running away to florida ☀️ (i miss van life)

Good morning! Wait, I want to pick a different color. Hold on, hold on. Whoa. What color? That one's kind of nice. Maybe. Um, that's good enough. Good morning from the Planet Fitness parking lot somewhere in Georgia. I woke up at like 5 a.m. just really excited to be live and I haven't been able to go back to sleep. So here's the plan. Me and Trent are on our way to Florida to go to a tiny house festival near St. Petersburg, Tampa, that area. Let me show you our sleeping arrangements. So I slept right here and then we have Trent right next door. I'm waiting for Trent to wake up so we can start driving somewhere. We drove about five-ish hours yesterday and I think we have about five more hours to go today and then we should be there and we're meeting Trent's brother and his wife. Trent's brother was on Gutted, the reality show that I was on over the summer. So that's how we know each other and that's kind of how me and Trent met also. So I get to see him again too. But you look who it is. My bad. We're going to Florida, we're going to Florida, we're going to Florida. I've never, well no, I was gonna say I've never been to Florida but I've been to Florida but not in a really long time so I don't really remember it. Excited. Okay let's go. Are you excited? All right see y'all later. All right man. Bye. We're done, right? What's up? It's Trent and I'm hijacking Steffi's camera. Just want to let you know that Steffi is currently instructing a hula hoop class to the young, the young kids of the squad. She's doing great job. She's an expert hula hooper. Yeah this is Trent signing out. Peace. Millie what is he doing out there? Is he crazy? Is he crazy? Is that your dad? I know you don't like when he goes on that skateboard. It's too scary isn't it? Yeah we're at the tiny house festival and we're having a great time, right Millie? Yeah we're making so many friends. Yeah. I'm using Trent's luxury van to cook some luxury pasta. Luxury pasta. Yeah this is the party van. Yeah. Boom. Oh Christmas. Yeah it's it's Christmas 24-7 in this van. I got pasta coming up. Pasta what? Pasta pizzule. What is that? That's what I call pasta. It's pasta pizzule. You add a little spice to it. Oh okay. Not literally but just in the name. I mean we could add spice to it if you want to. I don't like spicy food. That is so unfortunate. I'm wearing this wig because it's actually really cold in Florida and this kind of keeps my head warm and it looks kind of cool I think. I'm so excited to meet people. Friends. Can I show your van and my vlog? Absolutely. Hi vlog. This is my van. I live in here with my husband Josh. We have the 136 inch wheelbase so it's pretty small but we have a lot of space in here. We're pretty happy with how it turned out. Got the couch. I think that's like my favorite part is being able to enjoy the view from my couch. I like how modern it is. Thank you. Can I go in the back? Of course. Yeah my husband's in there. Thank you. That's pretty heavy. Coconut. It's forward so you go. You're shifting your weight back. You don't know him? Camera's out. Be really awkward now. Drama. The margarita mission does not end. Can I get a margarita? I'm gonna sit down but like don't freak out. Don't like fall or anything. Oh hi. Yeah I'll be your cameraman. Yeah all right. Thanks. So what do you have to say about the situation that we're in right now? It's good. No look at the camera. It's pretty crowded yeah. Honestly it's a really cool shot. Thumbnail. We're just gonna have the stupidest footage and just have to turn it into something. I feel like going to the tiny house festival really inspired me in a lot of ways and it made me remember the community and the lifestyle that brought me so much happiness. I think back to when I built the van in the summer of 2020 and how excited I was to get on the road and how much fun it was and it was meant to be like a pretty long-term thing but along the way I met Morgan and I fell in love and then I started renting this house with him and pretty much devoting my life to trying to make him happy and kind of just neglected the van stuff for the most part and kind of just settled down and now I'm at the point where like we have a lot of problems and there's just a lot of things building up that are just kind of making me not want to stay in that house anymore and I want so badly to move back into the van full-time to be totally honest and it's just kind of complicated because I have to consider him and the animals and all of the stuff we've bought and it's just like sometimes I wish I could go back in time and just like never have done that and just stayed in the van and kept traveling on my own but I think at the same time I had something that I needed to learn from all of that. I want to get back to the place where I was a little over a year ago when I was in the van full-time I was traveling I had all sorts of goals and dreams and I was just so excited all the time and I got a little glimpse of that this week and it's really made me kind of emotional because I miss it so much. I just don't want to waste my life in a situation where I'm not happy and I feel like Trikafta has given me this new lease on life and I almost feel like guilty for wasting it doing anything other than something that brings joy. I just really miss being free and being able to live without a ton of stress and I feel like when I'm in my van or living in a car or whatever it may be I just feel so much more at ease like everything in my body just feels calmer. I don't really know what I'm saying I just need to figure my life out and I think I need to go back to Asheville and decide what's next. Okay I'll update you guys when I figure my ---- out but for now goodbye have a great life.