Totalmente en español!!

Hello guys welcome back to my channel My name is Jess and this will be my first video entirely in Spanish or Castilian Now my Spanish isn't excellent so I'm using Google Translate to help me That means I will definitely say the wrong things and you are allowed to laugh at me But I will try I just wanted to post a short video to update you on our life here in Spain right now and share some encouragement to help you through this week Hello I'm Jessica I'm from the United States California I'm here in Barcelona with my husband Sean and my daughter Eloise My daughter is two years old Sean is a professional skateboarder We work at an organization When I moved to Spain I made a video in Spanish explaining why I'm here I've also made a couple of videos with translators since then So you can also look at them I will link them below I know many of you follow me because you know my friends Grace and Melissa Villarreal from Instagram and YouTube Grace and I have been friends for 10 years We met during a Christian missionary program in Los Angeles with Youth With A Mission And we also met up with Sean and Jacob at that time I love those girls And if you're not following them yet make sure to comment They're as amazing as they look on Instagram or YouTube but even better better Their hearts are really pure and kind and what a beautiful and the best on YouTube I am from California and by the end of this year our family plans to move to Los Angeles So I'm trying to really enjoy our time here because I know it's short Last year I suffered a lot from depression He made a video about this in English but the short story is that last December after having suffered for many months I tried everything I could think of to improve my condition and ended up spending 10 days at a psychiatric hospital At that time I was suicidal and knew I really needed help The hospital program was something routine so I didn't stay there I went in the morning and left in the afternoon So in the morning I went and in the afternoon I went home During that time I took medication to help me with my depression and was part of a group therapy session I was in the United States for all that and thought it would better to take a break from Instagram and YouTube to have space to be healthy The process took a couple of months and I'm much better now Some of you asked how Sean and Eloise were at that time and in fact both were really well Obviously Sean was worried about me But Eloise had no idea what was happening We stayed with Sean's parents and they are obsessed with Eloise So he lived a dream life throughout all that time It was a gift Then after all that happened I feel better again We are back in Spain I have a doctor and a counselor here to help ensure that I stay healthy and so far it has been really good I love Spain and I love the people of Spain The first year was a challenge being in Barcelona because I had so many problems in my mind Obviously with depression and also because I was learning how to be a mom Something that didn't come naturally to me I love Eloise very much Very very much But motherhood was something I had to learn to love I don't know if that makes sense I love Eloise but naturally I don't love being a mom I don't know I'm sorry Also that year I wanted to learn Spanish but felt it was impossible because I was surrounded by many English speakers and spent a lot of time alone with Eloise This year I'm trying to learn more and I practice every day In fact if you live in Barcelona and want to come and speak Spanish with me I would love that You can send me an email I will add my email address below this video I am planning for this year to be wonderful I truly believe that God is faithful and uses all the difficult moments of our lives To make us stronger and show us His love Then my point in all of this is that I'm not feeling my best But finally I have hope for the future and that makes me very happy I'll end by saying these three things that I hope you carry with you throughout your week Well the first one is that I want you to know that you're very normal It doesn't matter what is happening The challenges you are facing Any goal you have Anything big or terrible that is happening in your life You are normal You are not crazy and you are not alone Sometimes everything sometimes Sometimes all we really need is a friend who looks at us and says me too We just need to remind you that we are not alone in what we are feeling or in what we are experiencing Then today that friend is me And the truth is you're normal You're fine No matter what you're going through it will get better This feeling you have is temporary So just focus on moving forward This video is long It's for a long time I'm sorry It's because I'm a turtle and I speak very very slowly Slowly Who tells me softly Softly The second thing is that you are not your mistakes I think it's so easy to focus on our weaknesses And the things in our lives that we believe we are failing at And we let those things define us But I am learning that we are much more than our shortcomings In therapy they told us to end our day by thinking about all the things we did that day that we are proud of It's amazing how often we end the day thinking about things that make us anxious or discouraged or worried But we don't have to live like this When your mind starts wandering to the things that are stressful When it begins to focus on all its failures just stop for a moment and try to think about the things it did well It could be as simple as getting up in the morning and putting on makeup or going to school or work or being kind to someone Small things will generate momentum So don't be afraid to start small Thinking this way will boost your confidence and interrupt your negative thoughts The last thought is that Find ways to enjoy your life right now It's very common to wish you could be somewhere else doing something else with someone else But life is short And eventually we might be older and look back on this period of life wishing we had enjoyed it more So find ways to enjoy your life right now Organize your friends for a fun night Spend time with your family Go outside Send a letter Take the phone off your ear Stop comparing your life to others' And start living your own You are not a victim You have more control over your life than you think So do what you need to do to make today better than it was before I promise it's worth it Is it worth it Lately that has meant hosting dinners at my apartment for my friends It has meant staying up to date with my goals on YouTube It has meant connecting with friends It has meant practicing Spanish Take Eloise to interesting places like the aquarium Yesterday meant filming Sean while he was skateboarding And he had no one to film him Then for an hour I was My mind is Actually it was very fun yesterday with Sean Life is short My point is Life is short So do everything you can to enjoy your life right now Okay Alright Beautiful Thank you Thank you thank you I'm sorry because Very slowly yes But thank you for your patience I hope this video makes sense Who knows Thank you for following my channel and my Instagram I am excited I am I'm excited to see you again next week Have a really happy day Have a really happy day and week Thank you all Kisses kisses Goodbye