media to its full leverage to kind of get into things that maybe they don't want me to get into them, but they were out in plain view anyway. So it was kind of like, can't really ignore it. It's right there. Can't get away from it. So, and then when, when we got the divorce, you know, I kind of obsessive, I guess you could say just what's she up to? How does she look blah, blah, blah, yada, yada, yada. And, you know, and ultimately trying to reconnect, like, Hey, we can work this out. Hasn't happened so far, you know, seeing each other a few times. I've always liked the experience, but it's never really worn any tangible fruit. And then, you know, LinkedIn seems to be like the only one that she, that when my ex-wife is still utilizing, she's got her reasons. No problem. But whenever I try to connect to LinkedIn, my account gets shut, count gets shut down. So I don't know if it's LinkedIn punishing me for cyber spooking, or if it's my ex-wife that reports it, whatever, it doesn't really matter. Ultimately, this, this thing is nothing but a mind cramp. It's really useless. Bad. So I'm glad to be rid of it, you know, through the process of going through just using stuff the way I want to use it. It makes sense to me, kind of gotten over it. You know, I don't really have a compunction to check. I don't really care. I don't want to know. Like I'd rather be anonymous and just nobody know and just do things that I feel I should do and just be good with myself and nobody, nobody has to know. I don't need any of that. So but anyway, anywho, so it's kind of interesting because I went up on the Minkway website, which has experience sharing articles from Falun Dafa practitioners from all parts of the world. And an article today is called letting go of resentment after my divorce, because, you know, after my wife left me, I was pretty resentful, you know, and despite, you know, and like, well, it's pretty much a clear cut hit right there. And then the chapter that I'm reading right now, it literally started off from, you know, you got all these human emotions, it's just emotion, something you have to let go of if you're going to succeed in cultivation. And, and, and anyway, so, you know, it's all very clear cut. And obviously, it's a very good experience studying something good like this. And it kind of brings you up above all the other stuff and just clears it out. And it's like, so childish, all this, all this nonsense is just such malarkey. It's silly. But you know, you read and then you have to go on with your life. And you're still who you are, you raise yourself bit by bit, you know, you do your best to try to be strict, but it is what it is, you have to go off facts. And it's tough, it's tough, you just got to be mindful, be aware, and just stay, stay your lane, stay your lane all the way to the end. So, so far, so good. I can't complain. I'm almost 40 years old. I feel like a kid. Life is good, get everything I need more than I ever expected I'd have. Life is good and getting better all the time, but it doesn't come free. Everything is paid for to the penny. Either way, good or bad. I think it's all good. I'm grateful for everything. But yeah, man, you gotta put in the work. You have to be able to just get through it, just keep going, no matter what, don't pay attention.